Llama
09-13-2007, 03:47 AM
Hi everyone. I am sorry I am so horrible at posting. I am so busy all the time! But I do keep up and read the posts often and please know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers!
Anyway, I need some advice.
I have been moderately hypo the last few weeks. I'm really enjoying it! I just hope it doesn't go too far. I'm on 300mg lamictal, 300mg wellbutrin xl, and 150mg trazodone (for sleep). If I didn't have that trazodone I know I'd go manic...I don't sleep unless I take it!
I am going to school full-time again and doing ok so far. I have been struggling a lot with ADD symptoms though! I can't read more than 2 pages w/o getting distracted! Today I was eating dinner and had an idea and walked away to start something. Then I did something else and walked by the table and forgot that I was eating dinner and sat down to eat again. Huh?! I'm always late for everything, forget things, and lose everything! I start things and don't finish them at work ALL THE TIME. Even now. I was studying and read a few pages. Then I got distracted by thoughts and remembered that I wanted to post about this. So I am doing that now and will try to read afterwards.
My pdoc has said that I prob have ADD. She mentioned something about a screening and I said I would like to try to work on these things my own first and see if I could improve things. OK, so that was 2 weeks ago and things haven't changed. Should I try an ADD med (like my pdoc has offered)? Or will it cause me to become more unstable? If I'm already pretty hypo, what will another "upper" med do to me?
Thanks in advance guys! ARRRGGGGHH I'm going to try reading again!!!!!
Anyway, I need some advice.
I have been moderately hypo the last few weeks. I'm really enjoying it! I just hope it doesn't go too far. I'm on 300mg lamictal, 300mg wellbutrin xl, and 150mg trazodone (for sleep). If I didn't have that trazodone I know I'd go manic...I don't sleep unless I take it!
I am going to school full-time again and doing ok so far. I have been struggling a lot with ADD symptoms though! I can't read more than 2 pages w/o getting distracted! Today I was eating dinner and had an idea and walked away to start something. Then I did something else and walked by the table and forgot that I was eating dinner and sat down to eat again. Huh?! I'm always late for everything, forget things, and lose everything! I start things and don't finish them at work ALL THE TIME. Even now. I was studying and read a few pages. Then I got distracted by thoughts and remembered that I wanted to post about this. So I am doing that now and will try to read afterwards.
My pdoc has said that I prob have ADD. She mentioned something about a screening and I said I would like to try to work on these things my own first and see if I could improve things. OK, so that was 2 weeks ago and things haven't changed. Should I try an ADD med (like my pdoc has offered)? Or will it cause me to become more unstable? If I'm already pretty hypo, what will another "upper" med do to me?
Thanks in advance guys! ARRRGGGGHH I'm going to try reading again!!!!!
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goody2shuz
09-14-2007, 01:29 AM
Hi, Llama ~ I am sorry that you are having such difficulties. I have two daughters with BP/ADD and it is my concern of what would happen if the ADD were treated particularly since we just seemed to get my younger daughter stabilized. Her pdoc recommends not treating the ADD because if doesn't seem to be causing her any problems in terms of grades. But she does complain about the same things as you. My older daughter just recently was diagnosed. She started on Lamictal and still has a ways to go but the pdoc thinks that her ADD is quite significant as compared to my other daughter and is going to see how she does once she is on a therapeutic dose of the Lamictal and them perhaps start her on the Daytrana patch which slowly releases.
How are your grades otherwise??? If this is all interfering with your overall confidence it might be worth it to try an ADD med with your doctor's close supervision.
With your problems with hypomania I would definitely worry about induced mania with a stimulant. An extended release med would probably work out best so that you aren't just loaded up with a rush of the med which would probably be more apt to trigger a mania. The patch might be a good choice but either way I would recommend that you start slowly and have a close monitoring of your response to the addition of an ADD med.
Keep us posted with how things go.
((((HUGS)))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
How are your grades otherwise??? If this is all interfering with your overall confidence it might be worth it to try an ADD med with your doctor's close supervision.
With your problems with hypomania I would definitely worry about induced mania with a stimulant. An extended release med would probably work out best so that you aren't just loaded up with a rush of the med which would probably be more apt to trigger a mania. The patch might be a good choice but either way I would recommend that you start slowly and have a close monitoring of your response to the addition of an ADD med.
Keep us posted with how things go.
((((HUGS)))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
Llama
09-14-2007, 04:52 PM
Thanks goody! I appreciate your advice. Some very good points.
I think my grades are decent so far...but I really haven't seen any of them yet! That's a thing that my pdoc said. See, I have enough prescriptions to last about 3 months now; but, she said to make an appt before I start to do poorly in school and not after! She def. doesn't want it to get that far.
eek...maybe I'll just make another appt with the pdoc and see what she says. But I really don't want her to see that I'm hypomanic and then have to be drugged down. I like being on this level. I have so many thoughts/ideas and feel so sharp, fun, humorous, and don't need much sleep at all. I've been a little reckless with money and men...but oh well. Things are so great and I don't want this to end. OMG I am so confused!
