Hi.
I just woke up, but had a bad night.
I was wondering, if I should still remain "at home" while I'm feeling low, to avoid infections (as in crowds). I was SO hoping to shop later today, before chemo again.
I don't have a fever (at least I'm hoping my thermometer is working) but, I feel sickly & tired. Most morning's so far, have actually been better for me.
I guess what I'm asking, is the chemo still in my system (I had it June 1st & due again this Friday June 22, delayed-due to low white blood cell count) & making me feel at "half mast?" Or is it the low white blood cell count?
I'm living on Tylenol's (which I just took) for that feverish feeling, plus my incision, where my lymph node was removed, has never stopped hurting since surgery.
I know they're (Oncologist Team) hoping I'll rebuild my WBC on my own---but, I have my doubts. If fatigue means I'm not building them---then, I'm not. I guess I thought I'd "bounce" back sooner this week, since my chemo was delayed. I'm disappointed.
I was on a lymphoma website last night---I won't go back to that one. It showed famous people that have succumbed to the disease. I didn't find that comforting at ALL! I wish I wouldn't have lingered on it. I think it did me more harm than good.
I go through my phases, but I need some encouraging & uplifting thoughts today, if anyone can please, share. I thought it "got better," but--so far today's been the hardest this week. Maybe it's my state of mind, too-- NO more websites like that! This forum is much better for me! Why do people even post things like that? Is that supposed to give you hope? I don't understand that particular website's reasoning.
By the way---how's my peeps today? Hope you're feeling better than me--emotionally & physically.
S.

It's me again...
I'm replying again, to my own post.
I already am feeling better, thanks to my many uplifting books, quotes and a little morning sunshine.
It never ceases to amaze me, the multitude of weird feelings/symptoms that come & go, so quickly.
Although, I'm not exactly ready to run a marathon, I do feel better...and always feel like reprimanding myself, when I re-read my posts, seeking "quick" fixes.
I know this is a hard journey, and I think when going through chemo, you're so vulnerable to any "nay-sayers." Hence--that website that scared me & stayed with me throughout the night. That's why searching the internet can be detrimental at times, no?
Anyway---I guess I'm just adjusting my post some--although, I'm still wondering about my WBC. I've read the "worst case scenario," and although I'm sure it's good to be informed, you can't help but worry.....:eek:
Anyway---My positivism has returned....to a degree....:)

Can't really advise you on going out as I did all the time - show me a crowded place and I'm there. But I think my immune system is especially strong (one of the lads at work had heard that it's best to subject babies and toddlers to colds etc as it strengthens the immune system and when he had a cold right in the middle of my chemo sneezed all over me thinking the same applied - I still didn't get a cold.

As far as the website goes, just think of those who are OK - Delta Goodram (Australian singer), Annie Kirkbride (british soap opera star) and who can forget Mr T (I pity the fool) - Mr A Team himself

Ails xx

Ails ...Helloooo
I didn't know "Mr. T." was a lymphoma survivor.
I guess my immune system has been whacko, ever since I was little.
I was the one (even though I was a little "bright" as a student, I was told) almost held back--every grade, due to absense & being sick. It was almost always brought on by my tonsils & adenoids (which are gone) and swollen lymph glands....I'm talking age 5 or 6 through 40 something. It's odd, but right before I was diagnosed, they actually had gone down some. My Oncologist said the cells were "lurking" around in my system, waiting for an opening, which, of course they found in 3 nodes. Anyway, I guess I was a "sickly" child. I'm hoping & praying that after chemo....maybe I'll FINALLY be healthy for the first time in years. I should run that by my Oncologist. This forum has a way of making me "think out loud." :dizzy:
It's nice to hear from you, Ails. Any good news from your "neck o' the woods," like we like to say here in the States?
By the way---I watched an interview with Princess Diana's sons...They're a class act all the way. It reminded me of you wonderful English people and how polite you are. Americans (sorry...it's true) seem to be getting to be a very rude culture, lately. I blame it on the media....especially our younger generation doesn't seem to know the meaning of "respect."
S.

See - Mr T's OK now - he's in full remission!!!

Trust me, it's no better over here!!! It's lack of discipline in my opinion!!! Also, kids no longer have consequences for their actions so what's to stop them acting out!!!

The Windsor boys certainly have alot of their mother in them. I like Harry - he's funny and has a very naughty side (not bad, just cheeky!!)

I suppose I'm quite polite - but only so far in that I always smile, say please and thankyou, hold doors open for people etc etc. I think it's more to do with being pleasant to people than being a stereo-typical Brit!! God help anyone who doesn't say thankyou if I stand out of the way for them or hold a door open - then I become all Mary Poppins and tell them off LOL ("where are your manners young man" etc etc I'm a young looking 33 as well (most people think I'm in my mid 20s) so it must look really bizarre) I suppose that peope who are ill-mannered are one of my pet hates. MMMMMMMMMMMMM maybe I'm more "British" than I thought! :D :D

Ails xx

Ails-
Definitely a lack of discipline---as in "Paris Hilton," like we discussed earlier.
They have no boundaries---Mommy and Daddy (in your case Mum & Dad (or Pop?) seem to let them get away with murder. Also, the divorce rate is incredibly high here--I believe 1 out of 2 couples get divorced---and as you know, it's usually the children that suffer. I see it in my son---he and his dad only see each other occasionally, and my son has suffered because of it. They once were really close.
LOL---I'm the one, too, that holds doors for people and smiles, etc....
If they go through the door I'm holding, without saying "thankyou..." I say (loudly enough for them to hear) "YOU'RE WELCOME." I've certainly gotten some looks....but, maybe I taught them a lesson....you think? probably not.
:nono: ---too dumb. My husband always says, "some people have it, some people don't. S.

LOL -Just spat my coffee all over the laptop - that is totally me "YOU'RE WELCOME" and "HOW RUDE!!!" Do you know who are the worst offenders? OAPs - I sometimes think that it's no wonder that the youngsters have no manners when that's the example.

Oh.....my......God - I think I've turned into my mother!!!!!:eek: (Just joking, it's not that bad - she's fab)

Ails xx

OK---you people have a secret code, or something?
What's "OAP's?" --Only available peeps? Old arthritic people?
I'm clueless again. You people are teaching me! :)

I'm editing: I've been thinking: Older Adult people????
hmmmm :rolleyes:

Sorry - Old Age Pensioners - ie 65+ get a state pension

Ails xx