charliegirl28
09-10-2007, 07:43 PM
hi, newbie here, im looking for general advice really, been having issues with disturbing thoughts now for a while, i cant even remember when they started, i just know they've always been there,
these thoughts just pop into my head, and they are really terrible, things like violence towards people, harming animals, and dare i say inappropriate behaviour towards kids, now, i know i would NEVER EVER act on these thoughts, but they really bother me, it makes me feel like im a terrrible sick individual,
i dont think i have a mental health problem, i seem a pretty well rounded together person most of the time, just every now and again, i get the thoughts, you know how if you had a hot drink, you move it away from children, careful not to scold them, i do that too, but in my head, im thinking "what would happen if i poured boiling hot water on that child" i would never do that, but its the thoughts,i could list them all, but im worried you would think im some kind of *****......
any advice please?
p.s i havent been to a doctor about this, im not on meds or anything like that, no diagnosis or anything
these thoughts just pop into my head, and they are really terrible, things like violence towards people, harming animals, and dare i say inappropriate behaviour towards kids, now, i know i would NEVER EVER act on these thoughts, but they really bother me, it makes me feel like im a terrrible sick individual,
i dont think i have a mental health problem, i seem a pretty well rounded together person most of the time, just every now and again, i get the thoughts, you know how if you had a hot drink, you move it away from children, careful not to scold them, i do that too, but in my head, im thinking "what would happen if i poured boiling hot water on that child" i would never do that, but its the thoughts,i could list them all, but im worried you would think im some kind of *****......
any advice please?
p.s i havent been to a doctor about this, im not on meds or anything like that, no diagnosis or anything
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MuchLikeFalling
09-11-2007, 12:23 AM
Omg I've had the same thing as u describe my whole life long. I'm a teenager and it sometimes really bother me and scares me. Mine started when I was really small, from what I remember 3 or 4. :confused: So you're not alone, I've always thought I was the only one with it and never asked anyone what it was. I hope someone can clear this up.
Bordism
09-11-2007, 01:54 PM
Your not alone, I get them all the time. Sometimes i can brush them off, other times they really hit me and scare me, make me feel sick and nervous. I made a post a week or so ago, have a look for it! You sound pretty much like me and everyone else who gets them!
teacher2be
09-24-2007, 08:40 PM
oh my gosh the hot water thing i do. i think because i fear "what if something happened to my kids bad" so much and things like this go in my head. i believe becasue my fear is so high that provokes the thoughts. i could never do anything like that either so why is it in my head like that? it is frustrating.
charliegirl28
09-25-2007, 04:15 PM
thanks for the responses so far, its good to know im not alone
trouble is, i dont know why i have them, some of them are really bad, and make me feel sick to my stomach, its like, because i think these thoughts, that must be who i am, i hate it, does anyone know what causes these thoughts? or how to deal with them?? they really disturb me, and im too afraid to go to a doctor about it, incase they think im a sick weirdo......
i dont know what else to do
trouble is, i dont know why i have them, some of them are really bad, and make me feel sick to my stomach, its like, because i think these thoughts, that must be who i am, i hate it, does anyone know what causes these thoughts? or how to deal with them?? they really disturb me, and im too afraid to go to a doctor about it, incase they think im a sick weirdo......
i dont know what else to do
SueG59
09-25-2007, 04:37 PM
I think sometimes when you entertain things like that in your head the more you would want to do them. You know it is not right so why don't you try and think of something else or occupy your mind with something different so it will disappear in your thoughts? Take care
charliegirl28
09-25-2007, 05:00 PM
I think sometimes when you entertain things like that in your head the more you would want to do them. You know it is not right so why don't you try and think of something else or occupy your mind with something different so it will disappear in your thoughts? Take care
thanks sue, i do try, when i get a thought like that, i find myself arguing with myself, if im alone, i will actually say out loud "stop it, you dont want to do that" or "stop thinking like that" and i will actually shake my head! hahaha, i have been worried that i was becoming mentally unwell or something, but its not that, 95% of the time, im fine, just that little 5% where i get a nasty thought, sometimes i can go for weeks without one, and then there are times when i get several in one day,
i never thought i would ever admit to thoughts like this, well, i havent, no-one knows about it, just this message board......
