Home-alone
09-14-2007, 07:47 PM
I am new here and seeking advice for obtaining counseling for PTSD r/t the topic of childhood sexual molestation.
I am a middle age male who was assaulted as a young child by my mother.
I was later molested by a 'new age therapist' when I was 17 back in the early 70's.
There are numerous counselors in the yellow pages, and even sites on-line, but they are predominantly female run and unwilling to allow my participation. I have been exposed to some who are even assaultive, and caused far more damage than the original abuse and molestation. The last one held my insurance card, refusing to let me leave until she had called me dangerous and a dangerous person. I can not describe the violent language used toward me on a supposedly 'Safe Place' on-line because the moderator would ban me. And when I disclosed this to the minister at my church, they notified every leader to not allow me to participate in church activities, and even put spy-ware on my computer to see if I viewed porn.
It has taken me all my life to gain simple knowledge of issues relating to my family life and expectations I should have toward a wife, and I have only a few simple questions I would really like to answer, but have absolutely no where to safely turn.
The chance to meet other people with a similar history of PTSD would be nice, but counseling from an educated provider would be a definite help.
I do not know where to begin to turn.
Thanks; (afraid to leave my name)
I am a middle age male who was assaulted as a young child by my mother.
I was later molested by a 'new age therapist' when I was 17 back in the early 70's.
There are numerous counselors in the yellow pages, and even sites on-line, but they are predominantly female run and unwilling to allow my participation. I have been exposed to some who are even assaultive, and caused far more damage than the original abuse and molestation. The last one held my insurance card, refusing to let me leave until she had called me dangerous and a dangerous person. I can not describe the violent language used toward me on a supposedly 'Safe Place' on-line because the moderator would ban me. And when I disclosed this to the minister at my church, they notified every leader to not allow me to participate in church activities, and even put spy-ware on my computer to see if I viewed porn.
It has taken me all my life to gain simple knowledge of issues relating to my family life and expectations I should have toward a wife, and I have only a few simple questions I would really like to answer, but have absolutely no where to safely turn.
The chance to meet other people with a similar history of PTSD would be nice, but counseling from an educated provider would be a definite help.
I do not know where to begin to turn.
Thanks; (afraid to leave my name)
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Sannah
09-17-2007, 12:14 PM
Hi Home alone, there is a PTSD board here which might be helpful to you.
Home-alone
09-17-2007, 01:18 PM
Thank you Sannah. I found it after I looked. I did not see it earlier.
Thanks again; you are the only person to reply to any message I posted anywhere on the internet since I started searching last Wednesday.
Home-alone
Thanks again; you are the only person to reply to any message I posted anywhere on the internet since I started searching last Wednesday.
Home-alone
zencat
09-17-2007, 06:36 PM
Hello Home-alone
:( Sorry to hear of your bad experiences when you were looking for understanding from others.
I too suffered PTSD from what I would describe as sexual trama relating from abusive enema giving by my mother. Although I believe in my heart she did not understand, at the time, that I would have so many problems in life from the constant enemas. I too looked for answers to my abuse online and not finding much on the topic that was helpful.
:( Sorry to hear of your bad experiences when you were looking for understanding from others.
I too suffered PTSD from what I would describe as sexual trama relating from abusive enema giving by my mother. Although I believe in my heart she did not understand, at the time, that I would have so many problems in life from the constant enemas. I too looked for answers to my abuse online and not finding much on the topic that was helpful.
Home-alone
09-17-2007, 09:32 PM
Thanx Zencat but it's been worse. I've lived to the age of 51 despite the 'Greatest Generation' and all their wisdom, and the only problem I'm suffering is an inability to have short term memory. Continually blocking you know.
I've been seeking other people to interract with. How long have you been on-line seeking advice or answers?
The overt anger and aggression out of some of these victim type people is what I can't cope with, in person or on-line.
I've been seeking other people to interract with. How long have you been on-line seeking advice or answers?
The overt anger and aggression out of some of these victim type people is what I can't cope with, in person or on-line.
zencat
09-17-2007, 11:03 PM
How long have you been on-line seeking advice or answers?
I have been in treatment at the county mental health department PTSD group for about a year. I also used to post in the PTSD group here(a very good group of understanding people) at Health Boards.
I also have an addiction disorder and use a message board group for that as well and they have a sexual maladjustment type forum, also a issue of mine.
I think you are in a good place here for support at Health Boards, at least that has been my experience. I have used the internet for over a year for support and info at four different message board groups ( two for addiction, one for cross-dressing and here) and my experiences have been positive so far.
Like Sannah (hi Sannah) suggested, give the PTSD group here a try. I do more silent reading there now for I feel like I have so much going on at mental health and elsewhere online that I don’t have the time to participate like I did before. But your post caught my eye and I wanted to and will continue to respond to you Home-alone.
Oh, by the way I will be turning fifty one soon. :cool:
I have been in treatment at the county mental health department PTSD group for about a year. I also used to post in the PTSD group here(a very good group of understanding people) at Health Boards.
I also have an addiction disorder and use a message board group for that as well and they have a sexual maladjustment type forum, also a issue of mine.
I think you are in a good place here for support at Health Boards, at least that has been my experience. I have used the internet for over a year for support and info at four different message board groups ( two for addiction, one for cross-dressing and here) and my experiences have been positive so far.
Like Sannah (hi Sannah) suggested, give the PTSD group here a try. I do more silent reading there now for I feel like I have so much going on at mental health and elsewhere online that I don’t have the time to participate like I did before. But your post caught my eye and I wanted to and will continue to respond to you Home-alone.
Oh, by the way I will be turning fifty one soon. :cool:
Sannah
09-18-2007, 03:38 PM
Hi Homealone, now I see, the anger of the other survivors is what is getting to you....
Hi Zeni! Nice to see you popping in and glad to hear that you are still doing well!
Hi Zeni! Nice to see you popping in and glad to hear that you are still doing well!