Hello ladies~

I know...haven't been here in a while. I do post periodically, and catch up on everyone as best I can- but I have tried to stay away from these "crack-boards". They are SO incredibly addicting.

So, my update....

I had all but decided I had been naturally selected out of the gene pool, and had made an appointment with my RE to discuss options. I truly came to grips with the reality that my ovaries made better pencil toppers, and I was just dealt the crappy had in the game of reproduction. Then...life throws me another curve ball...

As luck would have it (and mind you, "lady luck" hates me usually) today happened to be day 3 of my cycle. I figured, what the heck, just for kicks, lets do a baseline US and FSH and E2 level. I am a glutton for punishment. I truly wanted to see how much higher my FSH level could go...as it had reached 16.3 last month. Today, I had a FSH of 8.3 or 8.6- can't remember, and an E2 of 46. :confused: Even beyond all that...I had I think 6 or 7 antral follicles on the right side, and 4 or 5 on the left. The most I have EVER had was like 5 total. Maybe...just maybe...all this human dart board acupuncture and rabbit food I am eating is paying off? I remain cautiously optimistic, however, it doesn't hurt to pray and hope.

My RE figured it was worth a go, as this may be as good as it gets for me. :) As the usual glutton for punishment, I thought...SURE, why not...so, now begins the human pin cushion game. I am ready to look like I was taken in a back alley and pummelled in the stomach relentlessly, as long as it is effective. Started on 225 iu gonal f and 225 iu menopur today....guess we will see! Bring on the bruises!! :D

I need all the prayers I can get! After almost 15 years, I am ready for this to all be done and to actually pay off.

I will keep ya'll updated...and keep all of ya'll in my thoughts and prayers.

Laurie:D

Laurie, I am so sorry you have had to go trough this for so long but maybe your luck is changing and everything will go great this cycle. I remember you from this board when I was ttc#1. Don't know if you remember me but I had been TTC#1 for 12 years before it happened. So I know how you feel and how hopeless it feels sometimes. All I could think about was going through life without a child. DH and I were saving to do IVF after several failed IUI's and I got preggo. I was also checking into adoption as an option because I was so desperate to be a mother. I would have done anything to get a child. Now I'm TTC#2 and I was praying it would be easier but doesn't look like it getting ready to start IVF cycle. Well anyway I just wanted to say hang in there. I'll be praying for you.

Kelly

Good Luck Laurie....just when we least expect it a miracle can happen. I am sending you lots of positive baby dust and wishing for a BFP for you this cycle. Good Luck, AimeeM

Good luck Laurie! Wow, I'm sorry about your luck (trust, I'm not Lady Luck's best friend. The way she hates me, it's as if I flirted with her husband. And I'm going to drop this before it gets on a weird level) but you never know when it's going to turn around! And you never know about the acupuncture and rabbit food, it pay just be paying off! ****BABY DUST****

Hi Laurie,

I just wanted to say I admire your courage and perserverance, and I really hope it pays off for you. May this cycle be THE ONE.

Holly

Laurie so glad to hear from u and to hear good news from u even better.I will really pray hard for u I hope this is it for u.U are this great women and u deserve this.U are always in my thoughts and prayers sweetie.GOOD LUCK..........


Mapia

Laurie

So glad to hear from you. Miss having you around. I cannot even try to imagine what you have been through but i am really hoping and praying that this is going to be your month.

Wishing you all the best.

Amy

Oh Laurie I do hope this is your month, I will keep you in the forefront of my IF prayers.

Ruby

Oh my goodness Laurie, I just finally saw your post. You can be sure of my prayers for you... I know that you have been through a lot during this difficult journey, and nothing would be more uplifting and inspiring to see a BFP post from you in a few weeks! I am so happy you decided to go check things out on this particular cycle... Crossing my fingers that all the injections and bruises pay off big time with this one! Good luck and please, please, please keep us posted!!!!

I am getting excited for you Laurie!!:blob_fire I wish you all the luck and baby dust and prayers and whatever else is out there for you so that this is your month.

You must have been through a lot in those years, I'll pray that this month it'll all pay off with a BFP. Keep us posted.

Hey Laurie!! :wave:
I was just wondering, when do you begin your 2ww? Or have you already begun it? Sorry if that sounds like a stupid question :D but sometimes this IF stuff is really confusing :D :D :angel: As always, you're in my IF prayers and am thinking about you sweetheart :bouncing: ******BABY DUST******

Thank you all for the wonderful support- it is quite refreshing to have women who truly sympathize and empathize with what I am enduring.

