Thanks to everyone who has replied to me in the past. I am freaking out because I just got back from a vacation where I gained a lot of weight. Now I am home and things are back to normal--as much as can be--and I feel like I am HUGE. Spent a week in Florida and when I got home I had an unwelcome present: GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT. I have this stupid voice in my head that constantly tells me how fat I am, and I can't make it shut up. I can't stop obsessing about what I should or shouldn't eat. My thoughts every day all day revolve around food and eating. If I eat how am I going to get rid of it. I have found that if I don't eat I don't have to worry about how to get rid of it later. I know that I have gained weight and I feel horrible about it--even thought my husband, Dr., and my family tell me that I look much better and I look healthier. I do not believe them at all. I think they are lying to me. I do not feel like I am in control of anything. I don't want to look like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!! It makes me sad and frustrated. How do you all make that voice in ya'lls head shut up??????? :confused: It's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :dizzy:

hi!!!i'm [a teenager] and am new to this!!!i dnt really no what to say that will help as am the same myself!! i want to stop but my head tells me not to be fat! i feel lik i've put on weight since i've started. i used to be so happy and bubbly and i don't want to loose that!! i'm sorry that i haven't been any help!!! just wanted to let you know your not alone and will get through this:):)
lots of love
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