I just was discharged from the hospital today and I think the med combo is finally right. :) And this hospitalisation went soooo much better than the last one because I knew what I was going in for so there weren't as many anxiety attacks/crying spells this time. Anyway, the combo as it stands is:
600mg. Seroquel (500mg. at night, 50mg. in the morning, 50mg. in the afternoon)
400mg. Lamictal (200mg. at night, 200mg. in the morning).
0.5mg. Ativan in the morning.
0.5mg. Ativan in the afternoon PRN
1mg. Klonopin in the morning.

I guess the real test of stability for me this time was Sunday (my birthday) because not only was I in the hospital instead of out with my friends or something, but also Mark (adoptive father) didn't call, which would have sent me into a depressive episode under circumstances pre-med. change. SO I think the combination's right now. And because of Mark's lack of caring, I've decided to e-mail him stating that for now, I'm not talking to him any longer...this was just the last straw....But anyway, less agitation/anxiety which I credit to the Seroquel 'cause that's the only med. my pdoc messed with. So I'm going to stay home from school tomorrow and maybe Thursday to just get back on track and get some of my make-up work finished so I know where I'm starting in all of my classes when I go back, and I'm going to try really hard to take things slower this time and not to panic about missing work and the like. Plus applying to colleges is on the horizon (I realllllly need to get started) so I'm going to have to keep that stress level down as well.

So that's what's going on here - how are y'all doing?

~~Paige

Paige!!!!! Your back!!!! I'm so glad that your stay was better this time and they have you on a good combo now. I'm more glad that you're much better and you sound it from your post. I'm so happy for you. I pray that you continue to stay well. Good luck on the school work and your right don't stress over it so much. I don't think you really missed too much..you'll catch up with everyone and I know were all excited to see you back and better. I myself was away for a few days and when I got back I felt lost and like I missed out on so much.
((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

That's great news, Paige!!! We were all wondering when you were going to be back!! I am glad that they were able to get to the right combo for you and that your usual triggers were held at bay with this combo!!

Yipppppeeee!!!:jester: And I put on my party hat to wish you a very Happy 18th Birthday!!!:D

You sound so much better and I was getting real antsy here waiting for your update and am so glad to hear all this good news.

Remember to take things slow and one thing at a time....going back to school is due to put on more stress so take it all in stride and know that we are here if you need to vent.

I can't tell you how great it is to hear all this good news. There are a few new stickys on the board since you left....us mom's are posting on the Parenting board for support so I just wanted to let you know that in case you see less of me over here. But I intend on keeping a close watch on this thread and you know that you always have my love and support!!!

Love and BIG welcome back ((((((HUGS)))))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:

I just read the new Stickies...so I'll keep track of y'all on the other forum. But anyway, thanks for the positive thoughts. :)

And as far as Mark's concerned, I just think I really need to sever contact with him, at least for a while...I can't put too much hope into thinking he'll change because the chances he will are slim as he's too much of a narcissist.

As for BP, EYES, I created my own chain while in the hospital that I've noticed is a reliable way to see episodes coming on:

Anxiety leads to Agitation leads to Episodes. So basically, everytime I start to feel overly anxious, I now know I have to step back and regain my sense of self so the chain reaction stops before it really gets started.

Oh, and Tsohl - I use "ditto" all the time so no need to feel outdated. XD

~~Paige

Paige,
I'm sooo sorry I forgot to wish you a happy Belated Birthday!!!
I forgot about the new stickies too sorry. Glad there are others here that can focus more than me lol. Thanks goody and Tsohl.
And once again...WELCOME BACK PAIGE!! =)

I like the word ditto as well...and psst I'm not young lol...at least I don't feel young hehe.

I hope yall's day is going well.
Tiffany

I'm happy to hear you're feeling better.

Welcome back!

LW

Thanks Tiff and Loudwhispers for the welcomes, and thanks Goody, Tsohl, and Goody for the birthday wishes. :)

Tiff, I live in Northern VA.

My next hurtle is schoolwork...I need to keep my bipolarity at bay while doing that, which will be a problem if I'm not careful. My mind is seeming to wander, and my first mid-day dose of Seroquel was missed today because my prescription wasn't in until later. It's amazing how the two hospitalisations differ...looking through the first notebook and the second are like looking at two different people. But I know better than to get complacent - I need to stay on top of it if I want to stay stable.