Kelly (KJinKY), I do remember you...how are you? Congrats on your little one!

Had E2 drawn today, but as of now (8:20 pm Texas time) I have yet to hear results....don't think I will hold my breath tonight for that. :D Instead, I continue my self inflicted stomach bruising, and wait til tomorrow, ever so patiently...:dizzy:

IF E2 is ok, I go in for an ultrasound Friday, and maybe trigger sometime next week. With DH in Iraq now, and his swim team on ice...it would be great for a 4th of July "celebration". :D

However, if history repeats itself, for what feels like the millionth time, I won't make it to that. In any case, I continue to pray and hope. God knows I have enough hope to outfit a country. :D

There are a few differences with this cycle that I have noticed, or maybe I am just convincing myself they are there...but I can definitely feel my ovaries- or at least I think that is them acting a little tender. Guess this is normal with injectables? I know my throbbing headache is...but maybe it is just a figment of my imagination. :)

Thanks again ladies...I needed to vent! :) I will keep all of ya'll in my thoughts and prayers as well. Our day WILL come...we just have to believe that, because without hope...what is left?

Laurie

Laurie, I am doing fine I started my Lupron injections last night (doing IVF to TTC #2) and I will be taking my last BCP on Saturday then start Bravelle on July 9th. I hoped that it would be easier to conceive #2 but I was wrong IF can never give us a break. I am so sorry your DH is in Iraq that must be tough. But I will be praying this is your cycle for a bfp. It's been a long journey for you and I know how that feels but keep the faith. We're here for you.

Kelly

Hi Laurie - I remembered that your DH was in Iraq... I pray you can give him a wonderful gift with a suprise announcement of BFP. The both of you truly deserve it, that is for sure. I am taking injections right now (for an IVF cycle) and yesterday I had the worst throbbing headache. Also, for the first time ever, I can say with confidence that I actually felt my ovaries working hard for me... I know we are both on different doses and protocols, but I had a great follie report today (I actually was concerned that maybe there were too many!). And I hope that the similar symptoms you have felt are indicative of good things going on inside you too.... crossing my fingers that this one progresses all the way girl! Wanting this fouth of July to be a real special one for you!

Good luck ladies, I am praying very hard for all of you!!

Army Wife- I pray for your husband, as I fellow wife of solider in forces, I sympathasize. And I pray that the fireworks on your fourth of july are also for you and your good news! BFP!!

Kari- Thank you for letting us knwo how you are! My prayers have been working for you, I'm so over the moon!! (correctly said? I tryto say I'm very very very happy) I will continue to pray that your ovaries keep up the good work, and you have a comfy lace for all those embabies :angel:

Kelly- how are you handling the injections? Very good, i hope!

****BABY DUST**** to all IF sisters, and healthy nine months!!

Princess the injections are going okay don't hurt much at all. Your english is very good. I took French in high school but that has been many years ago and I have forgotten most of it. You are doing IVF also correct? Come join us on the summer IVF thread.

Kelly

Salut Kelly,
Oh I'm sure you remember more French than you think cherie! Thank you, I try to make my english very good and understandable. Someday I wilbe able to speak without an accent, and maybe I can say the letter 'H'! :bouncing:
I'm not doing IVF yet. My doctor wants to clear up my PCOS. She doesn't think I have PCOS, but something close to it. But she wants to cler that up, or treat it, however you say, before we do anything more. But I wish you all the best in the IVF! I check in every once in awhile to wish prayers and warm thoghts and sprinkle baby dust!!!
How are you doing, cherie?

******BABY DUST*******

Just a little glimmer of hope left...

Went in on Wed. for E2- and it was a disappointing 78 (they like to see 100+ after 3 days of belly bruising shots). Dr. suggested I continue Gonal F and Menopur and recheck E2 today (Friday). I did just that, and went in this morning. I was totally expecting the call from the nurse to say something along the lines of "sorry, but instead of increasing, your E2 is now -12 and we have NEVER seen this"-because that is just my luck. BUT...instead it is 236!!!!:bouncing: :blob_fire :bouncing:

I realize this is only a "baby step", but for me, it is nothing short of a miracle and an answered prayer to have gotten this far. :D I go in tomorrow morning for ultrasound (HATE that thing) and another E2. Maybe, just maybe we can have a happy 4th yet.

Wish me luck ladies...all I have is hope and prayers left!!

Laurie

Laurie, I'm so glad to hear your level increased so much!! I will be thinking of you tomorrow morning and sending you prayers for more good results.

