SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 10:25 AM
Well I was a good girl and actually told my mental health worker everything! I listened to all your advice in my last thread and showed him what I had typed. He was a little shocked to say the least and asked me why I hadn't told him before. I told him that sometimes I'm scared that I'd get locked up and other times I thought he'd say it wasn't real when at the time I believed it was. So anyway he's referring me back to a PDr again to be re-assesed. With any luck I'll get the right medication. I also mentioned I wanted my risperdal back as that really helped me and he said he would discuss it at the team meeting today. Have also been referred back to a psychologist/therapist. Thankyou especially to Tony (Daisy)
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tony72
10-30-2007, 11:25 AM
I am SO proud of you!!! I know that it will be nerve racking, but don't think too much about the Pdr. until it is time. Do you have any idea how long it will be?
I would start making an outline of what you have gone through in your life. I'd start with any tramatic childhood experiences - write down any major emotional or physical event up until know. Do it in chronological order and list any medicaitons you started and then stopped and why.
After that print out the posts that you've written which express how you feel inside right now. Highlight the major points and read them to the Pdr.
When you read it back to yourself it should take between 5-10 min's.
What you want to ensure it that you haven't forgotten anything -- this will give the Pdr. a real chance to understand who you are and what you've gone through without having to ask specific questions. You will walk away feeling like you've expressed everything you need to - it will helpyou feel more secure in knowing the medications are the right ones for you. Don't walk into it with a specific medication in mind. Let the doctor make recommendations first and then ask him/her about the medications you prefer and if they would do the same thing.
That is what I did at my first meeting.
How are you today? Are you feeling any better?
((((((((((((((( Big Hug ))))))))))) Daisey
I would start making an outline of what you have gone through in your life. I'd start with any tramatic childhood experiences - write down any major emotional or physical event up until know. Do it in chronological order and list any medicaitons you started and then stopped and why.
After that print out the posts that you've written which express how you feel inside right now. Highlight the major points and read them to the Pdr.
When you read it back to yourself it should take between 5-10 min's.
What you want to ensure it that you haven't forgotten anything -- this will give the Pdr. a real chance to understand who you are and what you've gone through without having to ask specific questions. You will walk away feeling like you've expressed everything you need to - it will helpyou feel more secure in knowing the medications are the right ones for you. Don't walk into it with a specific medication in mind. Let the doctor make recommendations first and then ask him/her about the medications you prefer and if they would do the same thing.
That is what I did at my first meeting.
How are you today? Are you feeling any better?
((((((((((((((( Big Hug ))))))))))) Daisey
SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 11:37 AM
Not too sure about how I am today, jaws clenched and really jittery, head starting to go off at tangents so I'm worried I'm heading towards manic episode as these are some of the things I get before or during then. Often I can get them though for a couple days then go back to normal without actually hitting the manic stage. I often am able to tell my fiance that I 'don't feel right' but can't actually explain what I mean by that.
I was just contemplating about how my belief system changes frequently and things that amuse me too. Hobbies, Jobs etc...
I often think I know what I want from life, then change my mind, now I think there are lots of things I want and get frustrated that I can't do them all. I wanted to go into child protection, hair and beauty, nursing, midwifery, psychology and mental health, start one of the numerous business ideas I have had, web design, computer analysis and I'm sure there's some I've missed out.
Some days I want one more than another and other days I don't want any of them.
Then there's religion, sometimes I want to become a buddhist others a christian. I had a period a while ago where I wanted to be ordained and become a vicar or priest. Other times I've really wished I could be a nun. On the times where I wanted to be a christian I've made everyone get up at 6am so we could go to church to reflect and pray before taking the children to school! (how bad is that? poor kids!) The majority of my adult life I've had no faith at all or been pagan. Other times I don't believe in god at all and others I believe in him and hate him.
Then the same follows for hobbies I take up, they change with the wind as well as the books I read the things I become interested in such as history and poetry or art. Even jokes or situations that I find funny one day I may be offended by or completely unaffected by the next. I'd really like to know if other people with bi-polar get the same thing as me and if anyone here actually knows what they want in life and what they are interested in and if there's anyone that this never changes for, like an anchor I guess.
Oh yeah and about a year waiting list for dr which kinda sucks but I'm used to it now!
I was just contemplating about how my belief system changes frequently and things that amuse me too. Hobbies, Jobs etc...
I often think I know what I want from life, then change my mind, now I think there are lots of things I want and get frustrated that I can't do them all. I wanted to go into child protection, hair and beauty, nursing, midwifery, psychology and mental health, start one of the numerous business ideas I have had, web design, computer analysis and I'm sure there's some I've missed out.
Some days I want one more than another and other days I don't want any of them.
Then there's religion, sometimes I want to become a buddhist others a christian. I had a period a while ago where I wanted to be ordained and become a vicar or priest. Other times I've really wished I could be a nun. On the times where I wanted to be a christian I've made everyone get up at 6am so we could go to church to reflect and pray before taking the children to school! (how bad is that? poor kids!) The majority of my adult life I've had no faith at all or been pagan. Other times I don't believe in god at all and others I believe in him and hate him.
