Im having a tough time with this mopy feeling, and I'm avoiding my friends - they will sms and want to get together for a chat but I dont have the energy to go (I'm 20 and I suppose that should be odd). I'm not interested in their company I dont want to be around anybody, but at the same time I want someone to help me - then I come with these "lookin for sympathy" escapades with my partner or family which is not what I want, I dont want them to feel sorry for me or anything like that, I just want them to support me in getting better and give a bit of help...but I feel like I look for sympathy instead of empathy...I dont want to feel all mopy and sorry for myself, but I cant seem to help it?! Any suggestions?

Angelus, so you only have energy left for getting better not for socializing? There is nothing wrong with that. Do you think that with your "sympathy seeking" that you are just really fishing for confirmation that you are cared about? Besides coming here to post, what else are you doing to get better?

Ang, I'm going through a withdrawal period as well. The good news is they come and go, so eventually you will feel up to hanging with your buds again. Hang in there. In the meantime, are there any hobbies or interests you can pursue?

To Sannah

Well, Im not sure about it - I suppose I cause myself my own anxiety when I think I'm lonely. I sometimes feel very lonely, even with people around me - like Im the only one who seems to be losing their marbles :dizzy: Im going through therapy, taking meds, I do meditation, and enjoy making my favourite things to drink - hot drinks or whatever, that always seems to help.

To Maria

As for hobbies...not really - I also dont feel like I have the energy for those. I used to enjoy running, and regularly go picnic, and look at art, and go out with friends. Now I feel confined to my room, I just go out when I have to (to write tests as Im studying or hand in assignments.)

I feel Im losing my friends becoz I'm avoiding them. Thats probably why I go 'sympathy seeking'. Coz I feel a bit lost and nobody's taking notice. Suicide is a regular thought, not that I'd do it - just a 'what if'. I spoke to my therapist about that - but we are touching on the 'sticky' bits in therapy now...so I suppose its just a matter of time that I can rid myself of all this baggage.

I actually found this board, coz I came looking for people who feel the same - just to know that Im not so alone as I think I am.

My favourite part of the day is going to sleep - then Im not aware of anything...thats a bit depressing. :(