This is the worst part about being bipolar in how extreme your moods not only switch but how the darkness of it even gets darker... Hope I can pull myself out of this one QUICK... (I'm in the middle of a med change)

I'm trying to open up more but it seems the more I open up the more I wish I never said anything... Does anyone else have this problem? I HATE talking about myself to friends or family! I feel like a burden OR if they don't react they way I want/hope they would I sink deeper in the depression... I feel like no one understands me or no one cares.

:( i know exactly where your comming from. i'm going through the same thing right now. as a matter of fact yesterday i posted about how miserable i was and still am. you are not alone, things do and will get better. if it gets too bad call your pdoc and make him/her aware of how your feeling. please hang in there and this is from someone who feels like noone cares, i often think that everyone is against me. but i'm told that this isnt' real, its only because we're sick and don't see how much we're loved.

best of luck to you and keep us posted

till next time

harmony :wave:

Sending some (((((HUGS))))) Dee-nah!! Just remember that this feeling won't last forever and hopefully the new meds will kick in and bring things to a better balance for you.

Perhaps you should look into a support group....nobody truly will understand what you are going through other than somebody who is walking in the same pair of shoes.;) Heck, as much as I would like to, sometimes I honestly don't understand my daughter and I would really like to.:) Sometimes family members just don't know what to say....and if you are anything like my daughter no matter what we say sometimes we get yelled at and after a while just listen. It doesn't mean that we don't care but sometimes we just don't know which words will make you feel better.

So perhaps joining a Bipolar support group will be just the thing for you. See if you can get in touch with NAMI and they will direct you to one in your area.

Hoping that you come out of this soon ~ Goody:angel: :wave:

Hey Goody..

I decided that this is my "support group", we do have one around here but it's not good it's just a bunch of people with either bipolar or depression issues with no professional leading the group... Don't know if you ever seen a group of bipolar people with no leader = )

When 10 different things come at me at once I can't deal... I have to learn how to handle situations like this.. It's seems I will be in the middle of dealing with one when the other comes into play and rapid cycling begins... AGAIN, i'm going through a med change so I'm also trying to figure out how my brain is handling this not to mention my body.. I've been side effect sick now for almost 2 weeks, pdoc knows about this...

Hopefully today will be good and I will be able to focus...

I know you have a lot of things going on in your life right now which would be hard for anyone to cope with. The only advice I can give you is to try to deal with one thing at a time and recognize that you have to take care of yourself first.

I am continually impressed by how much insight you have into your moods and triggers. Hopefully, with your help, your pdoc will be able to get you on the right medication combination soon.

Keep posting and know that we are thinking of you. Hopefully today will be a better day for you.

Lor:)

Thank you, Lor60 I appreciate that BUT I don't see it = ) It did make me feel good so again THANK YOU!!!

I'm in the same boat too - I'm down again after a period of being overly upbeat/energetic. Now I'm wishing I wasn't so open about my moods with people several months ago because I HATE them asking now. I don't want to burden them with how crappy I currently feel. I try to lie and put on a show but pretending can be so tiring :( I'm already tired enough!

I have the problem that I don't even like to talk to my psychiatrist about my moods. He asks me what I want out of medication and I say I want to be able to sleep but not too much and not feel tired all of the time. It is pretty much the same as wanting to be brought down a notch in my mood but not so much I'm depressed - but I feel awkward and hate talking about my moods so I always refer to anything but my mood (like my sleep, eating habits, headaches, etc.). This is probably what aided in my not being diagnosed long before, and it is one of the things I'll have to work on to gain better control of my disorder.

I am finding myself falling into that nasty little hole again as well. I don't have a psychiatrist, just a therapist who has helped me a lot. The first one I had wasted a year sitting in a room with me not saying anything and if she did, she called me by the wrong name or brought up things that never happened to me. I finally switched and was doing the med thing for two years. Finally the PDOC at where I have therapy told me that there was nothing more he could do for me. He had me to a vegetable like state and I was numb. I stared at the floor for hours and never showered. He said his hands were tied because he put me on every antidepressant he could and I didn't respond. So, I decided to try and fight it all on my own and quit all my meds. It has been well over a year and I have had mild hypo manias and mild blahs, but now I feel myself crashing hard. My family mentioned it weeks ago and I tried to deny it to myself so much, but now I am not sure what to do. I just hope it will just blow over without continuing to decline. I hope everyone does well and pulls through quickly.

DEE-NAH, They care it is just hard for ANYONE to understand how you feel if they have not experience it. I can safely say, most people with depression/bipolar have the similar experiences of no one understanding.

You have found a place here.:)

mel

It is hard to find people who understand. I had a boss once roll her eyes and tell me it was all in my head. I thought duhhhhhhh a chemical imbalance in the brain, you moron. I lucked out because I have a mom who is just awesome. She usually spots my swings before I do, but I think part of it is me just wishful thinking that it's not happening. But even my sister who really tries to be supported and defends me to those who don't believe mental diseases exist, sometimes holds it against me or says hurtful things because she just don't quite get it. That is why I joined this board, so that I could hear and talk to others who know how it can be, even though it is different for each person. I wish you the best and remember there are plenty here who know, or at least have some kind of an idea.