Hey Iz, :wave:

I posted you, to find out how you are doing in your taper, but I can't find the thread anywhere!:mad: :bouncing:

So how ARE you doing anyway?:p

I hope ok....:D

Let me know....I've been thinking about you!:angel:
Shay
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Hi Shay Bud!
Im here!...Actually I posted on a thread how things have been....I stuck with my taper todaY, and did pretty good. I had a golf tourney today, and tomorrow is finals, and I had to suck it up and make it, we depend on winnings for a lot of our income...
BUT one thing I noticed, was that when I didnt have time to obsess or focus on the meds, it goes fadter, and I didnt notice the big jump yet....
It wioll prolly hit me tomorrow right in the middle of the final hour...:rolleyes: :rolleyes:
Oh well...Ive tried thinking how it would be if I was cut off like a lot of ppl have had happen, and how bad that would be... IM trying to stay positive~
Thanks for the ALERT!!! You are so kind to look for me, and IM wanting you to get out of this hell or at least taper down from it...
If I can do it, I want you to...Do you wanna join me on this fun trip? Ive got to do it, so I will...But like I said...IM not going to push you...it would be an honor to at lesat have you in my company in this journey...Anf even if you arent ready to quit, i appreciate your love and support more than you know, as well as every one who has stood by me and offered their kind words and support~
Talk to you soon my friend~
xoxoxoxoxxo
IZZY'SMOM:D

Good Lord you type fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just found your reply on another thread, and I swear all I did was read it and come back here to tell you and BOOM, you already posted! DANG!

So you golf huh? I have ultimate respect for you! I totally can't but my ex is an awsome golfer and I just couldn't get it......If you have patience for that, then you definately can do this!

I haven't even had a chance to read this post yet...the one you just did....you're too fast!

Where abouts do you live anyway....you don't have to say if you don't want...I'll understand...

See ya Speedy Gonzales!
Shay

Hey girl!
I live in Co. And i have actually all of my kids, 1 my own, 2 adopted, and 4 more here tonite...SO IM trying to get them all fed, and quieted down for bed...HAHA! My son who is 11 just came home from his dads from being there a week, and the other two who are mine now most of the time when they arent with their dad, [their mom and brother drowned together on mothers day...im sure youve read the posts..] plus the usual kidsd that are ALWAYS at our house...We have a big house that attracts all of the neighbor kids. but I dont mind...And when I feel really crappy, hubby helps and my own kiddo is just the BEST sweetest son...
So now that all of the ppizza is gone, and they are out jumping on the trsamp, I find my own solace here to type a few posts, and then its off to herd them all into their beds. Enough about me....how are you????
Yeah I golf...Ive been on the tour now for about 2 yrs. actually it was a fluke. I started playing only 4 yrs ago, and it was just a lucky thing that I had a great God given gift for. I started my taper yesterday, and i felt it a bit today, but i was so busy I didnt notice it a LOT...I hope tomorrow is good...i need the $$$$$ THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxxo,
IZZY'SMOM

Gracious!

You do have your hands full! My ex's parents live in Durango....I absolutely love Co.! They have a shop at the base of Purgatory.....it's beautiful! I would kill to live there! We used to go about 3x's a year, THAT I do miss about my ex! ;)

There are some extreme courses in Co.! I used to just tag along and drilnk!

This is gonna be tough for you, but I know you can do it! I don't know if you feel this way but, my ex used to rock on the course when he was taking hydro's....I too get very proficient at tasks when taking them. That would make it even harder for you if so. But like I said, you can do it!

I saw your other post about joining you in the endeavor. Right now my goal is to just take them like I'm supposed to. If I can do that, it will be quite a triumph for me. This is gonna sound like a million excuses, and maybe it is but, this is not a good time for me. I know, I know....if you wait for a good time you'll be waiting forever....but really! Long story, but I've had to live with my Mother for the last year and a half due to the accident, have not worked in that time, mom is moving in 2 months (me tagging along), still alot of pain, yadda, yadda, yadda.....I have got to find work in the next week or two just waiting tables or bartending for fast money so I can get into my own place asap.....There's alot more to it, but that's the nutshell....I know what I am capable of and this is definately not a good time to make a major change. I'm only doing the bartending thing temporarily like I said for fast money and I'm gonna need major energy and major pain relief! Also, mom and I DO NOT get along and I need to be on my own to w/d....she puts so much stress on me that I'll just be running right back to the pills. I know me. So once I have my own place, I am definately going to do some heavy duty serious consideration to getting off this stuff. God I know that all sounds like the biggest justification, excuses, and cop out but it's where I'm coming from. Done this too many times and know it's not gonna last if I were to do it now....you know you have to get your mind ready and you have to be dead set on it or it aint gonna work......okay.....now I'm trying to convince YOU. HaHa! :blob_fire

Anyway, that's the deal....but if it makes you feel any better, I haven't drank in 2yrs and if you had known me then, you'd say, "Girl you ARE clean!" I have come so far it's crazy! And I know exactly what all this is like cause I've done it with pills, and alcohol. So I'm right with ya!

