jess86
09-28-2007, 10:06 AM
Hi! Im new to this forum and I am looking for advice I guess on how to get back to normal. I need opionions, not from family and friends but from neutral partys. I have been struggling with Anorexia for about four years now. It all started with me wanting to cimply change my eating habits and replacing my bad habits ( eating fast food, high fat and unhealthy choices) and changing them to more healthy things like more fruits and veggies and whole grains. And cutting my sugars. I didnt want to lose weight or anything at first. I dont even think the thought crossed my mind. But in about a month and a half I lost [weight]. I found myself immediately addicted to the weight dropping off and the numbers in the scale getting lower.
Quickly it turned into cutting calories drasticly and excersising fanaticaly. I was obessessed and couldnt see what everyone else saw, a sick, way too skinny young woman. I now felt fat and gross. Over the summer I dropped [more weight]. I was 18 at the time. But still felt horrible. Im now turning 21 and am at a stable [weight]. I am techniquely in recovery but its so hard everyday not to fall into not eating at all again. I go the gym everyday and I am quite scared of any food that doesnt have a label or that is "bad" to me.. I binge eat too on occasion and over-do it on those " bad things" I dont let myself have.
All I want is to loose [weight] I think I will feel a lot better. Sometimes when I look in the mirror it scares me because I am a little too skinny in places but there are areas that just discust me too. I dont want to be as skinny as before because I almost got hospitalized. I am conflicted now with should I loose a few more pounds... I feel so bad.
Mabye someone could give me some healthy lifestyle advice or something..because I have lost all sense of balance and normal life when it comes to eating a balanced diet, having some bad things as well as good. TO keep myslef from binging and cutting all of my treats out.
Thanks, hope this is easy to read, I kind of started to ramble there! lol
Quickly it turned into cutting calories drasticly and excersising fanaticaly. I was obessessed and couldnt see what everyone else saw, a sick, way too skinny young woman. I now felt fat and gross. Over the summer I dropped [more weight]. I was 18 at the time. But still felt horrible. Im now turning 21 and am at a stable [weight]. I am techniquely in recovery but its so hard everyday not to fall into not eating at all again. I go the gym everyday and I am quite scared of any food that doesnt have a label or that is "bad" to me.. I binge eat too on occasion and over-do it on those " bad things" I dont let myself have.
All I want is to loose [weight] I think I will feel a lot better. Sometimes when I look in the mirror it scares me because I am a little too skinny in places but there are areas that just discust me too. I dont want to be as skinny as before because I almost got hospitalized. I am conflicted now with should I loose a few more pounds... I feel so bad.
Mabye someone could give me some healthy lifestyle advice or something..because I have lost all sense of balance and normal life when it comes to eating a balanced diet, having some bad things as well as good. TO keep myslef from binging and cutting all of my treats out.
Thanks, hope this is easy to read, I kind of started to ramble there! lol