~~Paige

Your very welcome Paige and my thoughts are with you. You can overcome this and get through school ( I know easier said than done) but you CAN do it.



deleted


(((((((((hugs))))))))

Welcome back! I'm so glad to hear that you are doing so much better now and that the hospital not only taught you how to remain stable, but that you also brought that knowledge home with you. Please take it easy with school and don't stress yourself out to get caught up. You have great teachers that are very understanding and I doubt they will fault you for being behind.

Happy Belated 18th Birthday to you!!!!!

Sweet Paige,

Welcome back and happy birthday! I'm so glad that this hospitalization was a positive experience for you and that you are feeling better. Sometimes we need to step back to move forward and you have done that.

Please keep us posted and let us know how you are doing, but you sound SO much better and I know good things are ahead for you.

Congrats on having the strength of spirit to get yourself the help you need so you can keep moving forward on what is sure to be an extraordinary life!

Love Always,

Hope

Paige,

I'm so happy to hear that the med change is helping!

Oy, first day back to school was kind of rough...I wanted to get a water before school and we have these accounts - we all have our own number and our lunch money is tied to that, as well as our Internet access and teachers' ability to process our grades electronically - but anyway, my number came up as unknown! And I KNOW I had the right number so I was sort of flipping but still calm and went to Guidance to ask about it 'cause they handle most of that stuff and apparently my account had been temporarily withdrawn while I was in the hospital. >.<

The secretary fixed it after I asked about it and then my guidance counselor saw me and wanted to touch base so I talked to her for a couple minutes about how I was going to catch up and the like. After that, I went back to the cafeteria to get my water and my account was still coming up unknown! So I just paid with cash because I was getting frustrated and I didn't want to throw myself into an episode. So from there I went to class and the crowds/noise got to me a little but I'm still working through that so it wasn't a big shock. Things went okay until lunch when my number STILL wasn't going through so I started to slip downward but I had a little money with me so I got some pop tarts out of the vending machine and calmed down again...

Second half of the day went all right...boring in goverment but that's normal...and then Environmental was pretty good - what we were doing was relatively easy and he's totally cool with me making up the work.

Oh, and my report card will be all Incompletes until I can make up the work 'cause tomorrow's the end of the quarter so I don't have to be too stressed about getting everything done NOW, but luckily we have a four-day-weekend (teacher workdays on Monday and Tuesday) so I can get mostly caught up.

I went home with a friend afterschool to kind of unwind and now I'm more relaxed, but the day was pretty stressful...and I couldn't get my afternoon Seroquel because I don't have the form from the psychiatrist (I have to get it from my regular pdoc 'cause the hospital one didn't write one up and I don't see her 'til Monday evening) saying I can have it in school so I think that was part of it because I really started to get agitated as the day wore on.

So stress is still there, but I'm slowly getting to a point where I can handle it with consistency...

~~Paige

Paige,
I'm glad to hear that your day went fairly well and that you were able to cope better. And you aren't stressing about your make up work..that's even better!! As long as you can cope when you have those stressful times you can get through it. That's the big key I think.
I hope you can get your make up work done this weekend but take it easy and don't do anymore than you can handle. Just make sure that you take time out for yourself.

Hugs and love,
Tiffany

For having just gotten out of the hospital you seem to be doing quite well, Paige!!! You really seemed to handle things remarkably well!!;)

Erin had to take an incomplete after one of her pHosps and was able to get the work done and I am confident that you will too!!

About the Seroquel....I think that you should see if your pdoc can FAX over any necessary information to your school. Call the pdoc's office and see what you can arrange so that you don't alter your med schedule....that is so important and we know how important it is not to get off schedule.....even one dose missed can make a big difference and throw things off. You have come so far and can't afford to slip backwards after all you have done to come this far.

I hope that you are able to catch up with the work and also keep yourself on schedule since you have come so far and are doing so well.

((((HUGS))))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:

Ughh, today wasn't entirely good....I did switch out of Philosophy into a Study Hall so I have that to work with now, which is good...and things were going alright (my lunch account's all straightened out now) except for the over-stimulation in the crowds, but that's a work-in-progress...then in Spanish, my teacher decides that I need to take the same test everyone else is taking even though I missed the two weeks of material!!!!! So I barely kept it together but after class, my guidance counselor and I talked to him so the test won't count against me and I can make up the work (he was hell-bent on giving me a grade - I don't know if he knew he could give Incompletes as he's foreign..).