i thought about telling my mom once, but i got scared, she would think i was sick
thanks sue, i do try, when i get a thought like that, i find myself arguing with myself, if im alone, i will actually say out loud "stop it, you dont want to do that" or "stop thinking like that" and i will actually shake my head! hahaha, i have been worried that i was becoming mentally unwell or something, but its not that, 95% of the time, im fine, just that little 5% where i get a nasty thought, sometimes i can go for weeks without one, and then there are times when i get several in one day,
i never thought i would ever admit to thoughts like this, well, i havent, no-one knows about it, just this message board......
i thought about telling my mom once, but i got scared, she would think i was sick
Kathrin74
09-25-2007, 05:24 PM
Hey all of you newbies :)
I really recommend scrolling down on this board a bit, you will find a LOT of posts about intrusive thoughts.
be assured that they do not mean that you are bad people, or would want to do anything to hurt somebody. Intrusive thoughts are thoughts that pop into our brains just BECAUSE we would never want to even THINK them.
Kathrin
I really recommend scrolling down on this board a bit, you will find a LOT of posts about intrusive thoughts.
be assured that they do not mean that you are bad people, or would want to do anything to hurt somebody. Intrusive thoughts are thoughts that pop into our brains just BECAUSE we would never want to even THINK them.
Kathrin
charliegirl28
10-01-2007, 04:06 PM
thought i'd post in here rather than start a new thread, i have posted some of my thoughts here, and ive since recognised another one...... i have an intense fear of being sick, (vomiting) and every so often, i suddenly come over all nausious, (spelling?) someone only has to say they feel sick, or was sick, and bam, i feel like im gonna vomit, i have lost sleep over this, as i found that sitting and watching TV distracts me from feeling ill, it happened yesterday cause i got a text from a friend saying she felt sick, and as i was out with her the night before, i immediately thought that cause we were together that evening, then i must be ill too, i feel ill today, i know it is just the thoughts, but i hate it, i always stock medicine for nausea and vomitting in the house, and usually take it if i particularly feel icky
it really does my head in, and have often not eaten for a couple of days, to prevent me from "vomitting" i also check use by dates on food, and if there isnt more than at least two days on whatever it is, i wont eat it, i hate this,
does anyone have any advice?
it really does my head in, and have often not eaten for a couple of days, to prevent me from "vomitting" i also check use by dates on food, and if there isnt more than at least two days on whatever it is, i wont eat it, i hate this,
does anyone have any advice?
Birdbreath
10-02-2007, 05:56 AM
I have a fear of vomiting too,
And I get those feelings of being sick when I'm not.
I actually lost about 17 lbs over some months because of this, this year.
I started with panic attacks where I thought I was having a heart attack, then it turned into panic attacks where I thought I was going to throw up.
Well, the funny thing is that as afraid of throwing up as I was, I actually tried to force myself to do it so it wouldn't come out on its own. That was scarier than me doing it to myself.
I threw up last November and it started with a pain in my back. So anytime I got a pain in my back, got a headache, a pain in my stomach, felt nauseated, etc., I thought I was eventually going to throw up. So then I'd always go try to make myself throw up, with no success.
I eventually stopped eating a lot, I ate much less than I used to. I went from eating a meal plus snacks and then ice cream at night (very bad habits), to just some snacks and that's all the entire day. I still haven't gained the weight back although I eat normally now again (which I'm happy because I'm a little bit overweight).
It would get so bad that when I did end up eating a full meal, I'd feel like I was going to vomit, my throat would tighten up, I'd get really nervous, and I think I just developed this gag reflex that came after eating. I'd have this feeling for like 2 hours after I'd eat and the worst part was that I could not do anything about it to make it go away - not even throw up, I just had to accept this feeling and wait for it to go away on its own.
Also, I'd get diarrhea after eating normal meals, because my body wasn't used to it. The diarrhea made me think I was sick and going to throw up, then I'd go into more panic.
