Wow - Time flies when your swamped at work! I hope you are all doing well this week. Monday night I went to an eating disorder support group. I really resented the fact that my therapist wanted me to go, but I dragged myself there anyway. All I could think was "What a waste of a night. I'm going to feel fat and old next to everyone there." And I was really depressed. Turns out it wasn't so bad after all and I'm glad I went.

Today I'm doing OK. I went to the gym last night after 2 nights off. It felt good to be back. I've been eating healthy this week. Otherwise, I'm busy at work and looking forward to a whole weekend of no plans (as usual). Still in withdrawl mode. My friend is having a baby shower on Sunday. I sent a gift, but don't feel up to going. I don't feel down, I just want to spend all my free time alone (with hubby, but also alone).

Chaos, I work PT for a psychologist who strongly believes in personality inventories. I take them periodically, just for fun. They can be really revealing. Enjoy the experience!

Still in withdrawl mode.

Hi Maria, I am glad that the support group went well for you, I am also glad that you are eating healthier. What was behind your decision to eat healthier? What does the above quote mean?

Wow - Time flies when your swamped at work! I hope you are all doing well this week. Monday night I went to an eating disorder support group. I really resented the fact that my therapist wanted me to go, but I dragged myself there anyway. All I could think was "What a waste of a night. I'm going to feel fat and old next to everyone there." And I was really depressed. Turns out it wasn't so bad after all and I'm glad I went.

Today I'm doing OK. I went to the gym last night after 2 nights off. It felt good to be back. I've been eating healthy this week. Otherwise, I'm busy at work and looking forward to a whole weekend of no plans (as usual). Still in withdrawl mode. My friend is having a baby shower on Sunday. I sent a gift, but don't feel up to going. I don't feel down, I just want to spend all my free time alone (with hubby, but also alone).

Chaos, I work PT for a psychologist who strongly believes in personality inventories. I take them periodically, just for fun. They can be really revealing. Enjoy the experience!


Hi Maria!!!

I'm glad you went to your meeting! See, it wasn't so bad after all!
BTW, what is a "personality inventory"? :dizzy:

So I took a test and here is what it said:

Type ISFJ (Protector Guardian)

# moderately expressed introvert
# slightly expressed sensing personality
# moderately expressed feeling personality
# moderately expressed judging personality

After reading the description it is kind of close. Not sure if I would agree with it completely. Some of the questions I was stuck in the middle or not completely sure.

As for the day, so far so good. I'm coming into work a little later then I used to. I used to wake up at 5am and figured I might as well come in. Now I'm able to sleep in a little later so I figured why force myself to wake up so early if I don't have to. Have had to deal with the ex some today w/ work, so that hasn't been to pleasant. Brought back some memories, but I remind myself that is natural and to just let the thoughts come and go. Memories can help us learn, even if they make me sad for now.

All is well because I have my music at work :)

BTW, I'm very glad you decided to go to the meeting Maria. Sometimes we have to drag ourselves to stuff that will help. It never feels good before hand but most of the time afterward we are glad we did. That is the gym pretty much everyday for me, even though every day afterwards I feel better and glad I went heh.

Maybe Dakota can shed some light on the personality test result?

I never agreed 100% with my personality assessments. I remember one said I was introverted, avoidant, and shrewd. Shrewd? It's fun to take them and see what they say though.

Sannah, By withdrawal mode I mean I haven't felt like hanging out with friends or socializing. Oddly though I don't feel sad.

Oh - and I'm eating healthier mainly by being aware of my eating habits this week. Last week my "Shrinky-Dink" threatened me with hospitalization, so I'm really trying to get a healthy amount of calories in each day.

Glad you all seem to be doing well this week!

Maria, if you don't feel sad when you are not hanging out with your friends this must mean that you really need to do this, that you are just meeting your needs. I want to know HOW you are able to change your eating habits so "easily". I was wondering if you changed how you thought about eating or something? A lot of people know that they need to do something but actually being able to do it is incredible. Maybe because you are shrewd!

I never agreed 100% with my personality assessments. I remember one said I was introverted, avoidant, and shrewd. Shrewd? It's fun to take them and see what they say though.

Sannah, By withdrawal mode I mean I haven't felt like hanging out with friends or socializing. Oddly though I don't feel sad.

Oh - and I'm eating healthier mainly by being aware of my eating habits this week. Last week my "Shrinky-Dink" threatened me with hospitalization, so I'm really trying to get a healthy amount of calories in each day.

Glad you all seem to be doing well this week!

"I remember one said I was introverted, avoidant, and shrewd.
Shrewd?"

