matt1243
09-07-2007, 10:46 PM
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my mind keeps telling me im gay,and if i say no, it like points out reasons why i am, if i somehow prove them wrong another thought will come into my head......,
i feel like something is trying to take over my life, and make me live a life i dont want to live, i like women, always have, but the minute i think "see i like women," an immediate thought from the past, gets pushed into my head to like prove that im gay...,
now its gotten to the point where, if a freind thats a dude is talking to me, and i show any kind of feeling, like ANYTHING, my penis moves, i feel any tingleing, anything, my mind goes "see ur gay....", and unwanted thoughts get pushed into my head when i masterbate sometimes,
to try n prove that im gay or something... why is this happening??? i am attracted to women, men dont turn me on, or anything....., its like a vicous cycle, my mind tells me im gay, i prove it wrong eventually, then it trys and proves me wrong, then i get giant amount of anxiety...., then im ok then it starts up again :((((, i have had OCD since i was 8 years old, and going to a psychologist this week, any advice/opinions?
my mind keeps telling me im gay,and if i say no, it like points out reasons why i am, if i somehow prove them wrong another thought will come into my head......,
i feel like something is trying to take over my life, and make me live a life i dont want to live, i like women, always have, but the minute i think "see i like women," an immediate thought from the past, gets pushed into my head to like prove that im gay...,
now its gotten to the point where, if a freind thats a dude is talking to me, and i show any kind of feeling, like ANYTHING, my penis moves, i feel any tingleing, anything, my mind goes "see ur gay....", and unwanted thoughts get pushed into my head when i masterbate sometimes,
to try n prove that im gay or something... why is this happening??? i am attracted to women, men dont turn me on, or anything....., its like a vicous cycle, my mind tells me im gay, i prove it wrong eventually, then it trys and proves me wrong, then i get giant amount of anxiety...., then im ok then it starts up again :((((, i have had OCD since i was 8 years old, and going to a psychologist this week, any advice/opinions?
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Christian73
09-08-2007, 09:51 AM
Hey Matt:
Listen. I'm gay and when I talk to an attractive guy, feeling attracted to him feels good. It's an enjoyable feeling. The fact that your thoughts are freaking you out means you're not gay. When I have an obsessive thought that bothers me, I say to myself: "This is just the OCD. I don't really think this."
I'm sorry I don't have better advice but I wanted to assure you that from what you've said here, I don't think you're gay.
Feel better.
Christian
Listen. I'm gay and when I talk to an attractive guy, feeling attracted to him feels good. It's an enjoyable feeling. The fact that your thoughts are freaking you out means you're not gay. When I have an obsessive thought that bothers me, I say to myself: "This is just the OCD. I don't really think this."
I'm sorry I don't have better advice but I wanted to assure you that from what you've said here, I don't think you're gay.
Feel better.
Christian