Holly

Laurie, that is excellent news on your estradiol!!!:blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire What a fabulous mood that phone call must have put you in!!! I'm praying for you and really hope that you see some nice looking follicles on that u/s tomorrow! Please give us the update, okay??? Good luck!!!! :angel:

Laurie that is excellent news.

Please keep us posted on how it goes today...i am praying for you.

Amy

:D OMG!!! I have 3 good size follies, and other smaller ones!! This is unprecedented (sp?) for me. I have already been classified as a NON responder to any and all fertility meds. I don't remember any real numbers, as I was just in awe when I saw them on the ultrasound- I think my ears shut as my eyes opened wide! They were just beautiful.... *tear* :D RE said lining looked good, and everything looked great. Yep, GREAT...and that is for me. :D I have NEVER gotten this far....in almost 15 friggin' years. I am SO excited... but remain cautiously optimistic. I even had to slow down on the injections...from 225 iu gonal f and 225 menopur to 75 iu of each. WOW!!

Keep me in your prayers ladies, and I will do the same.... something is working, and I just feel if it is His will, it will happen. Even if this turns into a BFN, at the very least, I know my ovaries CAN function...when they want to. :D

Gotta run for some more "rabbit food" and acupuncture. :)

Laurie

Laurie

I really understand that cautiously optimistic thing ....
I am so happy for you .:blob_fire :blob_fire :blob_fire This cycle is giving you the hope you need and i am promising you my prayers. I am praying hard that this will be the cycle for you.

Maybe the rabbit food and acupuncture are playing a part in all this

Please keep us updated

AMy

Laurie,

I will definetly be praying for you, girl! This is very exciting.:blob_fire I really hope this is your month to get a BFP.

Pinkie

Laurie, lookin good, lookin good!! :blob_fire :D :blob_fire I'm go glad to hear your news! When is your next appt??? Keep us posted. :)

Holly

Laurie that is absolutely wonderful news I am so excited for you. I am praying this is the cycle for you. Keep us posted.

Kelly

Armywife,

Congratulations, I just read this thread. I wish u all the best.:blob_fire :blob_fire

Laurie that is great news sweetie I am praying so hard for u.I really really pray this is it girl.Please keep us posted.I am getting ready to watch Armywives I know u have to watch that show.I love it.:)

Mapia

Laurie, I'm keeping you in my prayers that this cycle continues to progress so positively! You've made it this far and I feel good about where you're at. I hope there is more good news ahead!!! And thanks so much for your support this weekend too. You are such a angel, and I know you'll make a good mommy. I hope your wait is almost over! :angel:

Hey Laurie,

Just wondering if you've had another appt and hoping everything is still looking great this cycle. Please drop us a line when you get a chance. I'm really praying for you girl.

Holly

OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! Ladies...we have 3 follicles...and that is 3 more than I have ever had!!!:blob_fire :blob_fire The nurse said they looked "beautiful". I could have cried, seriously!

They are 19, 16 and 14. I almost fell over!! I get to trigger tonight...FIRST TIME IN MY 15 YEARS OF DOING THIS IF JUNK!!

Bring on the rabbit food, fish and acupuncture if this works! I will be the biggest advocate!

Never give up...if this works (heck, even if it doesn't), at least I know my ovaries CAN function. It is all in His timing, and I am praying!

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I need a HUGE prayer chain right now! :bouncing: :bouncing: :bouncing:

Laurie

OMG Laurie that is AWESOME :bouncing: :bouncing: .U are always in my prayers.Will u be doing IVF or IUI?I knew u said DH is gone and u got his little swimmers on ice.Well keep us posted I am so excited for u girl.

Mapia

Mapia~

We are just doing IUI since I had so few follies. At this point, I don't care, I am just happy my ovaries did function. This has totally renewed my faith. All I need is ONE!!! :bouncing:

I just looked at the size of needle for the HCG...holy $%#@! Worst of all...I gotta do it myself. :(

This shall be fun! I will keep all of ya'll informed. :blob_fire

Thanks for all the well wishes and prayers! They are working- I think He is listening!!!!

Laurie

Wow Laurie that is fantastic!!! You must be over the moon right now. Believe me, I am praying hard for you girl.

Good luck with the HCG injection, I hope it doesn't hurt too much though I have a feeling you won't really mind even if it does.

Good, good, good luck!!! I am sending you loads and loads of baby dust and a huge good luck hug!

Ruby

Laurie, I just want you to know that I'm saying a prayer for you. Your follies really sound wonderful and I bet there are three healthy eggs inside waiting to come out after trigger and meet up with those swimmers. Good luck, I pray it works for you with all my heart! Your good news amazingly just made my day better :angel:

YAY Laurie!! :bouncing: :bouncing: :bouncing: Saying a prayer for you right now. Hope the shot is not too bad. When is IUI? On Wednesday? Praying this is it for you and DH!!!!

