Okay, first off, I'm going to introduce myself. I am Adam, I'm 17 - a senior, and a recovered bulemic. My freshman year, I lost weight, very small for my 6'0" height. Since then, I've become very healthy, but just recently, about a month or so, I've noticed I've been gaining weight rapidly.

Let's just say all those feelings of being too thick, and needing to be thin, rushed back in. I have chrons, which doesn't allow me to eat half the time, but I've been perfectly healthy for the past couple months, causing me to gain weight even more rapidly. I wanted to be sure I wasn't going crazy, so I began logging my eating habits, and now I'm counting calories, again.



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I'm noticing weight changes, I'm losing weight. Well, I don't know if I'm actually eating healthy for a 17 year old kid. I just don't know. I'm freaking out, because I don't want to go into relapse (Even though it's been 2 years, being bulemic was an addiction,

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I guess I just need advice from someone with the knowledge I don't have. How much food is normal? I'm genuinely worried about myself, but I cannot talk to my parents and ask them for help, because they are completely into greasy, fried foods and wanting to shove it down my throat.

I've completely cut off fast foods, and regular soda. I practically thrived off soda all my life, so now I'm trying the whole 'Coke Zero' and 'Pepsi Max' -- I don't know -- I guess I'm just ranting now. I'm just trying to put everything out there, because I feel as though I genuinely need some sort of advice of what to do.

I've been told "work out!" blah blah blah -- Not for me -- I definitely don't think muscles are attractive. I guess I think skinny is attractive for men. I dunno. Anyways, I also should say that I'm obsessed with walking off calories. At least an hour walk a day.

Help? Or am I just a normal teenager.

What IS normal?

Please call your attention to the sticky post at the top of this Board: "Avoiding Triggers".

I think for a teenage male, normal is being self-conscious and eating everything in sight. You should try to trust your body. If it isn't meant to be super skinny, then the only way to get there is going to be by hurting yourself, and it doesn't sound like you want to do that. There's nothing wrong with wanting to eat healthy either, but eating healthy also includes eating. Listen to what your body is telling you. Eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full. If you went shopping with your parents would they allow you to buy healthy foods? Maybe you would feel better about eating if you had access to healthy foods.

Is there an adult you do trust that you could talk to? A teacher or guidance counselor or social worker at school? Or even a reliable friend who could make sure to keep you accountable for how you're taking care of yourself. Regardless of body shape, being comfortable and confident in your skin is the MOST attractive. I hope you can find that place for yourself.

hey there first of all i want to say congratulations on beating your bulimia im currently trying very hard to stop mine which ive had for about 18months now im 19 so i know what its like to be your age and the weird thoughts...if you are really concerned about eating the right diet if you can spare the cash maybe make an appointment with a dietitian and explain to them your previous disorder history and that you want to have a good healthy diet that will help you maintain your weight, they will help you work out a diet that is right for you and will cater for all food groups that your body needs..can i ask you how did you recover from your bulimia im having such a terribly hard time doing it :( ...hope this helps you in your search for your healthy diet