I'm just so scared. I should have never had unprotected sex with that guy back in Feb '07. He said he was clean, and had a full blood panal test from being in the army. But it was a foolish mistake on my part not to demand a condom regardless, so now I just keep beating myself up over and over again for it.

I have no idea if he even has HIV, and the only reason I keep worrying is because I keep on having these recurrent sinus infections even after antibiotics. I've had 3 this past year so far, so I thought "what if" this guy gave it to me.

I know all I have to do is get tested. But I'm scared, so afraid of the drugs, and I'm currently in a relationship with someone I hope to marry one day, and I could never forgive myself if he caught if from me with me not knowing it.

I know HIV doesnt care if you slept with 20 ppl or 2. I've been with 3, and only 1 of them unprotected. But let me tell you it hurts so much when I think about the worst case scenario here.

I'd give anything not to be in this situation right now. I dont want to die anytime soon, but right now HIV sounds like a death sentence, especially the way our government is these days with medications. They want us to live longer with the disease, but they know the meds will kill us.

I'm so scared, and I dont know how I can even bring myself to tell my bf that i want to get tested.

Your possible exposure was low risk, and if he is in the military they do check for HIV every year.

Why don't you guys just go and get tested together? There is no better way to get rid of the "what if's" and there are places now that can give you results same day so you don't have to sit and dwell on it.

Good luck!

Your possible exposure was low risk, and if he is in the military they do check for HIV every year.

Why don't you guys just go and get tested together? There is no better way to get rid of the "what if's" and there are places now that can give you results same day so you don't have to sit and dwell on it.

Good luck!


Thanks....I hope I don't have it. Do you know if it's cheaper going to one of the places you said or going through my general pract to order a test?

I don't know it depends on if you have insurance and if they cover it. Do a search online and it'll list the rapid test places by your zip code. A lot of places do it for free.

I don't know it depends on if you have insurance and if they cover it. Do a search online and it'll list the rapid test places by your zip code. A lot of places do it for free.

Good to know. I just really need to work up some courage. The other night my dad was talking to some of our neighbors, and they were talking about healthcare. He said he doesnt feel sorry for those with HIV and should suffer. When I heard that I wanted to die inside. My family is very old fashioned and weird about these kinds of things. They see something like this as a sin. I just hope and pray to God that I dont have it.

It's just, if this guy told me he was clean and is actually lying...could he be in some trouble? He said he was clean and didnt need to use condoms, so I believed him...stupidly!! Even though he could be truthful I just am not happy with my decision. It's bad enough sleeping w/ someone u never loved but even worse if they gave u something.

He's got a great job w/ the department of defense, and I cant imagine someone being that stupid to risk everything they have by knowingly ruining someone's life. But I guess it does happen.