Sorry I haven't posted for a while I've been having a really tough time. Since Wednesday afternoon I've been fighting with the self harm and suicidal thoughts and I've just been in such a deep depression.

I had to go for another session of CBT today though but when I got there my therapist said it was obvious that CBT wasn't going to work at the moment. Instead he just spent the session trying to get me to talk a bit more about the depression. I left feeling like he understood me a lot better than the last time so I'm pleased about that.

My psychiatrist also phoned me on...Friday I think, so I told him how bad I have been. He said he wants to see me tomorrow to see where we go from here. My guess is that hospital will be suggested again.

I'm just so low right now that if he says he thinks it will benefit me I will probably go in. Hopefully he will allow me to be admitted the next day though so I can let friends know and prepare myself so I should be able to let you all know if I am going in....if your interested.

A very sad x-Bliss-x

Hello x-bliss-x,

Yes, please let us know if you decide to go into the hospital...and there are many on the board who will be interested and who care. I am really sorry you are having such a tough time at the moment. Sometimes going in is the best way to get your meds sorted out in a short period of time.

Sounds like you have found some caring and responsive doctors -- that in and of itself is a very positive development.

I will keep you in my thoughts and hope you are feeling better soon.

xxxTsohl

Hi x-bliss-x,

Sorry you are feeling so down. Do you know why you feel bad or is it for no obvious reason? Once I was so depressed I kept thinking about harming myself and it turned out it was the new birth control pill my Dr had put me on....once I got off of those hormones I was great. I just thought I'd share that in case you are in a similar situation. I hope you feel better soon because I know how bad depression can trick our minds into negative thinking. It will get better, just hang in there and be a fighter. I'll be thinking of you <3.

Luvya,


Luckygem

Hi I was just wondering what pill your were on as I've also been put on the pill.

x-Bliss-x