InLove
08-25-2007, 09:46 AM
Hi there. It is the first time I wrote in this forum (although I have done it before in the Schiozophrenia one). Well, I have been in an on and off relationship with my boyfriend who is schizophrenic, he takes meds and he manages well. We have a 2 month old baby. A year ago I started to wonder why I have been having intrusive thoughts during my life since I was a child. I thought everyone had them. Then I started to read about OCD but I haven't gone to a doctor or anything because I'm ok, I mean, this is not affecting my life. The thing is I told my boyfriend about this thoughts and he got so worried that I might hurt our baby that he did a recording of me telling him about my thoughts and he showed it to the police. I received a letter from Social Services as they wanted to ask me more about this thoughts. I did not tell all of them as I was scared they take my baby away. I have had rows with my boyfriend beause of this, but now I understand he was just worried and wanted to help me. The social worker is coming home in a week to ask me more questions. She even said I should do councelling. I just want them to leave me alone and that they shouldn't worry about my baby, I will never hurt him. My thoughts are also pictures where I see myself hurting my boyfriend, myself, my baby,,pushing someone in front of a train, imaging putting a bomb in a building,,,,things like these...but I have never hurt anyone. I want to be left alone.
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seaturtle
08-26-2007, 01:15 AM
Hi,Maybe I'm speaking out of turn, but seems to me that taping you and involving the police is a doubtful way of "helping" you. He may have had the best intentions, but helping you by talking with you and getting you to a therapist seems more like the thing to do.
I'm sure you never would harm your child. Good that you are conscious that these are OCD thoughts. But you deserve and need help, sounds like - these thoughts cannot be pleasant for you to live with. And you can get better if you get counseling and maybe medication.
Think of the health of yourself, your relationship, and your child. Untreated, OCD can ruin your life, your relationships, and damage your child.
I am sorry if I sound harsh, but I am trying to be direct. OCD is an illness, not a failing, and although I disagree with your boyfriend's actions, I do think that you might really do well seeing a counselor.
Keep on posting here - there is lots of help, and you are most welcome
I'm sure you never would harm your child. Good that you are conscious that these are OCD thoughts. But you deserve and need help, sounds like - these thoughts cannot be pleasant for you to live with. And you can get better if you get counseling and maybe medication.
Think of the health of yourself, your relationship, and your child. Untreated, OCD can ruin your life, your relationships, and damage your child.
I am sorry if I sound harsh, but I am trying to be direct. OCD is an illness, not a failing, and although I disagree with your boyfriend's actions, I do think that you might really do well seeing a counselor.
Keep on posting here - there is lots of help, and you are most welcome
Kathrin74
08-31-2007, 05:55 PM
Can you see an OCD specialist/therapist? And have them talk to the social worker?
Or, gather material about this type of OCD yourself and give it the social worker to read.
Kathrin
Or, gather material about this type of OCD yourself and give it the social worker to read.
Kathrin
purplegirl1
09-01-2007, 12:52 AM
I Have Ocd.. And I Also Work In The Mental Health Field. I Have Great Knowledge In This Area. It Sounds Like Your Boyfriend Got Scared By What You Told Him. Are You Diagnosed With Ocd? My Suggestion As A Peer On This Board, Would Be For You To Be Cooperative... As Upsetting As This Is... I Would Try To Get Involved With A Specialist - Cbt For Ocd... I Would Also Inform The Caseworker Who Comes To Meet With You To Investigate The Allegations That You Feel That You Suffer From Ocd Or Some Sort Of Anxiety Disorder And That Your Conversation With Your Boyfriend Revolved Around Your "obsessive Thoughts" Not Your Plans...the Investigation Is Now A Protocol That Has To Be Done. I Am Sure That The Caseworker Will Direct You In The Right Way... You Will Most Likely Have This Case Closed... As They Will See That This Is Part Of Mental Illness... Not Reality.
InLove
09-01-2007, 09:58 PM
thanks Male2581, that link is amazing,,I have been days and weeks looking for websites that describe my thoughts and could not find any,,,but the one you posted here is amazing,,seems it is talking about myself,,,,will show it to my boyfriend and also to social services and the future counsellor,,I guess they wont let me in pease until I visit the counsellor...thanks
male2581
09-02-2007, 11:14 AM
In Love, Glad the link that I posted was able to help you. It really irritates me that these type of Obssesions and especially since there are many people accross the globe who suffer from them, are not commonly recognized as OCD. So, I hope the link helps with your husband and SSworker. People are so ignorant an uneducated about OCD. As I've pointed out to people before, we are not all hand washers obssesed with contamination. I recommend prinitning up the article as well as finding as much reputable information on the web and in books about obssesive thoughts of that nature. Cause the information is certainly out there. Don't forget the book I mentioned in my first post. He talks about the 4 most common obssesions which are Sexual/Violent thought and impulses, Blasphmy, and Contamintaion.
On the URL that I posted previously, you can delete all of the letters/symbols that follow the .com on the adress bar. There you can see the site the article is linked to as well as be linked to other articles on OCD. There is a couple more on violent obssesions among others.
On the URL that I posted previously, you can delete all of the letters/symbols that follow the .com on the adress bar. There you can see the site the article is linked to as well as be linked to other articles on OCD. There is a couple more on violent obssesions among others.