yea there aint much to say-just hadnt been here in a while. im screwed with exams, i wrote my doc explaining everything and asking why she lied to me(hope she isnt pissed off but i need to know).

i lost 1 pound the other day, but there is a billion more to go :( i cant beleive my doc actually had to touch me, no ****ing wonder she wore gloves .

hows everyone??

xox

hey chicka,

long time no see and no talk..what do you mean she lied to you? maybe i missed one of your posts or something??

how are the parents doing? how's the bro? how's the thrapist on tuesdays?

missed ya around here!!
hugs

hey! nope-i just didnt post the whole story. well she said she wudnt give me meds incase i ODed, then she said she didnt think i would anyway. then she plain lied and told me that meds would never work because theyre all the same. which all my counsellors have said is bollocks, and i knew that anyway. so now im confused-there must be another reason why she wont tell me the truth or give me them. i think it is that she thinks im making it up. we did another depression test and i scored a severe-but she didnt seem convinced, so im still just nothing.

therapy is fine, not changing my moods but hey its something to get it out. im realising my therapist is one of the very good ones. i have a UNI counsellor and she is nice but pretty rubbish. she forgets everything i tell her, just hands me out sheets and then after telling her about how utterly rubbish everything is-says 'ok do you want to end it there then, i think your on top of things and it will be fine.'

when it so clearly is not fine. but hey she means well and really its my other therapist that deals with the deep stuff.

im trying to go a while without running back to my doc-itll be two weeks next week, and im gonna hold out fior a while longer after that.

xox

Hey Kerry, you actually sound pretty good! I am glad that you have a good therapist. If I were a doctor and if I were your doctor I wouldn't give you meds either! I would make you work on this! But I would focus you very carefully on what you needed to work on!