I think my grades are decent so far...but I really haven't seen any of them yet! That's a thing that my pdoc said. See, I have enough prescriptions to last about 3 months now; but, she said to make an appt before I start to do poorly in school and not after! She def. doesn't want it to get that far.
eek...maybe I'll just make another appt with the pdoc and see what she says. But I really don't want her to see that I'm hypomanic and then have to be drugged down. I like being on this level. I have so many thoughts/ideas and feel so sharp, fun, humorous, and don't need much sleep at all. I've been a little reckless with money and men...but oh well. Things are so great and I don't want this to end. OMG I am so confused!
goody2shuz
09-14-2007, 05:47 PM
Llama ~ There is a price to pay if you let this go on....you KNOW that after the good feeling you will crash and that isn't going to be good. PLEASE get yourself into seeing the pdoc ASAP.....you aren't going to do well with so little sleep and spending money and being promiscuous with guys. As we all know there will be consequences that you will have to face if you don't get the hypomania under control. You will be in debt, you could fail your courses when you all of a sudde plummet and can't keep up with the work AND there will be guilt, shame and remorse when you finally realize that you should have done something about it before it got too out of hand.
YOu don't want that for yourself...call your pdoc before it gets worse. I know that you will be happy that you did.
Keep on posting and let us know how you are doing.
Love ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
YOu don't want that for yourself...call your pdoc before it gets worse. I know that you will be happy that you did.
Keep on posting and let us know how you are doing.
Love ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
Llama
09-17-2007, 06:17 PM
Goody you are right. It is time that I be more honest with my pdoc. I need to let her know what is going on. You know when she first wanted to try wellbutrin I was confused...I wasn't depressed. !??! Then she said it may help me concentrate...so I tried it. It has maybe helped a tiny bit, but mostly it has just brought me up up up. I now need a sleep med to get any rest at night. In fact, after a month of being on wellbutrin I had another appt with her and she wanted to take me off it or reduce the dosage (I know she saw that I was hypomanic...or beginning to be anyway). I BEGGED her not to. I finally felt good; really good! I said I just needed some sleep...I had only had about 2-3 hours a night for a week. She said alright finally, but to call if my thoughts start going to fast and I still can't sleep, etc. I have not called!
I really think I need to get off wellbutrin and on something else. I am so so so so so scared though now! I am freaking out. What if I never get this under control? I thought I was doing well these last two months! Now looking back I realize a lot of it was hypomania! My pdoc even saw it...and I started thinking about it and now I see it too. I felt really good...but what if I'm not really hypomanic and this is just how I am supposed to be naturally?! I want to believe this is the real me!? I don't want to lose this! I don't want to become what I was before! I am so upset!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!
What do I do?!
I really think I need to get off wellbutrin and on something else. I am so so so so so scared though now! I am freaking out. What if I never get this under control? I thought I was doing well these last two months! Now looking back I realize a lot of it was hypomania! My pdoc even saw it...and I started thinking about it and now I see it too. I felt really good...but what if I'm not really hypomanic and this is just how I am supposed to be naturally?! I want to believe this is the real me!? I don't want to lose this! I don't want to become what I was before! I am so upset!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!
What do I do?!
goody2shuz
09-17-2007, 06:47 PM
Llama ~ You are going to be okay....the good thing is that you are aware of your impending mania and you are not there yet. You KNOW that you weren't being honest with your pdoc in regard to the wellbutrin and you now see things are worsening.
You must get a hold of your pdoc...she told you to call and you need to do that. SHe won't yell at you....she is there to help you. Tell her what you just told us here....that you are not sleeping and that you knew that the wellbutrin was making you feel good with the mania but that you are afraid. She will instruct you how to go about decreasing it without having any problems. You cannot just take yourself off the Wellbutrin cold turkey or you risk having a seizure....it is one of those meds that you must come off of slowly just as you went up with it. I believe that you come down off of it by taking it down to 150 mgs for 10 days and then every other day for one week and then off altogether but you should check this out with your pdoc.
Make that call, Llama....you need to before this gets too out of hand and you are unable to know the difference.
Love & (((((HUGS))))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
You must get a hold of your pdoc...she told you to call and you need to do that. SHe won't yell at you....she is there to help you. Tell her what you just told us here....that you are not sleeping and that you knew that the wellbutrin was making you feel good with the mania but that you are afraid. She will instruct you how to go about decreasing it without having any problems. You cannot just take yourself off the Wellbutrin cold turkey or you risk having a seizure....it is one of those meds that you must come off of slowly just as you went up with it. I believe that you come down off of it by taking it down to 150 mgs for 10 days and then every other day for one week and then off altogether but you should check this out with your pdoc.
Make that call, Llama....you need to before this gets too out of hand and you are unable to know the difference.
Love & (((((HUGS))))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:
Llama
09-19-2007, 06:01 AM
Ok goody! I am ready to bite the bullet on this one. I haven't taken trazodone in two days...and guess what? I also haven't slept AT ALL for 2 days. I'm calling tomorrow to schedule an appt with the pdoc. This is kinda getting out of control and I don't want it to go any further. I also want to ask her again about this whole ADD thing. Maybe the mania is making me unable to concentrate? I have so many ideas and am walking off and starting a million things.
Goody, you must be such an excellent mother. I can tell from your posts. Your girls are very lucky. I really appreciate you posting to me because I cannot talk with my own mother about these things. So I really appreciate your posts and advice. (((HUGS)))
Goody, you must be such an excellent mother. I can tell from your posts. Your girls are very lucky. I really appreciate you posting to me because I cannot talk with my own mother about these things. So I really appreciate your posts and advice. (((HUGS)))