kimiesoscared
08-13-2007, 01:55 PM
I don't know what is going on with me but I have gone through some health scares in my life that Thankfully have turned out to be nothing serious. Yet I am finding myself worrying so much about my health-I obsess about paps and mammo's a constant fear of cancer. I have my first mammo coming up in a couple of weeks since I just hit 40 and I have been thinking about it every day and obsessing about it to a degree of feeling for lumps every few days-I feel nothing out of the ordinary but if you push hard enough I feel bumps and lumps to then feel nothing the next day. I feel sad and I have stopped exercising-there is a part of my brain that says "why are you exercising for when you are probably going to find out from the dr that you have cancer". I know this sounds crazy but this is how I have been thinking. I remember going through this around 10-15 years ago and then it totally went away. I either am obsessed with my health or just don't think and worry about it at all. Can someone give me some feed back on what the hell is going on with me-pleeeeeese. I feel like this is controlling my every thought and feeling.
Sponsor
Moldova
08-13-2007, 03:31 PM
I am not sure what to make of this: obsessing over your health of severe depression? Usually when people see so much negativity and expect negative things happen to them - it could be a sign of depression.
Why wouldn't you go and talk to somebody who can determen what this is exactly since it rules your daily life and brings so much dark thoughts to your mind? I am sure you can leave a normal life and i am sure that help is out there for you...
I had and I have so many serious health issues, many surgeries and as we speak i am on disability. But i always feel "could be worse, young kids die from cancer, but I am still here - that is what important". This helps not to concentrate on yourself and enjoy life a bit more since not many people sooo lucky to be 100% pain free or not to have health issues. Everybody has something, but it does not mean life is over.
Best of luck to you, i hope you will find the answers for yourself!!
Why wouldn't you go and talk to somebody who can determen what this is exactly since it rules your daily life and brings so much dark thoughts to your mind? I am sure you can leave a normal life and i am sure that help is out there for you...
I had and I have so many serious health issues, many surgeries and as we speak i am on disability. But i always feel "could be worse, young kids die from cancer, but I am still here - that is what important". This helps not to concentrate on yourself and enjoy life a bit more since not many people sooo lucky to be 100% pain free or not to have health issues. Everybody has something, but it does not mean life is over.
Best of luck to you, i hope you will find the answers for yourself!!
kimiesoscared
08-13-2007, 05:38 PM
I suppose it could be depression - since I have been told I have a mild depression and given antidepressants. I will just have to check into it further to make sure-because this is not living.
rosequartz
08-13-2007, 05:47 PM
sounds like OCD
check out the OCD board.....lots of people obcess over health related stuff
:angel:
check out the OCD board.....lots of people obcess over health related stuff
:angel:
golden_eagle
08-31-2007, 10:37 AM
I don't know what is going on with me but I have gone through some health scares in my life that Thankfully have turned out to be nothing serious. Yet I am finding myself worrying so much about my health-I obsess about paps and mammo's a constant fear of cancer. I have my first mammo coming up in a couple of weeks since I just hit 40 and I have been thinking about it every day and obsessing about it to a degree of feeling for lumps every few days-I feel nothing out of the ordinary but if you push hard enough I feel bumps and lumps to then feel nothing the next day. I feel sad and I have stopped exercising-there is a part of my brain that says "why are you exercising for when you are probably going to find out from the dr that you have cancer". I know this sounds crazy but this is how I have been thinking. I remember going through this around 10-15 years ago and then it totally went away. I either am obsessed with my health or just don't think and worry about it at all. Can someone give me some feed back on what the hell is going on with me-pleeeeeese. I feel like this is controlling my every thought and feeling.
Hi,
Let me assure you ,you are not alone with this emotion
I suffer from fear of death,fear of loss of control as well as fear of the unknown. I am a hypochondriac i am sure, and have lived in fear of illness and death for most of my adult life, i am now 53 and every year for the past 13 years (since i hit 40) i have imagined i was dying from one illness or another. It has been a long hard struggle but on the positive side of the coin , my fears and anxieties kept me searching for answers ,looking for something to overcome the terror attackes and frightening fears that had control of my my life by studying emotions and anatomy and finally becoming a hypnotherapist.