Then the same follows for hobbies I take up, they change with the wind as well as the books I read the things I become interested in such as history and poetry or art. Even jokes or situations that I find funny one day I may be offended by or completely unaffected by the next. I'd really like to know if other people with bi-polar get the same thing as me and if anyone here actually knows what they want in life and what they are interested in and if there's anyone that this never changes for, like an anchor I guess.
Oh yeah and about a year waiting list for dr which kinda sucks but I'm used to it now!
tony72
10-30-2007, 11:45 AM
WHAT? a year? can you get to a primary dr until then for medication? What were you on before? Risperdal and what else?
I'm in shock about the time... I need to go back and reread your post.
I'm in shock about the time... I need to go back and reread your post.
SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 11:49 AM
ahhh I can cope with a year, the last time I was referred it took 3! lol.
Well the waiting list wasn't that long but they gave me a questionairre for me to fill in and send back and I honestly thought I had! They presume the patient is well enough to function at a level good enough to fill in a questionnaire and send it back within a given time. They don't do that anymore since my dad took the issue up with the NHS directors!
Anyway a years not too long and as for the meds my gp can't issue them as apparantly only the pdoc can issue anti psychotics though my gp can issue anti depressants but I don't want them cuz they make me feel worse. My key worker is raising the issue about my meds at his meeting today though and he may be able to get pdr to send a script to my gp as I had those ones before and they helped. He's gonna call me later and let me know.
Well the waiting list wasn't that long but they gave me a questionairre for me to fill in and send back and I honestly thought I had! They presume the patient is well enough to function at a level good enough to fill in a questionnaire and send it back within a given time. They don't do that anymore since my dad took the issue up with the NHS directors!
Anyway a years not too long and as for the meds my gp can't issue them as apparantly only the pdoc can issue anti psychotics though my gp can issue anti depressants but I don't want them cuz they make me feel worse. My key worker is raising the issue about my meds at his meeting today though and he may be able to get pdr to send a script to my gp as I had those ones before and they helped. He's gonna call me later and let me know.
SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 11:54 AM
Already my ideas have changed from my last post, right now I want to become a buddhist and spend hours meditating. I'd like to become a Reiki master and heal people and maybe even do aromatherapy, hot stone and crystal therapy. I'd like to get in tune with my spirit guides and angels. I have no idea if I'm actually thinking rationally at the moment even though I feel like I am.
Tinkerbell79
10-30-2007, 01:11 PM
I'm VERY shocked that they are making you wait a year!! That is horrible. I thought waiting 3 months was bad but sheesh.
I commend you Tony for giving her such great advice as to what to do when she goes to her pdoc and her therapist. I think I'm going to write everything down like you suggested to her for when I go to my first pdoc appt Thursday here. Cause I know I'm going to have to go over my life history AGAIN like I did with my original pdoc where I used to live. Thanks for the great advice.
SweetD...I am on the same page and even on the same book as you!! LOL
I have struggled with my whole life constant changes in my interests..hobbies and career options..
I used to want to be a marine biologist a LONG time ago and then I wanted to be a nurse or a realtor and on and on...the thing that scares me now is I'm starting school in Jan to work on my marine science degree and that I may not want to do after some time. Everything changes with my moods/or time of year or whatever and whenever it feels like changing. You are definately NOT alone...I'm sure there are others on here that are the same way.
Hang in there!!
((((hugs))))
Tiffany
I commend you Tony for giving her such great advice as to what to do when she goes to her pdoc and her therapist. I think I'm going to write everything down like you suggested to her for when I go to my first pdoc appt Thursday here. Cause I know I'm going to have to go over my life history AGAIN like I did with my original pdoc where I used to live. Thanks for the great advice.
SweetD...I am on the same page and even on the same book as you!! LOL
I have struggled with my whole life constant changes in my interests..hobbies and career options..
I used to want to be a marine biologist a LONG time ago and then I wanted to be a nurse or a realtor and on and on...the thing that scares me now is I'm starting school in Jan to work on my marine science degree and that I may not want to do after some time. Everything changes with my moods/or time of year or whatever and whenever it feels like changing. You are definately NOT alone...I'm sure there are others on here that are the same way.
Hang in there!!
((((hugs))))
Tiffany
SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 01:13 PM
Once I have a pdoc I only have to wait 3 months between appointments or for extra appointments, but the initial referral has a 1 yr waiting list, I was signed off the pdoc a year ago after seeing him for 7 yrs as mentioned in a previous post.
SweetDeanie
10-30-2007, 01:16 PM
I've signed up to courses too only to later decide that I changed my mind and stop going, then later kicked myself for quitting because I think where I'd be now if I'd just stuck with it. I hope as this is something you were interested in a long time ago that when you feel like quitting you ride it out and maybe one day you'll find that it will all be worth it.