Very bad stuff, I know. Take care of yourself, this is a horrible fear to have. Even worse than the fear of having a heart attack, to me anyway.
Sadly the only thing that made that lessen was having other fears LOL. So that isn't really a good answer. And when I get nervous, I still have it. I still find myself in the bathroom gagging myself, it's pretty much become a daily ritual for the past like 6 months or so.
And I get those feelings of being sick when I'm not.
I actually lost about 17 lbs over some months because of this, this year.
I started with panic attacks where I thought I was having a heart attack, then it turned into panic attacks where I thought I was going to throw up.
Well, the funny thing is that as afraid of throwing up as I was, I actually tried to force myself to do it so it wouldn't come out on its own. That was scarier than me doing it to myself.
I threw up last November and it started with a pain in my back. So anytime I got a pain in my back, got a headache, a pain in my stomach, felt nauseated, etc., I thought I was eventually going to throw up. So then I'd always go try to make myself throw up, with no success.
I eventually stopped eating a lot, I ate much less than I used to. I went from eating a meal plus snacks and then ice cream at night (very bad habits), to just some snacks and that's all the entire day. I still haven't gained the weight back although I eat normally now again (which I'm happy because I'm a little bit overweight).
It would get so bad that when I did end up eating a full meal, I'd feel like I was going to vomit, my throat would tighten up, I'd get really nervous, and I think I just developed this gag reflex that came after eating. I'd have this feeling for like 2 hours after I'd eat and the worst part was that I could not do anything about it to make it go away - not even throw up, I just had to accept this feeling and wait for it to go away on its own.
Also, I'd get diarrhea after eating normal meals, because my body wasn't used to it. The diarrhea made me think I was sick and going to throw up, then I'd go into more panic.
Very bad stuff, I know. Take care of yourself, this is a horrible fear to have. Even worse than the fear of having a heart attack, to me anyway.
Sadly the only thing that made that lessen was having other fears LOL. So that isn't really a good answer. And when I get nervous, I still have it. I still find myself in the bathroom gagging myself, it's pretty much become a daily ritual for the past like 6 months or so.
charliegirl28
10-02-2007, 06:08 AM
I have a fear of vomiting too,
And I get those feelings of being sick when I'm not.
I actually lost about 17 lbs over some months because of this, this year.
I started with panic attacks where I thought I was having a heart attack, then it turned into panic attacks where I thought I was going to throw up.
Well, the funny thing is that as afraid of throwing up as I was, I actually tried to force myself to do it so it wouldn't come out on its own. That was scarier than me doing it to myself.
I threw up last November and it started with a pain in my back. So anytime I got a pain in my back, got a headache, a pain in my stomach, felt nauseated, etc., I thought I was eventually going to throw up. So then I'd always go try to make myself throw up, with no success.
I eventually stopped eating a lot, I ate much less than I used to. I went from eating a meal plus snacks and then ice cream at night (very bad habits), to just some snacks and that's all the entire day. I still haven't gained the weight back although I eat normally now again (which I'm happy because I'm a little bit overweight).
It would get so bad that when I did end up eating a full meal, I'd feel like I was going to vomit, my throat would tighten up, I'd get really nervous, and I think I just developed this gag reflex that came after eating. I'd have this feeling for like 2 hours after I'd eat and the worst part was that I could not do anything about it to make it go away - not even throw up, I just had to accept this feeling and wait for it to go away on its own.
Also, I'd get diarrhea after eating normal meals, because my body wasn't used to it. The diarrhea made me think I was sick and going to throw up, then I'd go into more panic.
Very bad stuff, I know. Take care of yourself, this is a horrible fear to have. Even worse than the fear of having a heart attack, to me anyway.