So things settled again and then I come home after Psychology and looked online to see what time "Game Plan" is playing in our theatres, but Glen needed to be picked up at some point during the movie so we didn't go so my mood swings downward again, only to sink further as my brother, my sister, and three of my friends (I saw them at Safeway when we were getting dinner) all have plans and it just really gets to me...so right now I'm just really low and trying to stay away from all things possibly self-destructive. I asked if I could join my friends when I saw them, but they didn't have room in the car they were in 'cause they were also with two others...so over all, I'm just really down right now because it seems as if I never go anywhere with friends while my sister and brother are with friends every day. And knowing my friends were out tonight and I couldn't go made things worse...I think most of it is a build-up because I missed Homecoming so I'm trying to make up for it but I can't and it's bugging me...I mean, I know it shouldn't bother me that much, but it is bothering me....Ugh, it'd be way too easy to do things I'd later regret so I'm trying to keep my cool...

Oh, and Goody, about the meds, the form that we have for that kind of thing involves Mom's signature as well as my pdoc's...but we have Monday and Tuesday as Teacher Workdays so I'll be able to have my afternoon Seroquel when I go back on Wednesday as I see my pdoc Monday.

With any luck, tomorrow will go better 'cause I have the Alateen Gratitude Brunch in the morning and then maybe I can see "Game Plan." I'm not getting my hopes up, though...

~~Paige

Hey, Paige....I am hoping that today was a better day for you and that you got to see Game Plan like you were hoping to. I know that Erin has a difficult time when things don't work out like she hoped they would but all in all it looks as if you handled things well despite the disappointments which is GREAT.

I am glad that you will not be missing you Seroquel....it is so important that you stay on schedule with the meds. I know that you aren't allowed to bring the meds to school but I do encourage Erin to carry her weekly med pack in her purse so that if she is out an needs her meds she doesn't go off schedule...that seems to work pretty well in terms of her social life. So perhaps you can do the same.

So Game Plan....what is that movie about??? And who is in it??? I am looking forward to one called August Rush to come out next week...I may grab Erin to see it because it is about a boy given up for adoption who's parents are musically talented and he inherits the gift and feels that he can find them due to their musical connections. (The parents were teens when they decided to give the baby up for adoption feeling that it was best for everybody). Anyway...it really looks like a GREAT movie to see with Erin.

Well I am hoping to hear that you are doing well over the weekend and getting all caught up on your work.

YOu really bring a smile to my face when I read your posts because you are so insightful and self aware that I just know that things are going to be alright. YOu truly inspire me and so many others here. Keep up the good work....and know that you have my love and support always.

Love ~ Goody:angel: :wave:

Goody, today did go better.

I would carry my meds with me, but I don't like taking a purse around (I always forget it - my motto is if it doesn't fit in my pockets and/or bookbag, I don't need it. But I did seriously consider taking my Seroquel with me...our school system has a Zero Tolerance Policy for stuff like that so I wasn't quite willing to risk it...I have considered getting a thing of Altoids and putting my meds in it just in case...like if I forget my morning meds or something. It sounds like a good idea, but I will run it by Mom first, just in case.

Game Plan has "The Rock" in it (I'm not sure who else - I'm not good with actors) and it's about a quarterback who is used to the partying life style mixed with practices and games and then his eight-year-old daughter shows up on his porch saying her mother sent her to spend the month with him - he didn't know he had a daughter until that point, so he had to learn to balance a little girl's interests (Bedazzles and Ballet) with his own lifestyle...it was really good. :D That August Rush movie sounds good, too. :)

And the Gratitude Brunch was good. I had to try to block out anxiety because it was a full house and rowdy until the Speakers started so I was over-stimulated for a bit...and afterwards, we just relaxed for a while. I think I'll focus on make-up work tomorrow and Monday so I have Tuesday off to enjoy (and vote)...

Over all, my day was okay...I was agitated on and off and snappy, but I attribute that to a poor night's sleep (I had a LOT of trouble sleeping last night) so hopefully tomorrow will be better...

~~Paige

I would carry my meds with me, but I don't like taking a purse around (I always forget it - my motto is if it doesn't fit in my pockets and/or bookbag, I don't need it. But I did seriously consider taking my Seroquel with me...our school system has a Zero Tolerance Policy for stuff like that so I wasn't quite willing to risk it...I have considered getting a thing of Altoids and putting my meds in it just in case...like if I forget my morning meds or something. It sounds like a good idea, but I will run it by Mom first, just in case.

