Hi everyone

I've been pretty stable for a while now, so mentally I'm doing O.K. Physically is another story. I've always been a slim person, that all changed when I was diagnosed and put on meds. I gained alot very quickly and because I was so ill, I didn't even realize how much I'd put on until I was well again. I've got high blood pressure now, due to my weight and have alot of problems with my feet. I am soooooooooooooooooo depressed about my weight and having alot of trouble taking it off. I can't look in the mirror anymore. I can't go clothes shopping. I absolutely hate having sex with my husband as I hate him having to see me naked and touching my fat. I get puffed out so easily and am struggling at work and I'm tired all the time. I was always fit and had energy. It is effecting my life every minute. I cry everyday and I just feel like getting a knife and cutting all this fat of me. I hardly go out anymore and am becoming a hermit. I hate myself and I hate my pdoc for giving me the meds that made me this way. I know I'm rambling, but I hate my body soooooooo much. If anyone has any advise for me I would so much appreciate it. I would love to know that I'm not alone in this, coz I just feel so alone and I hate this bipolar that made me so physically hideous...............

Munchiexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i'm scared of getting fat from meds because i am a slim person.

on the other hand i am scared of not taking meds and completely ruining my life like i seem to be doing right now. my husband will either hate me because i become fat or hate me because i'm a big b****.

munchie, what meds are you on>?

Hi jules

I was on zyprexa which piled on the weight, I went off it, I lost weight, then started Seroquel and piled it on again. I take Seroquel at night to help me sleep. I've gone off it and tried other things to help me sleep, but the only things that work for me are Zyprexa or Seroquel. If I don't sleep, I get ill, so I keep taking the Seroquel and keep putting on the weight. I feel as though I have to choose between mental health or physical health and I want to be both. Because my blood pressure is already high and I'll probably end up with diabetes as well. I'm 35 but I feel as though I'm much older health wise. I'm so desperate for help. Surely in this day and age I don't have to gain weight as well. But I've tried all the weight nuetrel drugs and I didn't agree with any of them. I really need help, but I feel it's hopeless.

Munchiexxxxxxxxxxx

munchie, it really is sad..serequol is a great drug and i wish my son could have stayed on it..but the both times he was put on it, he too piled on the pounds..so he wont take it anymore. Its a vicious cycle, it helps but than you get depressed because of the weight gain.I once read somewhere that some medication out there helps you not to gain the weight on serequol..im sorry i cant remember it.. but, why take another pill???:(

Hi jules

Thanks for your replies. Can you tell me, when your son went off the Seroquel did he lose the weight he put on. Also what does he take now in place of the Seroquel.

Munchiexxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Munchie, he now takes topamax and zoloft and trazadone to sleep. yes he did take off some weight, its slow but its happening. Topamax is an anti-seizure med but they are using it as a mood stabilizer too. it definitly does help with the mood swings and anger and rages..so its ok for him. i hope its not a forever kind of drug.i would hate to see him on any medications his whole life...He is only 21.:(