Patrick777
09-26-2007, 04:50 PM
I have a mental issue that I want help to resolve. Whenever something bad happens, I think the worse of it. Two years ago I was driving my sisters car and hit someone while I was going 10 miles an hour. I along with my sister were sued and I had it set in my mind that she was going to loss her house because of me. A couple weeks ago I lost my job due to my position being eliminated and I was ok about it. Then I come to hear they had a break in at the office last week and the next thing you know is that I think they are going to blame me.
This is just a few examples. Last month I was going past a red light camera and the light turned yellow and for two weeks I was reliving the experience over and over in my head thinking I was going to get a ticket.
I am very easy going, but if someone looks at me wrong, I fret that I did something wrong.
Other then this issue, I am a pretty intelligent person who cares about people and would do nothing to hurt anybody! I don't have a mean streak in me.
Please help as these experiences overwelm me and I have fleeing thoughts of suicide, I want help but don't know where to turn.
Is there a med that can contral this? I was on Paxil a couple years ago but that was turning me into a zombie! I want something that will stop the needless worrying!! I'd also like to know what this condition is called!
By the way, I did hint to my mom about the suicide thoughts and she told me how much that would hurt her if I did that so I wll not be going up that path anytime soon!
I just want help!!
thanks
Pat
This is just a few examples. Last month I was going past a red light camera and the light turned yellow and for two weeks I was reliving the experience over and over in my head thinking I was going to get a ticket.
I am very easy going, but if someone looks at me wrong, I fret that I did something wrong.
Other then this issue, I am a pretty intelligent person who cares about people and would do nothing to hurt anybody! I don't have a mean streak in me.
Please help as these experiences overwelm me and I have fleeing thoughts of suicide, I want help but don't know where to turn.
Is there a med that can contral this? I was on Paxil a couple years ago but that was turning me into a zombie! I want something that will stop the needless worrying!! I'd also like to know what this condition is called!
By the way, I did hint to my mom about the suicide thoughts and she told me how much that would hurt her if I did that so I wll not be going up that path anytime soon!
I just want help!!
thanks
Pat
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trg247
09-26-2007, 05:23 PM
Hi:
Right off the top of my head I am thinking anxiety which is controlled through the help of a good therapist and possibly the addition of meds like Xanax or Valium. The other thing that jumped out is OCD with the emphasis being on the obsesive end. The thing that has me concerned is the suicidal thoughts as they are usually rooted somewhere pretty deep and trust me they can quickly strengthen to the point where they are controling. For the suicidal thoughts alone I would go see a doctor for a proper exam. Yes some antidepressants can make you feel emotionless but there are some good ones out there.
take care
trg247
Right off the top of my head I am thinking anxiety which is controlled through the help of a good therapist and possibly the addition of meds like Xanax or Valium. The other thing that jumped out is OCD with the emphasis being on the obsesive end. The thing that has me concerned is the suicidal thoughts as they are usually rooted somewhere pretty deep and trust me they can quickly strengthen to the point where they are controling. For the suicidal thoughts alone I would go see a doctor for a proper exam. Yes some antidepressants can make you feel emotionless but there are some good ones out there.
take care
trg247
Patrick777
09-26-2007, 06:05 PM
Thanks for your thoughts! As soon as Cobra kicks in, I plan to seek a mental health professional. I suspected the OCD thing with other things I do like owning 10 computers, or when I see a shirt I like, I have to have it in all the colors. But the bad thoughts that enter my mind that bad things are going to happen to me and I relive thought thoughts over and over drive me nuts. I am so afraid of life.
AnnD
09-26-2007, 06:36 PM
Pat, you need to go to the doctor for help ASAP. There are many medications on the market that won't give that zombie feeling you just need a different one.
fisbie
09-27-2007, 10:11 AM
Hi i really understand where you are coming from. I myself have thoughts like that. where i myself beleave that i am to blame for things happening for things, mine is thinking that i am being hunted by the people anything that seems to go wrong in my life. I have had this for about 4years know and the only way i can seem to keep it undder some form of control is to take medication. Also along with mine I think i here voices and people that i am with at the time i think i hear them say things to me and yet i as these people did you say that and they always reply/ no. it really can drive me crazy to the point i can't take much more to the point it really hurts my head. the best thing i can say to is go see your doctor and if you feel they can not help then get them to put you into a mental heath program and yes it is ok to go on medication, good luck:confused: :(
Patrick777
09-27-2007, 11:13 AM
I spoke to someone today and I've joined a support group, I feel a whole lot better that I am not alone. Appreciate everyone's comments!
Wato88
09-27-2007, 11:43 AM
life is precious and we need to live happily, we get happiness from little things which happen arround us. Share your strenght and weakness with your family so that they will get to accept you as your are the real you.
Accept your self and open up to people whom you trust.
:jester: Wato
Accept your self and open up to people whom you trust.
:jester: Wato
Sannah
09-27-2007, 01:55 PM
Hi Patrick, so glad that you got into a support group! I recovered from anxiety and I think we get anxious because we never got to feel security while growing up. We can make up for this later and learn to feel secure. I did.
Also, when you explained some things about feeling like you were going to get blamed and stuff, well, I had to figure some of this sort of stuff out myself. Here is my take on this. Children think that they are the center of the universe (this is why they think that their parents divorce, etc., is their fault). If you don't mature emotionally I think that as adults people can still feel this way, that they are the center of the universe. I hope you understand what I am trying to explain here. I was able to finish my emotional development as an adult once I figured out in what areas I didn't develop fully in. Now I realize that I am only one of many and that I am not at the center of everything and therefore, not responsible for much that goes on around me.
It also sounds like you fear doing something wrong or getting in trouble. Was this a common thing for you as a child?
Also, when you explained some things about feeling like you were going to get blamed and stuff, well, I had to figure some of this sort of stuff out myself. Here is my take on this. Children think that they are the center of the universe (this is why they think that their parents divorce, etc., is their fault). If you don't mature emotionally I think that as adults people can still feel this way, that they are the center of the universe. I hope you understand what I am trying to explain here. I was able to finish my emotional development as an adult once I figured out in what areas I didn't develop fully in. Now I realize that I am only one of many and that I am not at the center of everything and therefore, not responsible for much that goes on around me.
It also sounds like you fear doing something wrong or getting in trouble. Was this a common thing for you as a child?