Hello all,

I really don't know where to begin.

Thought I was fully recovered (over 6 years) from bulemia and then a motor vehicle accident helps to spiral things out of control; bulimia once again enters, center stage, into my life.

This has been going on for two years now and any type of stress seems to exacerbate the situation.

I remain optimistic nonetheless (or at least try to).

I have to believe that things will get better; if not, i'm truly defeated.

Right now, lack of energy is fighting against hope.

I'm rooting for hope.

Take care.

Phoenix

Phoenix1,

Here's a hand reaching out offering hope. :)

It is a natural human reaction to look for crutches when the support is pulled out from under us. You are going through a lot at this period of your life. Bulimia is something familiar and therefore comforting. Sometimes the crutch we reach for to support us is made from rotten wood. You recognize that bulimia is such an untrustworthy support. Thus you are here asking for something else.

I don't have another crutch to offer you. You will find one to support you more securely and reliably, until the other issues are dealt with in your life. Just know that you are loved and respected on these Boards. If you can use that knowledge as a crutch, then please use it. If it helps you to replace bulimia as a crutch, then so much the better. Although having more than one crutch is fine.

With love and respect,

--Rheanna

Dear Rheanna,

Such profound words; thank you.

I was not really looking for an response but needed to come to grips with my disorder.

What you mentioned here is priceless; thanks once again.

Take care and God Bless.

Phoenix

im currently seeing an ED specialist and he said to me that we use our ED as an escape and a coping mechanism...he said to me that you cant take one thing away from your ED without having a plan of attack for the anxiety etc that will follow...im trying this mindfullness technique which is to confront the anxiety by recognising it and self comforting..its all about focusing on your breathing and relaxing your nervous system as it allows our minds to think more logically and feel more rationally in control of the situation...i use my bulimia with any kind of change i just fall apart and i guess im trying to re train myself and thinking up stategies to deal productively with change...you are very brave and you know you can recover you've done it before i am enspired by you that you were able to do it! im very glad that you are recognising it in yourself to that this is a problem...best of luck