Hi everyone. Haven't been around so much... But I want to be! :)

I go through periods where I don't even want to look at my computer when I get home from work... That would be me now.

Had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. BLAH. :( I didn't like him so much... He was "concerned" because I don't see a psychologist/psychotherapist for therapy anymore. When I told him I see a transpersonal counselor who is a holistic healing practitioner, he was like "cognitive behavioral therapy is the only thing that works for OCD."

Whatever... But... WRONG. I told him I've been there/done that with cognitive behavioral theraphy.. And yes, it does work. But, THIS is working for me... Transpersonal counseling... Reiki... etc.

It's not ALL just about those "proven methods," you know? Not for everyone, that is. The alternative stuff CAN work, if you keep an open mind. MDs... :rolleyes: Oh well. :)

Whew... I'll get off my soapbox now. :D

How is everyone? Have a great day/evening. HUGS ~ Sly

I had my counselling today, oh my god, I was so upset... dunno why, just all of a sudden, I felt really really upset.. and I think once again, I got my counsellor all confused, coz I had no idea what she was asking, and I had no idea what was I talking about. I am generally really confused since last week, duno if it has anything to do with the pills, hope it would go away soon. Coz I could even speak properly with a friend today... oh well...

My doctor just increased my med from 20 to 40mg yesterday, so today is the first day I am on 40mg, has be really anxious and shaky so far... i tried to have a nap earier, it was horrible, I could get off to sleep, but it was so weird... why is is so hard to get so proper sleep?

Hope everyone has been having a good day.

Yesterday was ok. Nothing special and nothing bad really. So in the grand schemes that is fine. Work was ok. Then came home grabbed some dinner and watched some SVR. Then headed out to the gym and returned to watch some of the NBA playoffs. Ended up not sleeping till around 2am again. Not so much insomnia as my mind was just going a mile a second and I can't sleep with my mind going like that. It wasn't about anything bad. It actually had to do with music and also little things I wanted to do before I went to bed. 1 little thing turned into another and next thing I know it is 2am and I am forcing myself to sleep.

So today I'm starting to feel the effects of not getting sleep the past few nights. Tried to wake up a little with some caffeine, which i never do lately, but alas it isn't helping either. In fact I also have a headache so today isn't starting off the best it could! Hopefully today will start to pick up. I have lots of little things i want to do at the house and hopefully I can get some done tonight. It isn't like I don't have the time. The rest of this week I have 0 to do and will prob be stuck at home by myself.

I also need to take some personality test my therapist asked me to take after I saw her finally on Monday. Should be interesting to see where I land on the charts there heh.

Sly, I would do what you want to do and what you are ready to do. I think that we need to be at a certain point to do certain things and you will do what you need to do when you are ready. It seems like you are getting benefit out of what you are doing now and that is all that counts, you are moving forward.

Extra, sounds like you have never really examined yourself and now you are and it is confusing. You are doing fine.

Hi Chaos!

Hi Chaos!
Greetings! I've been more in the responding mood on the boards lately heh I'll try and get an update on how things are soon. I figured while things are on a upswing emotionally for me I can try and help others :)

....btw that online journal I have been doing has helped. I feel motivated to write in it and I have found stuff just flowing out when I though I might only have a line to write.

Chaos, so that is why you are writing less here!