jimmyhonda
07-16-2007, 08:14 AM
I was reading a post here about "pets" and many of you commented how pets help with depression. So, yesterday I went to a pet store and bought fishes (guppies) in the hope that my situation would improve. It turns out that this is making my situation worst than I thought.
I had the tank set up and everything - the staff told me I need this and that...and the whole set-up cost $150 AUD including, 2 fishes, a water conditioner, dechlorinate agent, pump, filter, heater , water test kit etc. I was shocked about the price tag, I never really sat down with a pen and paper to work out the overall cost. I wished I did though.
When I arrived home from the pet store, one of the fish died inside the plastic bag. I felt really awkward and guilty. I spend the whole night monitoring the other fish to ensure that it was doing okay and read articles in the internet about guppies.
Today the tank looked cloudy, and the fish looked restless. My panicking and anxiety level is back again. I knew I shouldn't have bought fishes...so much work and worries...not to mentioned, water and electricity bills. Most importantly, when I see something dies, it just makes me so upset and guilty.
I had plans to save up money at the start of the year, by it seems I've completely forgotten about this plan.
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Maybe it's winter here in AUstralia - I was so full of life in Spring and Summer. Probably the weather has gotten into me...really can't wait for Spring to arrive.
I had the tank set up and everything - the staff told me I need this and that...and the whole set-up cost $150 AUD including, 2 fishes, a water conditioner, dechlorinate agent, pump, filter, heater , water test kit etc. I was shocked about the price tag, I never really sat down with a pen and paper to work out the overall cost. I wished I did though.
When I arrived home from the pet store, one of the fish died inside the plastic bag. I felt really awkward and guilty. I spend the whole night monitoring the other fish to ensure that it was doing okay and read articles in the internet about guppies.
Today the tank looked cloudy, and the fish looked restless. My panicking and anxiety level is back again. I knew I shouldn't have bought fishes...so much work and worries...not to mentioned, water and electricity bills. Most importantly, when I see something dies, it just makes me so upset and guilty.
I had plans to save up money at the start of the year, by it seems I've completely forgotten about this plan.
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Maybe it's winter here in AUstralia - I was so full of life in Spring and Summer. Probably the weather has gotten into me...really can't wait for Spring to arrive.