Oh, Paige, no-no....don't bring your meds to school!!! I know how that works, you have to go do what they said...I was talking about if you are busy with life and out somewhere like the movies and forgot to take your meds that you have a spare dose in your purse or something just in case.

I am glad that you got to see Game Plan....I recall seeing the reviews for that movie and it looked like a good one. I saw that August Rush doesn't come out until just before Thanksgiving.

It really sounds like you are doing quite well since getting out of the hospital. I am glad that you have this long weekend to take some of the pressure off of yourself so that you can try to get caught up with things. The timing is perfect!!

Glad to hear that your day went better for you today.

((((HUGS)))) ~ Goody:angel: :wave:

Hi, With everything that goes on in school it is (at least in NY) a protocol to check somebody's purse if there is any suspicion of drugs being used. Kids may see Paige take her med that don't know anything about it and report it off to a teacher or principal which can open up a whole can of worms. And it is state law that a minor either have a certified health professional who has on record that the meds are prescribed to that person OR the parent of a minor administer the med while in school. Paige has an afternoon dose of her Seroquel to take and needs the paperwork filled out as is the protocol in most schools nationwide.

I was just talking about when our teens run out the door to a friend's house, a movie, or other social event and forget to take their meds at least they have an extra dose available to take if they need to rather than going all off schedule. But at school it could be more of a risk of getting into trouble....alot of kids at school sell prescribed meds to other kids so that is why Paige shouldn't have anything on her person while at school. Even tylenol can be a problem at schools.

Hope that clarifies some things ~ Goody:angel::wave:

Ohh, I misread what you said, Goody. Expulsion is a factor if you take anything drug related to medication/drugs/etc. Apparently (found this out in nineth grade from my Homeroom Teacher), there was a time where you could have over-the-counter meds with you, but a girl carried Tylenol 3 one day to school and lent one to her friend 'cause her friend was having cramps or something...and she was allergic to one of the ingredients in the Tylenol...that's when they implemented the med thing, but this was probably fifteen-twenty years ago. We're not even allowed to bring in the med to hand to the nurse - parents have to do that...not sure if it's different 'cause I'm 18 now, but I'm not taking that risk. >.<

As for going places, yeah, I need to remember to take stuff with me sometimes, especially when I know I'll be out late (concerts and the like)...

Today was busier than I would've liked...seeing as it's supposed to be one of my days OFF from school. >.< I had to go into school this morning to help Cort correct a history test for half credit (she's failing the class - I wanted to help) and then make-up all of my gov't stuff, including a quiz. I thought the gov't wouldn't take long...it was over two hours. I was steaming when I got out because it was almost one when I got out....then I got a break for a bit and ran a few errands, then had a pdoc appt. at 5:30 and had Alateen at 7:30, leaving at 6:45. :dizzy:

My pdoc appt. went okay. She didn't switch anything around, just kinda went over the changes in the hospital. I've been having trouble sleeping again and she said that if that doesn't clear up, she'll consider a sleep aid...Rozerum or something since Rozerum isn't addictive unlike Lunesta and that sort of thing. And she said I don't have to take the Klonopin at night, which to me is a FINALLY because I've been telling her that it does nothing and she's just brushed it off...

I went to Books-a-Million before Alateen but I didn't go with my wallet so I was saved from buying more books that I don't have time to read, but I saw one that I reallllllllllly want - it's a self-help type book...and Alateen went well. It gives me a place to really vent about everything and zero in on what specifically is wrong, which helps when I go to my tdoc as well.

~~Paige

Eh, today was kinda sketchy...I really didn't do much of anything until the afternoon and even then it was pretty low-key. I'm having a hard time remembering to take my afternoon Seroquel since it's been a while since I've been on a mandatory mid-day med. AND I realised that I forgot to get my pdoc's paper saying I can have my Seroquel at school. :eek: So hopefully Mom can get that tomorrow so I'll be set on Thursday...this afternoon, I started leaning towards hypomania aroudn three or four...and then I saw that the 7 HP Boxed Set is out in Books-a-Million so that raised my hypomania and I've been kind of up ever since, but no motivation to work on schoolwork...which really isn't good...so whether I fall asleep at a decent time tonight and/or make any homework progress is anyone's guess...I did work on my college essay, though....

