Hello,
I just saw your post in response to the new person on the board.

Just wanted to say that I hae many problems resulting from a long ED, too, and that I know what it feels like to be in danger because of them and to have your life shortened.

I hope that both of us continue to take care of ourselves and just outlive those statistics by a long shot. But I wanted to just well, offer my support and understanding. YOur posts here are so helpful to people.

Take care, Seaturtle

Thank you. If I can help someone else, at least what I have left of my life may not be in vain. I don't want to have lived for nothing, even with the things I"ve done to myself.

Hi,

I know. I often feel that way, too.

Growing up, I had to sneak food into my room, too.

I try to find the joy in every day, too. While I am still here, I want to live the best quality life I can. I hope you have joy, too.

One thing my experiences in life has given me is a deep appreciation of being alive now, no matter what my regrets and limitations.

You have my best wishes and also, respect and admiration. Making it through is difficult and takes a strong, good person to do it.

Take care.

I know what you mean.
It's amazing I'm still alive, even with the physical problems I've got, and continue to get. My pantry is packed, even though I don't go through it very fast. I don't ever want that feeling of being restricted by others (even though I've done it to myself).
It's such a lifelong, complicated relationship with food. At least now, I don't look at the numbers or purge/binge/starve. My body gets something in, to be able to think.