LOL :D @ Shrewd. Maria is "shrewd"???? :confused: :eek:
I don't believe it! :) :D :bouncing: :angel: :wave:

UGH! I just wrote a whole post and cyberspace ATE IT!!!! :mad: Let's see if I can recreate what I wrote. :(

Maria ~ I'm so glad YOU are glad you went to that meeting! That's awesome. :) Also good for you for eating better. I know... Sometimes it takes a "threat" for us to make a change. Hate that, but if it's a healthy thing, then it's good right. Hang in there... :)

Sannah ~ Thanks for what you said: "It seems like you are getting benefit out of what you are doing now and that is all that counts, you are moving forward." :) I mean, I've just been there/done that with "traditional" therapy. A person is entitled to go with what ever works, right? And then again, my MD is entitled to his opinion. OH well... I'll keep doing my thing. Thanks again for your support. :)

Chaos ~ Ahhhhh, so that's why I haven't been seeing a post from you in the morning when I stop in. You're sleeping later! Hopefully it's helping? :) Also, online journals are great. Keep at it, if it helps. :)

Did I tell you guys about my neck? This is the worst it's ever been. Every few weeks I either 1. sleep wrong; or 2. go through some crap where the chakras are opening up. I think it's #2... ANYWAY, now it's really messed up. I also got hit with a baseball on top of the head Saturday... I'm wondering if that like, pushed my head down and wacked my neck? Who knows... I could barely walk last night... It's all down my back now too. A friend of mine told me I should get a massage. Might try it... That or a chiropractor? Has anyone here been helped by a chiro? If so, what'd they do?

Ouch. :(

Gotta get back to work... I hope to stop back later and join in the conversation. :) Hugs to all ~ Sly

LOL - "Shrewd?!" Hehe.

O.K. here's what it says in the dictionary:

shrewd (shrood)
adj. shrewd·er, shrewd·est
1. Characterized by keen awareness, sharp intelligence, and often a sense of the practical.
2. Disposed to artful and cunning practices; tricky.
3. Sharp; penetrating: a shrewd wind.

Hehe... Is this YOU, Maria!?!

Just kidding... ;) But wow!! :)

Sly, get the massage!

Even:

Yep, I've been sleeping later and seeing how that does. If I sleep a little later I don't need an alarm to wake up. I find waking up w/o an alarm to be 100x better. Trying it out this week to see how it goes. I usually posted around 7am my time, but now I don't check till around 9 or 10 heh. The only problem is I've been staying up way later lately. So it is kind of counter productive heh

Sorry to hear about your neck. I go thru periods where it seems no matter how i sleep i wake up with either a neck ache, headache or both. I just take some Advil and go on. I have family members and friends that do the Chiro thing and swear by it. I have yet to try it, but i def would if i had a constant pain like that. I agree with Sannah, the massage would probably do wonders!

The journal is going well. I wrote in it today and found a lot of feelings coming out that i had never given a voice to. Stuff i prob wouldn't admit to others yet. So it is good self therapy.

I actually think i can be shrewd at times heh.

I think you're right Sannah! I will set it up... GOTTA...

Ouch. :(

I wish advil would help, Chaos. I took 3 this morning and it virtually did nothing. Been doing this since Sunday when it started. Can't keep taking it... I'm going without now... Hurts, but seems like it's getting better. Let's hope so.

Also... Yeah, Chaos ~ Shrewd is actually a compliment, I think! Sharp intelligence... You can think of things quickly... And they make sense! Sounds like a good quality. :)

The journal thing... I go through phases where I write a ton and then don't write much. Right now I feel I have to talk to someone, so I guess my posts are like a "journal" to me. Other times, I don't want anyone to know, so I do the private journal thing.

:)

I'm the same with meds. That is why I try and only take them if very necessary. I tend to build up a fast tolerance so that pain meds no longer work.

As for the journal, it does seem to be a good thing. Talking is always the best, but right now I seem to be in a reflection mood. Some stuff I don't feel like sharing with ppl, but it still needs to said and addressed, so the private journal works well. Plus, after awhile I feel like I'm unloading on ppl so I tend to back off a little.

Maybe I should change my screen name to "Shrewd-1" LOL.

It took some work for me to get into journaling, but now I love it. It's really interesting to go back and read old entries. I didn't realize how much better I was doing depression wise until I read some old stuff. Also, the journal is one place where you can be completely honest and not worry about judgments.

Maybe I should change my screen name to "Shrewd-1" LOL.

It took some work for me to get into journaling, but now I love it. It's really interesting to go back and read old entries. I didn't realize how much better I was doing depression wise until I read some old stuff. Also, the journal is one place where you can be completely honest and not worry about judgments.
Looking back can be interesting. There was a time when I journaled just for the fun of it. I found my old notebooks a while back and read over them. It's cool to see what sate of mind you were in, what actions you did, and how you were feeling. If done over a long enough time you can see yourself evolve especially from teenager to college to adult etc.

Chaos - that is so true. I started some journals when I was a teenager. They were more about what I was doing with my friends than about thoughts and feelings. They are still fun to read though - brings back memories and makes me thing "I can't believe I was that silly!" I have a gap of several years in my journaling, there's none between my early 20s until I just last year, when I was 36. My journals from last year reveal how far I've progressed in therapy and how I'm learning to handle situations better than I did last year.