FEAR is a hard emotion to overcome , even now i still get scared every time i experience a twinch of pain anywhere in my body,
but now i accept "me" warts and all and i have learned to just live in the moment, I study pranic healing and spiritual well being. this helps soothe my soul
May god be with you and bless you with happy peaceful thoughts
Golden_eagle
Hi,
Let me assure you ,you are not alone with this emotion
I suffer from fear of death,fear of loss of control as well as fear of the unknown. I am a hypochondriac i am sure, and have lived in fear of illness and death for most of my adult life, i am now 53 and every year for the past 13 years (since i hit 40) i have imagined i was dying from one illness or another. It has been a long hard struggle but on the positive side of the coin , my fears and anxieties kept me searching for answers ,looking for something to overcome the terror attackes and frightening fears that had control of my my life by studying emotions and anatomy and finally becoming a hypnotherapist.
FEAR is a hard emotion to overcome , even now i still get scared every time i experience a twinch of pain anywhere in my body,
but now i accept "me" warts and all and i have learned to just live in the moment, I study pranic healing and spiritual well being. this helps soothe my soul
May god be with you and bless you with happy peaceful thoughts
Golden_eagle
Kathrin74
08-31-2007, 02:22 PM
Hey Kimie,
I am really sorry you ave to go through this! I ahve OCD, so I know how bad and all-consuming fears and obsessions can be.
Hypochondria has been called one of the OCD spectrum disorders. Which makes sense, because it is also about obsessing.
Somebody else in my family also worries about her health a lot, for example she has been fearing she may have MS for years now. And it makes me sad to think that somebody must go through life with that fear always in the background - and often in the foreground...
You know, life IS dangerous - that's what my dad used to tell me, ebcause I was a severe hypochondriac as a kid, afraid of all the minor scrapes, cuts, bruises, pains I might feel could be something more serious.... There is no such thing as 100% certainty maybe in life. But does that mean we always have to focus on what could go wrong? Of course not!
I could be hit by a car tomorrow.
I could be diagnosed with cancer next week.
There could be a nuclear war.
And anyway, one day we all have to go, right... But does that mean we can't live now without thinking about it constantly?
Of course not.
I know, when you are abosessed with something, all the talking and all the well-meant advice might not help.
But i had to try...;)
Please try to get help for yourself. And try to let go. Hey, the probability that you have cnacer is really probably lower than the probability that you worry yourself sick!
(Not meaning to start another obsession here...);)
Sending love, and a prayer..
Kathrin
I am really sorry you ave to go through this! I ahve OCD, so I know how bad and all-consuming fears and obsessions can be.
Hypochondria has been called one of the OCD spectrum disorders. Which makes sense, because it is also about obsessing.
Somebody else in my family also worries about her health a lot, for example she has been fearing she may have MS for years now. And it makes me sad to think that somebody must go through life with that fear always in the background - and often in the foreground...
You know, life IS dangerous - that's what my dad used to tell me, ebcause I was a severe hypochondriac as a kid, afraid of all the minor scrapes, cuts, bruises, pains I might feel could be something more serious.... There is no such thing as 100% certainty maybe in life. But does that mean we always have to focus on what could go wrong? Of course not!
I could be hit by a car tomorrow.
I could be diagnosed with cancer next week.
There could be a nuclear war.
And anyway, one day we all have to go, right... But does that mean we can't live now without thinking about it constantly?
Of course not.
I know, when you are abosessed with something, all the talking and all the well-meant advice might not help.
But i had to try...;)
Please try to get help for yourself. And try to let go. Hey, the probability that you have cnacer is really probably lower than the probability that you worry yourself sick!
(Not meaning to start another obsession here...);)
Sending love, and a prayer..