I will be your cheerleader! :blob_fire Rah!Rah!
Shay
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Shay
I am so greatful to have met you...YOu dont know how much your caring makes me feel....Im trying to get all of the rugrats to bed, but ill post more tomorrow....The taper was kinda my idea, b/c i knew i was getting in the weeds, and I dont want to go thru that. But taking as much as IM supposed to hasd also been hard for me, so really we are side by side...
Im really hurt tonite...My hubby and i have gone round and round about his drinking/smoking, and tonite in a blow up he said...
"you give up the PILLS and Ill give up the smoking/drinking"...I was f*ching mortified...My *ss pays the bills...PLUS he just had back problems last week and has been taking hydro...I wanted to kick him so hard...
IZZY'SMOM:angel:

Hey Izz,

I just saw your other post about taking a break for awhile. I sure hope it's not too long cuz I really treasure the friendship we've developed here. I am really interested in hearing about your golf and kids and the ups and downs. I hope you will do okay with your taper b/c you want to. You better come back often cuz I will need you. I'm screwing up already....surprise, surprise! Kinda down about it today....I'm right back to where I was. I wish we could e-mail each other outside of here....I used to belong to a site where you could do that....when I broke my leg. I'm tempted to just give it to ya, but it will probably be awhile before you come back and I'll get booted off!

Sorry about what happened with hubby. Do you think he has a problem with the alcohol? Man, at least you're making an effort. And even if it only lasts a day....you are aware and trying. And yeah....you bring in the bucs...so tell him I said to give it a rest! :p Hope that's okay to say! Tell him to leave my friend alone! :)

Well get out there and kick some butt on the course! But don't forget about me! I won't you!

Shay
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P.s. I'm still not happy about this! :mad:

ook... this is how long it lasted!!!! LOL!!!!!! yeah ill miss you too....inknow they dont llike to have emails, but yoou can ****** pl im sure...but then you get all of these posts...never had anyone ask...How did you mess up? its pouring here today and my son is covered in welts from mosquito bites...i have to find something to help him...they are huge and painful and so bad...ive tried everything. These boards help so much...i have found friends here and tons of support....spill it all girl, i might have the sun come out later and ill have to go back out!
xoxoxoxox,IZZY'SMOM
Ifeel bad about the blowup...i can be a handful...i deleted a bunch because i didnt want to air my dirty laundry all over. But its very hard for spouses and sig others as well as ourselves, dont you think???

Hey Izz,

I came back cuz I got to thinking about something I wanted to tell you and BOOM there you were! What I was gonna say was about the blow up....take it from someone who has done all three: drink, smoke, and pills.....
And this is just my take on it....but drinking and smoking to me is just not the same as pills....especially drinking.....Girl, there is nothing worse! It's not even the same as pills it's much worse. I am taking it that you said to him, "well when you stop drinking and smoking I'll stop pills"?
It's all bad, but unless your hubby is a really light drinker, drinking has a much quicker negative effect and people just get da*n nasty on it! I really don't recall a person getting all that nasty on hydro.
I meant that I'm back to taking more than I should already...
I'm not in the least surprised though.
Geez.....I know I need to only take what I'm supposed to especially since I'll be working, moving, etc...And I just sit here and take them like it's no big deal.
Ulch! I don't wanna talk about it.

My little boy gets mosquito bites big time here in big ol' Texas, and I use Calamine (sp) lotion on them. Works right away and they're gone in a couple of days. Ya know, the pink stuff.

It's pouring here too....and hail......LOVE IT! But I can see how you wouldn't.

I totally don't understand what you were saying about emails. That you're sure other people do? Well I wish we could, just like you had to go back and delete all the stuff you wrote. Maybe I could leave you a secret message somehow with my email...HaHa!

Welll, I'm gonna eat a baked potato....been kinda sick to my stomach....not eating is not good for me at all!
I've been a couch potato all day....HaHa....potato...

Anyway, take care and get back here ASAP!
Bye,
Shay

yummm BAKER POTATO!
yeah ill go get the pink stuff...its sunny now again, but i have to come in when its lightning. Looks like its going to do it again though in about 5 minutes. Ive never seen ppl leave emails, Ive seen ppl talk about cyber pages, you know m***** once. I have a page for my dogs! How much are you supposed to be taking daily? I have found the bi=usier I am, the less I think about when I take them. I take them when I hurt, but I also am supposed to take them at certain times somedays, and thats what Ijm trying to get away from. Thats why tapering is hard for me. I am doing a bit better. Nite time is the hardest, im home or away.
I need to get off my duff too. im sure they dont want ppl exachanging emails because they want to keep it professional. I dont know what they do though, i wiouldnt think its a big deal...i need to re read the rules i guess~
xoxoxox,
IZZY'SMOM