Holly

Hey Laurie cant u change the needle and put a smaller one on I would do that with my injections.Well I wish u luck girl so wow IUI on the 4th of July that is awesome.I pray this is it for u.U deserve this more then anything in the world.Praying hard for u sweetie.

Mapia

Laurie that is wonderful news. Three wonderful follies and like you said it only takes one. I am so sorry you have to do your HCG by yourself and it is a huge needle.

Mapia, With IUI's you have to do the HCG in the muscle so you have to use that long needle.

Kelly

Oh Laurie

I am so happy for you:bouncing: :bouncing:
I am sorry about the shot............believe me i know thats not pleasant. My heparin shots are a nightmare....though i am sure our sacrifices will be worth it.

Please keep us posted on how things proceed.
Praying that this will be the month for you.

Amy

Wonderful news Laurie!!:bouncing:

I am praying for you and can't wait to hear all og your updates, okay, cherie? I am praying fo ryour BFP!!! :bouncing: :bouncing:

******BABY DUST*******

OK, so I woke up yesterday, feeling like my ovaries were exploding (not really 100% sure they didn't). :eek: Still a little crampy, but overall doing ok.

NOW, comes the waiting game. I just pray that those little eggies released (or at least existed), and now are getting warm and comfy with DH's swimteam.

I am praying...but it will all be in His time.

~Stick, baby stick!!!~

Anyone else wanna join me in the 2WW? Misery loves company. :dizzy:

Thanks for all the support ladies. Ya'll are truly wonderful!

Laurie

Hi Laurie!!
Congratulations on 2ww!!! I'm realy exited to hear about how you do with the wait.:bouncing: ..when do you test? Make sure you relax and stay calm (not saying you aren't a calm person) so that those littl eeggies can cuddle up with DH's swimmies! I'll be praying for you, bien sur, cherie.
**********BABY DUST*************

Oh Laurie, I am so excited that you are in the 2WW! You deserve it and my prayers are with you. I just told AimeeS (who also is in the 2WW) how much it means to me when one of my friends here gets a BFP. I hope that this is the one for the both of you. It would really lift my spirits that is for sure! Good luck sweetie and I can't wait for your great news to come!

Laurie I am so excited that everything has gone so well for you this cycle and I am praying DH's swimteam is cuddling up with those eggies. You really deserve this and good luck with the 2ww.

Kelly

Laurie, I was thinking and praying for you today. I'm so glad to hear that things are going well. Hoping that this time IS His time. :angel:

I'm not in my 2ww yet, but I'm so excited for you I feel like I am! Wishing you all the best.

Pinkie

Laurie

Just wanted to wish you all the best on your 2ww really hope that this will be it for you.
Sending you loads of positive thoughts.

AMy

Hi Laurie

Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you and wishing you well. Things sound REALLY hopeful for you this month and I am praying you get your BFP. Hope you're doing okay and aren't driving yourself too crazy with anticipation!

Take care sweet!

Ruby

Laurie, How are you holding up during this 2WW?!?!

Laurie I am just checking on you! I was wondering the 2ww is coming, ma chère?? How are you holding?? Praying for you!

*********Baby Dust**********

I AM GOING NUTS!!!

It takes every bit of restraint & willpower to NOT take a HPT. I am just praying for the witch to stay away!!

Only time (or my lack of self-control) will tell....

No symptoms-only AF cramps which would be normal for right about now. :(

I am praying!

Laurie :D

Laurie, I am praying too!
Hang in there, you are doing SO well! It sounds so promising.
Lizzie

Laurie

Hang in there!!!!! When do you plan to test? I am praying so hard for you.

Amy

Hang in there Laurie. We're all praying for you. Many women get crampy before they get their bfps so you never know. I think your 2ww is up on the 18th? Is that right? If so, just one more week to go...

Holly

Laurie, do not worry about the cramping. Many many many women get cramps just before BFP! I am praying for you and thinking about you. When are you testing? Is your husband still on leave?

*****baby dust*****

Good Luck Laurie I am sending lots of prayers your way that this is your BFP :angel: AimeeM

Laurie I am praying right along with you!!! Can you remind us when you will test? Are you doing beta? I think I recall you saying that you got some HPT's but I wasn't sure if you were gonna take them.

Hi Laurie

I have been keeping you in my prayers and I can't wait to hear your good news soon!
Please keep us updated as I am very anxious for you.

Ruby