purplegirl1
05-15-2007, 10:58 PM
When I Was Younger I Was Anorexic. I Am Not 30 And Married And Not Anorexic. In Fact I Am Chunky - Not Fat- But Totally Chunky And I Am Obsessed With Eating And Food. It Is Not That I Overeat But I Think About Food All Of The Time. If I Try To Diet, Eat Healthy, No Junk Food, I Then Think, I Want The Junk... It Is So Weird... I Know How To Eat Healthy And As Soon As I Make A Committment To Myself To Eat Healthy And Try To Lose Some Weight, I Just Have To Eat Junk.. Any Suggestions?
I Do Have Ocd And On Meds And Counseling - Just Looking For Some Peer Advice.
Thanks
I Do Have Ocd And On Meds And Counseling - Just Looking For Some Peer Advice.
Thanks
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seaturtle
05-15-2007, 11:05 PM
HI,
I also have an eating disorder. Those food thoughts are forever with us, no matter what our weight.
You might check out the eating disorders board. And take this into therapy with you.
It seems like once there is an eating disorder, it can always come back, either behaviourally or in thought.
Best luck
I also have an eating disorder. Those food thoughts are forever with us, no matter what our weight.
You might check out the eating disorders board. And take this into therapy with you.
It seems like once there is an eating disorder, it can always come back, either behaviourally or in thought.
Best luck
purplegirl1
05-15-2007, 11:20 PM
true, thanks for the advice.
seriousperson
05-16-2007, 01:42 AM
If you watch tv, it's incredible the way food obsession is encouraged. For example, there's an ad for a candy bar in which it is recommended that you should have one if you are experiencing a socially awkward moment.
Post-It
05-16-2007, 09:43 AM
Hi purplegirl,
Did you know that eating disorders often comoribidly exist with OCD? I was bulemic about 4 years ago which sprung from the fact that I was having panic attacks, obsessions, and severe anxiety over a breakup with my ex-boyfriend. The anxiety was so bad, I wouldn't eat, and then I started to lose weight (or if I did eat, the anxiety made me nauseous)... then it spiraled into an obsession with staying thin/food. I loved food too much so I became bulemic. To this day it still gets me from time to time even though I consider myself recovered. But my obsession with food is crazy. I think about it all the time. I have always been that way - way too excited about eating food. I've actually thought it's pretty embarassing because the first thought on my mind is "where are we going to eat?" on the weekends. I know normal people do not think like that. Just last night I was thinking about what I would make for dinner tonight and found myself getting way too excited over it. That's not normal!
I guess you just treat it like any other obsession, even though it's a "neutral" obsession. I have been trying to lose weight, too, and it always seems like my desire to eat something that tastes delicious overrides anything healthy. So, I just try to reward myself if I eat healthy. I have a "free day" where I allow myself to eat whatever I want without guilt. Then I get back on track the rest of the week.
Did you know that eating disorders often comoribidly exist with OCD? I was bulemic about 4 years ago which sprung from the fact that I was having panic attacks, obsessions, and severe anxiety over a breakup with my ex-boyfriend. The anxiety was so bad, I wouldn't eat, and then I started to lose weight (or if I did eat, the anxiety made me nauseous)... then it spiraled into an obsession with staying thin/food. I loved food too much so I became bulemic. To this day it still gets me from time to time even though I consider myself recovered. But my obsession with food is crazy. I think about it all the time. I have always been that way - way too excited about eating food. I've actually thought it's pretty embarassing because the first thought on my mind is "where are we going to eat?" on the weekends. I know normal people do not think like that. Just last night I was thinking about what I would make for dinner tonight and found myself getting way too excited over it. That's not normal!
I guess you just treat it like any other obsession, even though it's a "neutral" obsession. I have been trying to lose weight, too, and it always seems like my desire to eat something that tastes delicious overrides anything healthy. So, I just try to reward myself if I eat healthy. I have a "free day" where I allow myself to eat whatever I want without guilt. Then I get back on track the rest of the week.
kotitka
05-16-2007, 11:52 AM
I travelled this route, too :)
First, I gained weight to the point of very chunky simply from my OCD telling me to eat this and this much, "otherwise bad things may happen". I did not know what OCD was for years, so I went along. Then at 17 I started to crash diet along with peers and became anorexic. It was a such a struggle, I thought about food alllll the time! And then, when I was 22 or so, it went away, and I lost without dieting, at least 20 lbs. I don't know how it happened, it sorta went away by itself. I still have huge OCD, but in other direction :)
First, I gained weight to the point of very chunky simply from my OCD telling me to eat this and this much, "otherwise bad things may happen". I did not know what OCD was for years, so I went along. Then at 17 I started to crash diet along with peers and became anorexic. It was a such a struggle, I thought about food alllll the time! And then, when I was 22 or so, it went away, and I lost without dieting, at least 20 lbs. I don't know how it happened, it sorta went away by itself. I still have huge OCD, but in other direction :)