Oh! And yesterday I picked up an application from Kohl's and my grandmother (who works there) mentioned it to her supervisor so before I've even returned the application, I'm already basically hired. :S The supervisor basically said that she wants and interview as soon as possible so I can start training - obvious that they need seasonal help, but I'm not knocking it because Kohl's probably pays better than BAM...plus, I'll get a 15% discount as an employee. XD

~~Paige

Congrats on the new job, Paige! Now don't overdo it to add more stress to your life, but enjoy the extra income and the discount!

Have you gotten things straightened out with the school so you can take the mid-afternoon med?

How are you feeling in general? Better now?

Thinking of you always.

Tomorrow I'll have the Seroquel at school - took a day to get in touch with my pdoc...hopefully with the Seroquel the days will be better somewhat...

Things seem to be getting worse. Yesterday, I ended up staying home to catch up on sleep since I had little to no sleep the night before...and today I still didn't feel good, but forced myself to go to school anyway...Mom's having suicidal ideations - not sure if she wanted to tell me or if it just slipped...but basically the only reason she hasn't acted is because of Cort, Glen, and me...so my stress level is back up (I know I shouldn't worry, but...) and my urges are getting harder to fight and I'm so close to just collapsing and ignoring everything around me...to just kind of exist...no emotion, no pain...just there. And I know that numbness isn't the answer, but it just seems easier. I'll figure it out, though...honestly, I think working will help me - I had less trouble while I was working at Safeway (when they were giving me hours) because I had something to do...something to focus on in addition to school...

~~Paige

I think working will be a godsend. The distraction, meeting new people, having new things to focus on, will all be a help.

Is your Mom getting some more help for herself? I know how concerned you are about her, Paige. Sometimes problems can seem overwhelming, but she is strong and I know she'll work through it.

In the meantime, keep focusing on staying healthy, Paige. You've come such a long way.

Love to you always.

hey paige,
It sounds like you have been good and then not so good and then good...and so forth. I wish you nothing but good days, and I really hope that happens. Something that I learned in therapy is to have really strong boundries. This, I think, is precisely what you need to do to deal with your mom (I also hope she gets better) It means that you can sympathize with her, but stay in your own "box," with your own emotions not hers. Don't get stuck on her rollercoaster. I'm glad you got that med thing straightened out. Don't worry, you'll be fine, just focus on one day at a time and if that is too much try one hour blocks.
Keep your chin up and face towards the sun,
Steamroll;)

Heh, Steamroll, I think your post came at the right time because I'm seriously coming unglued...I've been having cutting urges for the last several days...but then Mom went into the hospital :eek:(which shouldn't have been a big shock, but it was 'cause we had plans for the weekend) and I just totally lost it...cutting...crying...took more-than-necessary Anxiety meds (3mg. of Klonopin and 1.5mg. of Ativan) and it's not helping. Mom keeps telling me I have to be strong for my siblings, but my sister's pissed off that I'm upset and my brother doesn't fully grasp the reality yet...well, maybe he has, but he's more adept at dealing with it. Mark wants to take Cortni and Glen away (which is what set Mom over the edge) and it just keeps piling up...so much for a relaxing weekend visiting Radford U...I'm an absolute mess now and I honestly don't know how to pick up the pieces...I"ve called a couple of my friends, but so far no luck in getting out of the house...there's a football game that I could go to, but it's cold and rainy and it'd probably make my mood worse. And as much as I know the hospitalisation is good for her, I can't help (selfishly) thinking that she needs to be home right now because I'm breaking...I don't know...I'm so close to the edge, but I'm afraid of falling...:(

Thanks for the on-going support. With any luck, I'll make through this and get stronger? I don't know - that's what's supposed to happen anyway.

~~Paige:dizzy::confused:

Paige, :wave:
It sounds like you are on a not so good swing,:( but remember: nothing is permant. The only thing that is constant is change. As awful as it is it will get better, i can't promise you how soon, but I know it will.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don't cut.:nono: It only makes things worse. Also, I wish you wouldn't take more meds than prescribed, and if you do want to call your doc first and ask about it. And if they aren't helping when you need them, you might want to consider switching or upping the dosages. You need meds to work when you need them, not just when things are going well.

When your mom says you should stay strong for your sibilings, I only half agree. I think you should stay strong for yourself and being strong for yourself which will in turn give a good example for your siblings. They want to see that you are strong and to do that you have to concentrate on yourself. If you are breaking, this is not the time to worry about others.

I don't know how your family communicates, but my family is a mess when we communicate, especially in times of problems. In your time of trouble when communicating I find this particulary helpful...

