divalou
05-14-2007, 12:35 PM
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hi there'
was wondering if you could shed some light as to if you think this is part of ocd/pure o.
i sometimes get these really wierd thoughts like when im speaking about someone or something i'll know the word im loking for but my mind will tell me another name/word. i never say the wrong word but its in my conciousness.
i also worry that sometimes i think of my bf as a girl, this is really odd. especially as ii used to be a leasbian (the same used to pop into my head with her, worrying that i wanted her to be or thought of her as a boy). its like i'll kiss him or touch him or talk to him and then all of a sudden my brain will go "oh my god were you jsut thinking of him as a girl or imagining he was a girl?!"
and soetimes i misread words and another word will pop into my head, usually a sexual word and this freaks me out!
also i keep getting this wierd...sensation i suppose, not really a sexuakl image or thought, just a wierd sensation in my mind that i am attracted to or turned on by something, it can be completely random thigs, i cant quite explain it.
does anyone have this?
Lou
hi there'
was wondering if you could shed some light as to if you think this is part of ocd/pure o.
i sometimes get these really wierd thoughts like when im speaking about someone or something i'll know the word im loking for but my mind will tell me another name/word. i never say the wrong word but its in my conciousness.
i also worry that sometimes i think of my bf as a girl, this is really odd. especially as ii used to be a leasbian (the same used to pop into my head with her, worrying that i wanted her to be or thought of her as a boy). its like i'll kiss him or touch him or talk to him and then all of a sudden my brain will go "oh my god were you jsut thinking of him as a girl or imagining he was a girl?!"
and soetimes i misread words and another word will pop into my head, usually a sexual word and this freaks me out!
also i keep getting this wierd...sensation i suppose, not really a sexuakl image or thought, just a wierd sensation in my mind that i am attracted to or turned on by something, it can be completely random thigs, i cant quite explain it.
does anyone have this?
Lou
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kotitka
05-14-2007, 05:22 PM
I broke down yesterday and confessed my OCD to my boyfriend. I am so scared now, 'cause he always stresses how important it is to be healthy, mind and body. I love him and don't want to lose him.
divalou
05-15-2007, 05:33 AM
im sure if you bf loves you and you explain it fully he will understand. i told my bf about relationship ocd and he was so understanding. i havent mentioned what is going through my head atm but im sure if i did tell him he'd understand. explain to your bf as well as you can what ocd is im sure he will be supportive
do you have similar thoughts to me?
do you have similar thoughts to me?
kotitka
05-16-2007, 12:10 PM
And I started to hate my OCD. I hate this thing in my head.
It's been helping. My biggest thing is to stay off compulsions, then obsessions seem to go away. I was sinking deeper and deeper, and then I remembered that twice OCD made me make very bad decisions, simply by my doing the compulsions, or by doing "avoidance behaviour". And then I remembered all the time I lost and all quality of life I lost and then I reminded myself I am not God, and whatever thought comes to my mind does not mean this will happen; only action matters, not thoughts, from my side. Then I reminded myself that often I do not even "wish" bad things, but rather "feel" they may happen and this is as far from reality as it could be. And then I reminded myself that sometimes I was able not to perform compulsions when "bad things" would have happened, and nothing happened. If I continue to succumb to OCD, it will make me die. Sometimes I feel strong, sometimes I am reduced to nothing, but I will fight it.
It's been helping. My biggest thing is to stay off compulsions, then obsessions seem to go away. I was sinking deeper and deeper, and then I remembered that twice OCD made me make very bad decisions, simply by my doing the compulsions, or by doing "avoidance behaviour". And then I remembered all the time I lost and all quality of life I lost and then I reminded myself I am not God, and whatever thought comes to my mind does not mean this will happen; only action matters, not thoughts, from my side. Then I reminded myself that often I do not even "wish" bad things, but rather "feel" they may happen and this is as far from reality as it could be. And then I reminded myself that sometimes I was able not to perform compulsions when "bad things" would have happened, and nothing happened. If I continue to succumb to OCD, it will make me die. Sometimes I feel strong, sometimes I am reduced to nothing, but I will fight it.