Hi

I'm quite new here - I'm 22, and I think about food CONSTANTLY. I am totally controlled by food - if I'm in the house all day I think about it; if I stay in in the evening, I eat so much because I can't stay away from the kitchen; but if I go out, I dread coming back, especially if I've had too much to eat, becasue I know I'll go te kitchen and binge for ages. I used to be addicted to chewing and spitting, but havne't done that for about two months, whihc I'm really pleased about - however, I'm now eating the thigs I used to spit out! Consequently I've put on weight - I'm not overweight at all, i'm slim, and have suffered from what youd probably call an ED - was on a very restricted diet and got obsessed with diet for about a year, and was [removed] lighter than I am now, and I do want to lose some of the weight I've put on.... i'm so controlled by food! I've always loved it, as a teenager, I was [removed] heavier than I am now, I've always had a thing about weight and food, but it's getting stupid now, I literally don't go two minutes at a time without thinking about it. Can anyone empathise with this?!

When you eat so often your body becomes in such need of it, that when you eat you feel great and cant stop. It wont be easy to stop, but you need to otherwise you will eventually, if not now gain alot of weight and become unhealthy. I recommend talking to a doctor, dont be scared to they will help.

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