I feel _______
I feel this way when_______
I feel this way becuase I believe that I____________
My hope for myself is__________
My hope for others is__________

You fill in the blanks (duh;)) and then have someone repeat it back word for word. That way the person (s) you are talking to understands what you are saying and you get to hear it repeated to see if what you said is what you meant. Just try it, It really works for me.

Oh one last thing and then I'm done I promise, I know this has been kinda long. When you are feeling better try and write a list on some index cards of things that you can do, preferably things that you like, to help boost your mood. Then when you can't go to a friend's house or don't want to go to a football game you have a list of other fun stuff that helps you cope.

I hope at least some of this made sense and was helpful. Keep your chin up and face towards the sun:) (thats my new favorite saying. Can you tell?)
--steamroll:bouncing:

Steamroll -
Yeah, I know change is the only constant that never changes...I don't like it as I am very anti-change sometimes. Like now. >.<

As for the cutting thing...I know I shouldn't and I usually can control everything, but not being able to truly express my feelings in a while, when I lost it, really lost it. And I'd NEVER OD'd on a med before, but again, I was far from being in my right mind at the time. By the time I went to bed last night, I was somewhat better...calmer, more rational, etc. I doubt it will last, though, considering that unless I find my permit/get a new one, we'll only be able to visit Mom on weekends (my grandmother can't drive at night) and I don't think I'd be able to handle the week knowing she's there...which worries Mom because she's not sure how I'll handle college...I'm not really sure either, but I'll figure something out. :S

I know I should worry about myself first...that's been drilled into my head a lot, but it doesn't help my anxiety or emotional thoughts that drive me to help other people.

..I'm the one right now that needs help and I don't have any immediate health and it's hard for me to relate to my grandmother so I'm kinda relying on friends, feeling guilty at the same time because they shouldn't have to deal with all the stuff I go through...

I'll try your journal idea. :) Maybe getting everything down on paper will help. I wrote a lot in the hospital, but I just stopped when I got out. I have plenty of empty notebooks lying around so I'll use one of them...as for making a list of things I like to do, unfortunately that's a very short list...I don't get out much. I basically read, write, listen to music, and watch TV. I really need to break the cycle, but I keep getting frustrated when trying to pick up new hobbies...I could probably go back to trying to learn languages, though, since that IS something I enjoy, but never have time for...and Thai is pretty easy 'cause there's this all-encompassing website that's helpful.

So, now that I've vented and listened to feedback, how are you doing, Steamroll? Haven't heard much from you..

~~Paige




<Names were deleted. Never post family/friend's names.>

Hi Paige, I just wanted to write and let you know I am thinking of you. Hope things are going OK. Post when you can. Lor:)

I'm right behind Lor, Paige. How are you? Let us know when you can.

Love,

Hope

Argh, I've been busy. Yesterday was the first day that I wasn't in a continuous depressive spell, which was refreshing in a way...but lately, I've had a mild manic up swing at night and can't sleep, then am impossible to wake in the morning. :mad: I did get a replacement Learner's Permit yesterday, which was good...but today was better - Mom just came home. :D So my mood is kind of leveling out...I don't know if the meds are kicking in (because to the best of my knowledge, the Seroquel should've taken effect immediately...) or if I'm just going to be level for a bit between episodes so although I'm happy and all, I'm not getting incredibly hopeful, just in case. I'm still waaaaay behind in school and got my report card today. >.> Only my science teacher gave me an incomplete - I had grades for everything else and overall wasn't happy. >.< I'm failing psych. from missed work and a couple of tests I bombed when I wasn't stable, and I have two C's. <.< But I was able to take that and not breakdown so it's a positive sign. I got the job at Kohl's and I'm working tomorrow night, Friday night, and a day shift on Saturday. Thursday and Friday are training - Saturday is on the register, but I don't mind. I'm glad to have a job. :) I think that's it...just been in motion continuously it seems.

~~Paige

Hey Paige,
I'm glad your mom came home and that your mood is leveling out. Don't worry too much about the report card, you have another quarter until the semester and the semster is what really counts. It is excellent that you didn't freak over the report card, because as my mom says "bad grades we can deal with, your mental heath is more important." Your job sounds like it is good for you, and you'll be great at it. Keep it up!
It touched me that you asked about me. I am doing extremely well. I have a few episodes here and there, but mostly I'm good. I'm going to a latin convention...a little nerdy, but I think it will be fun. As you put it, I am "Finally (hopefully) Stable!" and I hope you will be too.
-steamroll;)