One of my best friends called me last Sunday night and told me that her 30 year old brother had killed himself. I was beyond shocked because I had met her brother, and I love her family, and there were no noticeable warning signs. I was fine, although shocked,, throughout the week because i wass not all that close to her brother. My boyfriend, who lives in FL (i live in MD), was flying in to see me so he went to the funeral with me and everything. i was upset but ok at the funeral, and through the rest of the weekend. When my boyfriend left on Sunday night, i was upset about him leaving but i felt ok. Then, when I got home, i took a nap and woke up with this overwhelming feeling of panic washing over me. I felt, so strongly, like there was no way I could survive. I didnt think I could do it. I talked myself down from it and went downstairs to be with my parents. I know it has only been a few days, but I am finding it harder and harder to avoid the feeling. My best friend went back to school on sunday night, my boyfriend left, and my parents left this morning for a week in Hawaii. I am terrified of this feeling, and since finding out about my friend's brother, I have been terrified of losing people I love to death. I have never felt this way before and I don't know how to deal and I feel in over my head. I am doing my best to fight it off because the feeling is overwhelming and terrifying, but I feel it sitting in me, just waiting to creep up on me. Please help me.

I find It is hard to be very helpful when someone is having such strong feelings. I think you need to find someone you care about to talk to so they can keep encouraging you. Each bit of encouragement can help you to let go of these feelings... It will take some time so hang in there and keep talking.