Hi All

I have mentioned previously that we tried a new (well, very old) technique to see if it helped. We transferred to high grade 8 cell embyroes via the tubes. I didn't realise how painful a lap would be. My shoulders of all things killed after the surgrey and I have been so tired. My after care is 200mg pestrone, three times per day and HRT four times per day. So, I have told my hubby to stay away.

Anyway, I am on the 16 day wait - will find out around the 13th. It seems so long esp. since we are not even in December yet.

Best wishes to all that are on thier waits or transfer. Wouldn't it be a great Christmas present!!

Pauline

Oh Pauline! That is so exciting! I recall your post a few weeks ago about this procedure and I didn't realize that you just had it only two days ago!!! Wow, two high grade embryos.... that's just wonderful! I read on another post that you had to wait 16 days. I take it that is b/c they want to give the embies enough time to travel down and implant. I'm praying so hard for you I promise. You deserve this, you really do.... it's just gotta be a BFP coming your way! As for the laproscopy, yeah I've had it twice and it is not fun. The worst part was def the lasting side effects from the gas, ESP in the shoulders! I had my sister who is a massage therapist rub my arms and that helped. She would start at the top near my shoulder and in one solid motion wrap her hands around my arms and move them down to my wrist. It felt great! You should try that if it your shoulders are still bothering you. Good luck hun, I would love to hear how you are doing during the remainder of your wait!

Hi Pauline,

I hope that you are feeling a bit better every day! I'm not really familiar with all of the procedures, but I am very excited for you and truly hope that this brings you your BFP!! I know the wait seems long, but I hope that all of the holiday preparation makes things go a bit faster for you! We'll all be waiting for some great news!!!!! :):)

Kelley

How exciting! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you and lifting you up in prayer. Hope you get your BFP in 16 days!!!:)

Hi Pauline!!

Good luck!! Good luck!! Good luck!! I can't begin to tell you how much I am pulling for you!!! Kari is right, you deserve a bfp so much! Praying w/ everything I've got this cycle is your lucky one. :angel: Sorry to hear you're feeling pain from the lap. I've had a few laps myself, and the recovery is definitely worse than the actual procedure. You should feel back to normal w/in a few days though, so at least the after effects don't last. You'll be all healed up in plenty of time to celebrate bfp on 12/13!! :D:D

BABY DUST!!

Holly

Good Luck Pauline I am praying that you get your BFP.Please take care and rest get plenty of it.Keep us posted.

Mapia

Pauline good luck and I hope you are resting very well right now. I am prayin gfor you BFP and that in a couple of weeks we will be celebrating a very high number!! :D

*******babydust*******

Pauline i am praying hard that this cycle will bring about your much deserved BFP. Please keep us posted.Sending you barrels of sticky baby dust

Amy

Hi Pauline

I'm sorry to hear you are having a hard time recovering from the lap, I have heard before that it can be a painful experience.

On a brighter note though, it's great that you have tried something different. I am sending you loads of sticky babydust and hope that you are rewarded with your BFP soon.

Babydust!

Ruby

Pauline, just wanted to say hello and ask how you are feeling. Hopefully you have been taking it easy and are recovering well from the procedure while your precious little embryos are getting all cozy inside you! Let us know how you're doing whenever you can.

Thanks everyone for all your support. I am waiting and waiting. My DH is overseas and missed the whole thing. Looking forward to him getting home. Well, I have nothing to report except I hate the wait.

will report soon and think you for your prays, thoughts and well wishes.

Good luck to you all and best wishes

Pauline

Hi Pauline, I was just thinking about you and wondering how its going and how you are feeling. Any plans to HPT soon? I hope you have a little one who has snuggled in nice and tight!

Hi Pauline,

I have been thinking of you too. Hope you are hanging in there with the wait. Will your husband be back on time for the pregnancy test? Sending you lots of positive thoughts.

Holly

Hi Pauline,

Just checking in to see how you are doing and how you are feeling! I'll be thinking of you during the wait!!!

Kelley

Pauline, I am so sorry Dh had to miss everything. He won't miss beta will he? When is it again? I hope you're doing really well dearest.

*********babydust***********

Hi All
Thank you for all your kind words and thoughts. There is no sign of AF and it is day 15 past transfer so I have one day to go. TOMORROW. I am so scared that it is going to be negative and that all the pain has been for nothing, let alone the money!!. I am trying to stay positive. But everytime I get a cramp or something, I think - nope this is it. So tomorrow is the end of my 16 day wait. I haven't tested early as I don't want to know the result. Ignorance is bliss. I love the hope of it might have worked and hate to think that it mightn't. Hope that makes sense.

Thanks and will report tomorrow.