Kathrin
rose01
11-19-2007, 09:24 PM
Hello...I am new to the boards, and signed up just to be able to reassure myself that there are other people like me. I have suffered anxiety and panic for almost 15 years now...having my very first panic attack 4 days after i had my first child. It was so severe that the medics thought i was having a stroke. It seems that through the years my anxiety has differed in many different ways. I will go for a three or four month period and have constant panic attacks...then I will be fine for awhile. Then I will stay home and make my kids stay home because of the fear that we might be in a deadly car accident...this lasts a couple of weeks usually. Then I might go for a while where i am just sick constantly...the stomach cramps..lightheadedness...blah blah blah...then I hit the hypochondria..which is the worst of all and what im experiencing right now. I remember several years ago that I went through this only it was with the health of the kids..I would do self checks on them to make sure there were no lumps that could mean cancer. My doc was furious with me when I told him about this...it was almost that he had never seen anyone so out of control. My husband and i separated about 2 years ago when he decided that he wanted to become a drug user. We recently tried to reconcile, but it didnt work...I just found out a couple of weeks ago that he had been injecting drugs. So ofcourse, now...I am at risk for all kinds of STD's including HIV and Hep C. I have done the right thing and spoke with our local health dept and have arranged for Hep C testing. She said that this is much more of a risk than HIV. I live in a very small community and while HIV is present here...it is not common, as though in a large city. She said that HIV is very delicate and only 1% of people are actually infected by their partner in a heterosexual relationship. She told me not to even bother testing for it at this time, because it will be negative...I have to test 6 months from now. This all fuels the anxiety fire...Im obsessed now. Im doing self checks of lymph nodes and anything else feesable 100 times a day. Im finding any symptom...looking it up on the net and researching every disease that comes up. It has consumed me. I havnt cleaned, cooked or done laundry in a week...everyone is eating ramen noodles and sandwiches. I actually wonder if I did turn out to have some horrible infectious disease...how could it be any worse than the anxiety and panic that I already know I have....
Pri Lily
11-20-2007, 01:16 AM
Well, number one is you're obsessing.....you need to see a Doctor about that. You should also try cognitive behaviour therapy...there are many good books out there about it, and lots of info on the internet.
Number two.....how do you feel about turning 40? Kinda scary, huh? Could this be what's behind the sudden health fears? Just a guess.
Please let us know.....
Lil
Number two.....how do you feel about turning 40? Kinda scary, huh? Could this be what's behind the sudden health fears? Just a guess.
Please let us know.....
Lil
Pri Lily
11-20-2007, 01:28 AM
Hello...I am new to the boards, and signed up just to be able to reassure myself that there are other people like me. I have suffered anxiety and panic for almost 15 years now...having my very first panic attack 4 days after i had my first child. It was so severe that the medics thought i was having a stroke. It seems that through the years my anxiety has differed in many different ways. I will go for a three or four month period and have constant panic attacks...then I will be fine for awhile. Then I will stay home and make my kids stay home because of the fear that we might be in a deadly car accident...this lasts a couple of weeks usually. Then I might go for a while where i am just sick constantly...the stomach cramps..lightheadedness...blah blah blah...then I hit the hypochondria..which is the worst of all and what im experiencing right now. I remember several years ago that I went through this only it was with the health of the kids..I would do self checks on them to make sure there were no lumps that could mean cancer. My doc was furious with me when I told him about this...it was almost that he had never seen anyone so out of control. My husband and i separated about 2 years ago when he decided that he wanted to become a drug user. We recently tried to reconcile, but it didnt work...I just found out a couple of weeks ago that he had been injecting drugs. So ofcourse, now...I am at risk for all kinds of STD's including HIV and Hep C. I have done the right thing and spoke with our local health dept and have arranged for Hep C testing. She said that this is much more of a risk than HIV. I live in a very small community and while HIV is present here...it is not common, as though in a large city. She said that HIV is very delicate and only 1% of people are actually infected by their partner in a heterosexual relationship. She told me not to even bother testing for it at this time, because it will be negative...I have to test 6 months from now. This all fuels the anxiety fire...Im obsessed now. Im doing self checks of lymph nodes and anything else feesable 100 times a day. Im finding any symptom...looking it up on the net and researching every disease that comes up. It has consumed me. I havnt cleaned, cooked or done laundry in a week...everyone is eating ramen noodles and sandwiches. I actually wonder if I did turn out to have some horrible infectious disease...how could it be any worse than the anxiety and panic that I already know I have....
Rose
I was tested for HIV way back in 1987, when AIDS was the up and coming thing. It wasn't understood then, the way it is now.
I found out that an ex-boyfriend was gay. It was the longest three weeks of my life. To add to it, I had a new boyfriend, and they tested him too.
I think you can tell that the test was negative.
Good for you, for taking action...it takes guts.
Please go see a Doctor and get some advice about your anxiety....and also look into cognitive behaviour therapy as well.
Let us know....
Lil
Rose
I was tested for HIV way back in 1987, when AIDS was the up and coming thing. It wasn't understood then, the way it is now.
I found out that an ex-boyfriend was gay. It was the longest three weeks of my life. To add to it, I had a new boyfriend, and they tested him too.
I think you can tell that the test was negative.
Good for you, for taking action...it takes guts.
Please go see a Doctor and get some advice about your anxiety....and also look into cognitive behaviour therapy as well.
Let us know....
Lil