I was writing up one of those survey things last nigth and one of them asked about my dad. I wrote this big whole thing about how I dont want to talk about him/it makes me cry and it's a long story short. In a nutshell he just hasnt been her for me and we dont talk.. that's it. But I thought to myself. OMG. What if people think I mean he molested me or something like that?

NOTE: HE NEVER MOLESTED ME OR TOUCHED ME!

But the thought, negative and distrurbing as it is popped into my head and my own voice in my head said...yes yes he did. Omg you need to tell someone now. Call the police. This wasnt a hallucination by any means. I know it was my own thoughts/voice.

But then I felt guilty. Like why would I think that? Why would I say that to myself and feel the urge to pick up the phone and call the police? It freaked me out and while like I said I dont believe it deep down and it really never happened. It's scaring me. And yeah cause a panic attack..


is this another OCD...pure O type thing? Again makes me think im crazy

It's hard to say whether it's "just" an OCD thing or not. Do you have a mental health professional with whom you can talk about this?

It's hard to say whether it's "just" an OCD thing or not. Do you have a mental health professional with whom you can talk about this?

I do have a psychiatrist and i will be seeing a therapist. but im not delusional ya know? It's the the negative bad thought that creeps into my head. im not confused over it. im not imagining it. I know it didnt really happen but my brain tries to make me think for a second im crazy and it did.