Sadly the only thing that made that lessen was having other fears LOL. So that isn't really a good answer. And when I get nervous, I still have it. I still find myself in the bathroom gagging myself, it's pretty much become a daily ritual for the past like 6 months or so.
omg, you sound just like me!! thou i have never tried to force myself to throw up, my fear is that bad!!! i have noticed that lately im not eating as much as usual, i would have two meals a day, and then snacks inbetween,
as for the pain thing, about 10yrs ago, i had a pain in my back, and a bad stomach too, so i knew it was coming, what i didnt know was how bad, i threw up for 7 hours, even when there was nothing left, i was gagging, the next day i was supposed to go to placement, and i took some medicine that my mom left for me, as soon as i swallowed it, i threw up, i was really bad that day, thing is, after i throw up, i feel so much better for a few mins, until fear sets in that its about to happen again....
now, every time i get a pain in my back, or my stomach, i think about that day 10yrs ago, it still puts the fear in me, and i immediately think im going to throw up, like i did that day....... 7 hours!!!! not fun!
i have also noticed, that if i eat chicken, and it doesnt "feel cooked" to me (it probably is, but, its just the way i think) then, bam, i think im gonna be sick..... so now im very picky when it comes to eating chicken, and i think im like this with chicken coz i know its one of the worst causes of food poisoning,
i wish it would stop, sometimes its like a vicious circle, if i havent eaten that much during the day, i start to feel ill, its obviously coz im hungry, but i feel a bit queasy when im hungry, so, i think im gonna throw up, and dont eat
a colleague at work got food poisoning after going out for a meal with residents, (i work with mental health ) and i ate the same thing, so, i didnt eat for almost 3 days, trying to "starve the bug" if you like, its mad, i wish i didnt think like this, sometimes, i can be starving, (like lastnight) but refuse to eat, just incase i throw up...... meh
thanks for the reply thou, great to know im not the only one
And I get those feelings of being sick when I'm not.
I actually lost about 17 lbs over some months because of this, this year.
I started with panic attacks where I thought I was having a heart attack, then it turned into panic attacks where I thought I was going to throw up.
Well, the funny thing is that as afraid of throwing up as I was, I actually tried to force myself to do it so it wouldn't come out on its own. That was scarier than me doing it to myself.
I threw up last November and it started with a pain in my back. So anytime I got a pain in my back, got a headache, a pain in my stomach, felt nauseated, etc., I thought I was eventually going to throw up. So then I'd always go try to make myself throw up, with no success.
I eventually stopped eating a lot, I ate much less than I used to. I went from eating a meal plus snacks and then ice cream at night (very bad habits), to just some snacks and that's all the entire day. I still haven't gained the weight back although I eat normally now again (which I'm happy because I'm a little bit overweight).
It would get so bad that when I did end up eating a full meal, I'd feel like I was going to vomit, my throat would tighten up, I'd get really nervous, and I think I just developed this gag reflex that came after eating. I'd have this feeling for like 2 hours after I'd eat and the worst part was that I could not do anything about it to make it go away - not even throw up, I just had to accept this feeling and wait for it to go away on its own.
Also, I'd get diarrhea after eating normal meals, because my body wasn't used to it. The diarrhea made me think I was sick and going to throw up, then I'd go into more panic.
Very bad stuff, I know. Take care of yourself, this is a horrible fear to have. Even worse than the fear of having a heart attack, to me anyway.
Sadly the only thing that made that lessen was having other fears LOL. So that isn't really a good answer. And when I get nervous, I still have it. I still find myself in the bathroom gagging myself, it's pretty much become a daily ritual for the past like 6 months or so.
omg, you sound just like me!! thou i have never tried to force myself to throw up, my fear is that bad!!! i have noticed that lately im not eating as much as usual, i would have two meals a day, and then snacks inbetween,
as for the pain thing, about 10yrs ago, i had a pain in my back, and a bad stomach too, so i knew it was coming, what i didnt know was how bad, i threw up for 7 hours, even when there was nothing left, i was gagging, the next day i was supposed to go to placement, and i took some medicine that my mom left for me, as soon as i swallowed it, i threw up, i was really bad that day, thing is, after i throw up, i feel so much better for a few mins, until fear sets in that its about to happen again....
now, every time i get a pain in my back, or my stomach, i think about that day 10yrs ago, it still puts the fear in me, and i immediately think im going to throw up, like i did that day....... 7 hours!!!! not fun!
