Start expressing my feelings without being ashamed of them... Does anyone feel this way and if they do how do they cope with it..

Hi,

Not sure exactly what you mean. Could you explain a little more - what kinds of feelings, to whom?
Feeling aren't thing to be ashamed of. They are just there.

Hope to hear more from you,

Seaturtle

I'm fine now but I was refrerring to mother... Ever since I announced that I was moving she has been extremely negative about the situation and I'm not even sure why I'm letting it get to me... My son is happy, I'm happy and my BF is happy, I just wish she would support me. I may not be the sanist person but I know how to take care of myself and my son... I just want everyone to be happy for me but I know that is asking too much, I don't think she has ever been happy for me.. I can't wait to leave, really! This house is toxic at times and I know once I leave and live in a happy enviroment I will be able to focus even more on getting better especially living in a supportive enviroment..

Sorry, just rambling out loud! I have a lot going through my head right now... ALSO found out that we will not be able to take our dog with us = (

Ok this is just my opinion when I try to think how I would feel as your mother, as A mother. You know how scared you are about your childs first day at school, scared that they will miss you, scared that they won't find any friends, scared that they won't like school? You know how scared you are that you are going to be on your own without them there anymore? I think there are many times throughout our lives as parents where we go through these feelings. Even times that have nothing to do with our children where there are changes in our lives, big changes that make everything different, like getting married, moving to a new area, starting a new course at college or getting a new job, these things all instil fear and anxiety even in the sanest of people.

I think these are the things your mum is going through now at the thought of you moving. Her life is going to be different. She will not have you all around all the time anymore. She will have time on her own, free time with nothing to fill it. (She will get used to this and find new things of course just the same as we all adjust to those other changes I already mentioned) and it probably won't even take that long. Once the break has been made things will get better you just need to all bear with it for now. It's a little easier for you because though you are leaving her you are keeping familiar things with you, your boyfriend and child. She is not keeping any of that. You have the support of your boyfriend to reassure you that this move will be good for you all and that your life will now be happy. Your mum does not have that.

Now I could be wrong about all this, but that's what I think. I hope that you can try to be understanding of her and that your understanding will help her accept and adjust easier.