Pauline

Hi Pauline,

I will be thinking of you tomorrow!!! Please keep us posted!!!

:D Kelley

Hi Pauline

Good luck tomorrow, I am REALLY hoping to hear good news from you. I know how badly you want this and how hard you have worked for it and you truly deserve to get a BFP.

Please give us an update when you can.

Babydust!

Ruby

Good Luck tomorrow Pauline! Can't wait to hear about your BFP! - April

Wishing you all the best, I really hope to see you posting your BFP tomorrow.

Cashahn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Oh Pauline you are SO good waiting the entire 16 days! Good for you! I know just what you mean about holding off so the hope stays alive! Well I do hope it pays off big for you tomorrow and you will never again question the pain and the money. I'll be praying for you and anxiously awaiting your big news! Good luck!

Pauline, what a brave girl you are!! I admire your strength so much for waiting the entire 16 days! I am hoping and praying that you will be reawrded with a big BFP for being so patient!! i think I'll take a page from your book and be more patient as well. :) Let us know how the test goes!!!!!

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Thanks to everyone but the result was a BFN. Very hurt and dissappointed. Not sure why it has happened and what to do next. I have two eggs left but I don't want to do another tubal transfer and fear I am about to lose my job as a result of all the time off I have had and we really can't afford to do anymore.

Life sometimes is just so unfair.

Best wishes to you all and thank you

Pauline

OH Pauline, dearest, I can hear the disappointment in your post. I am so sorry. :( I wish there was something more I could do. Know that it's okay to grieve right now, and cry. No matter what you decide to do, whether it be go ahead into your next cycle, or wait it out and get some job security back, I knwo I speak for all of us when I say we're behind you and support you. Go ahead and grieve, but don't lose hope. You WILL be a mother someday. :angel: xoxoxo

Hi Pauline

I am so sorry about the BFN. You seem to be handling it remarkably well though I know you are absolutely gutted. I'm sure you have a lot of questions right now and I hope that you can find some answers as to why the IVF hasn't worked. You are right, life is so unfair and there is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better right now.

Just know that I am thinking of you and sending you gentle hugs.

Ruby

Oh no Pauline I am so very sorry and I feel so incredibly bad for you. I completely understand the despair that it sounds you are going through right now. You have put all of your heart and your soul into this and to come out with a negative is just not the right outcome, nor is it fair in any way! You should have been a mommy this time hun and I am so sad for you. But like Princess said, please do not give up the hope b/c you will be a mommy one day! As for the two eggs that you have... can they be fertilized and transferred as in a normal IVF? I think you tried that route before the tubal transfer, right? Surely a normal transfer is much less painful and would require much less time away from work right? Well I just want you to know that we are here if you need a shoulder. In the meantime, sending you great big (((hugs))). Love,

Kari

Pauline

I am so sorry ...i just don t seem to have the right words. My heart goes out to you during this difficult time. I don t feel i have advice to give but wantd to let you know that i am praying for you. Also please don t give up i am sure that you will become a mommy.
Give yourself some time to grief. Please take care of your self.
Hugs
Amy

Pauline, I'm so very sorry to hear of your bfn. My heart goes out to you. I know there's nothing I can say to ease your pain, but please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers as well. We all care for you very much. Again, I am so sorry.

Holly

Thank you everyone. I am having a long chat to my Dr and as much as I love him, I am taking full control over any future cycles. I am not doing any more cycles till me bleeding in between my period stops and I feel healthy. So I enrolled in a health clinic that specialises in infertility diet and emotional well being - getting strength and developing emotional care needs. So they ask that you don't do any IVF or other treatment for three months. You just learn to live agian, get better emotionally and work out any health or life style things before you get started again. My Dr thinks that it might be worth it.

So we will see.

Anyway, I think it is time that we all started to get a little assertive with our Dr - get us pregnant or we want our money back!!! I often wonder if our treatment would change if there was some performance indicators there for individual patients not overall clinic patients. I want to see my Dr stats not just the clinic stats. How do I know if I am with a great Dr or the dud of the Practice?? So this is what I am about to talk to my Dr about!! I wonder how we will go.

Cheers and thanks, I am doing well.


Pauline

Hi Pauline

I'm glad to hear you are doing well. I think you are definitely taking a couple of steps in the right direction by talking to your doctor and especially by joining the health clinic. I wish they had something like that here as it sounds like it is going to be very healing both emotionally and physically.

Good luck with everything and please let us know how you get on.

Ruby

Pauline, I think that it is wonderful that you are going to be so assertive with your doctor. I'm sure he is an angel, but when it comes right down to it, you're there to acheive one goal----and it hasn't been met yet. Hopefully your talk will help move things along.

Good luck and ************babydust****************