i have also noticed, that if i eat chicken, and it doesnt "feel cooked" to me (it probably is, but, its just the way i think) then, bam, i think im gonna be sick..... so now im very picky when it comes to eating chicken, and i think im like this with chicken coz i know its one of the worst causes of food poisoning,
i wish it would stop, sometimes its like a vicious circle, if i havent eaten that much during the day, i start to feel ill, its obviously coz im hungry, but i feel a bit queasy when im hungry, so, i think im gonna throw up, and dont eat
a colleague at work got food poisoning after going out for a meal with residents, (i work with mental health ) and i ate the same thing, so, i didnt eat for almost 3 days, trying to "starve the bug" if you like, its mad, i wish i didnt think like this, sometimes, i can be starving, (like lastnight) but refuse to eat, just incase i throw up...... meh
thanks for the reply thou, great to know im not the only one
dksea
10-18-2007, 08:52 PM
I'm relatively new and just reading through some old posts and I wanted to comment on this oen since it hit close to home for me. When i was first diagnosed with OCD when i was about 13 it was because of my fear of throwing up and how intrusive in my life it had become. I would literally spend time in the nurses office at school every day just lying there because i was so afraid. I started taking tums with me to school to have just before lunch because i thought it would help. Eventually my parents were able to get me the help i needed and get me on medication for my OCD and lordy lordy did it HELP. The fear of throwing up is barely a part of my life anymore (i still struggle with OCD, but most of the tiem its not a problem). One thing i found that helped me was mints. Turns out peppermint helps relieave nausea, so whenever i was feeling rather than take even more drugs like pepto (which i did from time to time) i could just pop in a mint and that would help ease my fears. I didn't have to do it every time fortunately but it was an easy fix for me. I did find that with the medication over time the fear became less and less for me. It wasn't 100% gone right away, but even after a short time on the meds I was dramatically better and able to live my everyday life again!
gubinski1
10-18-2007, 10:36 PM
hi, newbie here, im looking for general advice really, been having issues with disturbing thoughts now for a while, i cant even remember when they started, i just know they've always been there,
these thoughts just pop into my head, and they are really terrible, things like violence towards people, harming animals, and dare i say inappropriate behaviour towards kids, now, i know i would NEVER EVER act on these thoughts, but they really bother me, it makes me feel like im a terrrible sick individual,
i dont think i have a mental health problem, i seem a pretty well rounded together person most of the time, just every now and again, i get the thoughts, you know how if you had a hot drink, you move it away from children, careful not to scold them, i do that too, but in my head, im thinking "what would happen if i poured boiling hot water on that child" i would never do that, but its the thoughts,i could list them all, but im worried you would think im some kind of *****......
any advice please?
p.s i havent been to a doctor about this, im not on meds or anything like that, no diagnosis or anything
these thoughts just pop into my head, and they are really terrible, things like violence towards people, harming animals, and dare i say inappropriate behaviour towards kids, now, i know i would NEVER EVER act on these thoughts, but they really bother me, it makes me feel like im a terrrible sick individual,
i dont think i have a mental health problem, i seem a pretty well rounded together person most of the time, just every now and again, i get the thoughts, you know how if you had a hot drink, you move it away from children, careful not to scold them, i do that too, but in my head, im thinking "what would happen if i poured boiling hot water on that child" i would never do that, but its the thoughts,i could list them all, but im worried you would think im some kind of *****......
any advice please?
p.s i havent been to a doctor about this, im not on meds or anything like that, no diagnosis or anything
gubinski1
10-18-2007, 10:41 PM
I have suffered with disturbing thoughts for years. They usually will consist of fears concerning other women. I get caught up in the thought and it becomes reality. Such thoughts such as, seeing an attractive woman and imagining my husband wanting to be with her or him having a converstion with someone, or maybe someone coming on to him. The thoughts sometimes drove me crazy. Recently my Doctor suggested me takng Abilify starting with 5mg. It is a form of Sycotic and Scizoprenia.