Ugh. I can't believe i did it again. It started when i had wisdom tooth pain and had minor surgery and started taking the percs again. Within a few days I was eating them like candy. Then last night i decided i wanted a beer. It just about made me throw up. Then i had a bloody mary. Then i had to quit. I was so nauseated. I am also a food addict and ate 6 donuts yesterday. I felt awful and i feel awful today. blah. I don't know why i am posting. I guess just to vent and i need to get honest.

Well I didn't drink or overeat or smoke yesterday and I am tapering off the percs. I walked 3 miles this morning and had a healthy breakfast and lunch. I was feeling really great and happy that "Each day is a new beginning"

I am having problems with my son, but I am not going to give in to negative thinking and get all upset. It doesn't do any good. I am let down by his behavior though, kind of like the air is being let out of my balloon.

I choose recovery. Sh-- happens everyday, I don't have to use over it. And i can't control other people or the situations they get themselves into. He is 23 years old, he's not a child anymore.

I choose recovery. My mantra for the day.

please keep that mantra every day. you did great !!! one day down, girl !!!
i am proud of you. i also have an ed and understand how people like us use not only drugs and alcohol as emotional crutches, but food as well. and its rough. we dont need to the drugs in our lives every day, but we do need to food to live.
just remember to just pitch all the junk in your house (even anyone else's snacks that shouldnt be there) too bad, be selfish. they need to keep their bad stuff in there own space, and out of yours. get me?
thats what i do and it helps...
anyhow, one day at a time girl, one day at a time. and you are doing great !! post again tomorrow and let me know how you're doing, ok?

m

I drank. I know it is the percs that keep leading me to relapse. Before i started taking them, i had 10 years of sobriety.Today i haven't drank. I am calling my sponsor as soon as i finish this. I have written out a 5 day taper, and am flushing the rest. I am going to a meeting tonight. I have to get honest with my husband (again) and flush the alcohol.

Thanks for the encouragement. it helped a lot.

Its ok. Today is another day. And you are choosing the right things today. Im glad to hear you have a sponsor and that you talk to her. Thats going to be really important for maintaining your sobriety.
So how many percs are you taking daily right now?
What, exactly, is your taper schedule?
Please keep in touch, i will be here for you to help you through the rough patches if i can.
You're gonna make it girl!!!! Please keep a positive attitude and live in today, only today, ok?

Hugs,

Michelle

Do you think that over-eating has anything to do with the pills? Sometimes I think they make me hungry and sometimes the opposite. How do they affect your appetite? Just wondering... maybe I have an ED also? Any help here is appreciated! Thanks...

Do you think that over-eating has anything to do with the pills? Sometimes I think they make me hungry and sometimes the opposite. How do they affect your appetite? Just wondering... maybe I have an ED also? Any help here is appreciated! Thanks...

addiction will look for anything to fill then gap, I have to eat some kinda of chocolate every night...i buy it a bar at a time if not i will eat the whole bag ...im a alchoholic ....I JUST CANT HAVE 1!, ironically I was just given a script for 30 oxycodone.....it made me throw up 7 times...ill be flushing the rest, are you in some kinda AA program?