hi,
my name is scott. i am 17
the past five or six months for me have been comepletely horrid.
I am still under horrible stress during this period of time and was during the time before that.
to start, in march i was baker acted after i had an anxiety attack in school, which in turn led to me seeing a social worker at the school who I told I was hearing voices and having delusions and having homicidal thoughts. and then my neurologist(whom i see for tourettes syndrome). after this i was baker acted( as was stated before) in that time i had several terrifying changes...i started seeing things, hearing what sounded like a transistor radio playing in my room, and going through mood swings, and discovered a seperate personality who calls himself Dante. I also have severe anger issues. I try to distance myself from people alot. I have an extreme fear of public places because i feel they are staring at me and laughing at me. when i was younger i had believed my thoughts were put in a thought bubble and brodcast to everyone around me.and after that i feared the government was spying on me. in sixth grade, the voices appeared...they told me to hurt people who stood in my way of a happy life. i have also attempted to kill someone.(which the person does not know of) I have also experienced thoughts of suicide.i have horrible memory lapses in which it takes me forever to remember what i was thinking or talking about.
I also have the feeling that bugs are always crawling on me. but when i scratch it goes away. my head is never clear, and when i speak to someone i always start a new topic out of the blue. hallucinations come occasionally, but not all the time, because im on a medication called abilify. it works sometimes...but not very well.
i dont understand why all this is happening.
ive seen three psychiatrists, one says im schizophrenic, the other says its because of my tourettes meds. and the other says i may have schizophrenia. im so confused and stressed all the time. i dont know what to do!
your input would be greatly appreciated.

Hi Scott. It certainly sounds like you are having psychotic episodes. Maybe you need to get your medications upped? If Abilify is working for you sometimes, perhaps increasing the dose might help? I would speak to your doc again and ask him if you can try this.

Another question, are you doing any sort of drugs, even pot?

no i have never been on any drugs. including narcotics or hallucinigens or even alchoholic beverages at that. my abilify is already at 30 mg. i dont think it goes any higher. but i hope it does.
plus...today i lost control and lashed out at someone violently.(my mother) and both her and my father freaked out. i ended up running from my house and everything. something told me to attack her...i dont know why or even what it was.

It's good you don't do drugs, well done.

Ok, it seems the med isn't working for you as good as it should There are tons of different meds and unfortunately it does take quite a long time of trial and error before you can find the one that works for you.

You really do need to go back to your doc and tell him what happened, demand that you are given help and need to try something else, or something adjacent to the Abilify. Can your mother go with you, have you told her what is going on?

It must be all very scary for you...keep us posted on how you're doing :)

I have an appointment with my doctor in a couple of weeks. im pretty sure i can handle it till then. and ill make sure to ask about other medications. After what happened yesterday, i told her everthing that went on in the days before. my mom goes with me to every appt. so im good there.
thank you for all your advice. i'll be sure to keep you posted.