Kari, I just wanted to wish you luck tomorrow with your transfer! I hope those embies thawed well. This is going to be it for you, I just know it. You've got such a great attitude regarding this transfer. Let us know how things go once you're home and well rested!! - April

Hi Kari!!!

Just wanted to send you some more good luck!! Although you aren't going to need it, cuz this cycle is definitely THE ONE!!!

I've been meaning to ask you...Do you have any idea how your embies are doing today? Does your dr's office give you a report like they do w/ fertilization after e/r? Hope you don't mind me asking. I've been so curious about how they are doing. I mean, I'm sure they are doing wonderfully, I was just wondering if you get updates or not.

Well, in less than a day, they will be back home!!

Holly

Hi Kari!! I wanted to come in and check on you and see how you are doing!! Big day tomorrow! I just know that these little freezies will snuggle down warm and deep for a nice long nine month stay! How long will you be on bedrest for? Do you have lots of gentle, relaxing things set up for you to do during your 2ww? I'm so excited for you----I'm feeling REALLY positive about this cycle, Kari. :D:D:D:D You are in my prayers and I hope to hear how it goes as soon as you are abel to write!

***********babydust************

Hi Kari! Checking in real quick to wish you the BEST of luck tomorrow!!! I am so excited for you!!!

Kelley

Hey Kari OMG tomorrow is the big day I cant believe how fast it got here :blob_fire:bouncing::blob_fire:bouncing: So we will all pray really hard for you sweetie.I just hope and pray this will be it for you.Have a great day sweetie and get plenty of rest for tomorrow.

Mapia

Kari, I can't believe its allready here. I am so so excited for you :bouncing::bouncing:. I just know we are going to be celebrating a few weeks.........its going to be an awesome christmas for you and your DH. :angel: AImeeM

Kari

Just wanted to wish you all the best of luck for tomorrow.....i am sure that this is going to be it for you. I also promise you that i ll be thinking and praying for you tomorrow.
You an Dh most both be so excited.
Like Aimee i think this is going to be a magical Xmas for you both.

Take care and make sure you take it easy. Sending you lots of sticky baby dust over the miles.

Big hugs

Amy

The time has finally come for you to have your transfer, I am so excited for you and DH. I want to wish you luck and let you know I will be thinking of you. All the best, I have a strong feeling you and DH are oing to have a wondeful Chrstmas present :D:D

Good luck and lots of baby dust your way :angel::angel::angel:

Charlene

Kari -

It's finally here!! I wish you all the best of luck tomorrow!!!!! I truly hope that we'll be celebrating with you in a few weeks!!! Rest up for tomorrow and let us know when you can how things went!!

Kelley

My thoughts are with you tomorrow Kari! Best of luck!

OMG Kari only one more sleep until your FET!!!

Good luck sweetie, you know that we will be thinking of you and I will be sending loads of babydust across the Pacific to you.

Ruby

Kari sweetie havent heard from you all day getting a bit worried.Hope all is well with you sweetie.Maybe you are just busy getting last minute things done before your FET I hope thats the case.Well heading to bed so I just wanted you to know I will be praying for you tonight and tomorrow and that you will be in my thoughts.Sending you great big hugs sweetie.

Love ya,

Mapia:angel:

Hi guys!!!! Thank you all so very much for your lovely words and good luck wishes!!!!! You really have put me up on cloud nine and I haven't even gotten my BFP yet! But I will, I really think with this cycle I will get my BFP!

So sorry I haven't been on-line all day.... Mapia, I was doing just like you thought. Trying to get a few things done that I won't be able to accomplish once I start bedrest! It was a very productive day and even more cool was that I was relatively distracted.... not completely, but considering how much I am thinking about my transfer tomorrow I really am glad I kept busy today! And later my DH is taking me to the movies. Just thought we'd get out of the house tonite since I'll be all cooped up here for the next 3-4 days!

April sweetie, thank you so much for starting this thread. I know you probably have a lot on your mind considering how this cycle turned out for you. You are so thoughtful and I just know you are going to be a great mommy (and soon!)!

Hey Holly! Thank your for being so positive for me... I can't begin to tell you how happy that makes me feel! Well there is no word on my embies. My NP called me yesterday just to see how I was doing (seriously, she is the best... I was floored again by her thoughtfulness). She said she had not heard anything one way or the other on my embabies, but we both agreed we shouldn't worry cause no doubt they are doing perfectly! ;) Guess I will find out tomorrow when I get myself checked in!

Princess you are such a dear! I think I will do 2 full days of bedrest then modified for another day or two. Nothing planned yet for the 2WW.

Okay, everyone else, I wanna respond individually but DH is here and he wants to take me to dinner. I love you guys and again appreciate all your support! I will try and check in one more time before I go to bed! :angel:

Wishing you all the best, I pray that your embie/s thawed well and are healthy and ready to start their journey into this world and into your loving arms. Wishing you the best of luck and sending a tornado of the stickiest baby dust.

Cashahn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Well Kari, I just want to say good luck again and that I will be thinking of you tomorrow!!! I am sure everything is going to go great and that you'll have your BFP very soon!!! I'll be excited to hear from you later this week!!

I hope you had a great dinner and a great time at the movies!!

Kelley

Oh my gosh!!!
Good Luck! Good Luck! Good Luck!
I am soooo excited for you.
Have a great night tonight and let us know how everything goes tomorrow!

Kelley, thank you sweetie... I will definitely give you guys an update asap tomorrow. I think I will be home from the transfer around noon my time (MST)... knowing myself I will hop on line asap to let you all know how it went and how many precious embryos we ended up transferring!

Cashahn, thanks for your prayers... I loved how you said that... "into your loving arms"... I pray that all of our arms will soon be filled with little miracles!

Aimee, thank you so much for your excitement. I do think there will be a lot of celebrating in a couple weeks! I'm glad you have stuck around to lend us such great support! You are going to be a fantastic mother to those darling little twins of yours!

Char, sweetie you are so kind. Praying this is a Christmas full of miracles for many of us! :angel:

CBB and Amy - I hope to soon be coming to you guys for pregnancy advice! :) What a great support you both have been through this journey. I really look forward to posting a BFP very soon!

Ruby, you may be across the deep seas, but I can honestly feel your sincere well wishes! Thank you my friend!

Bee's - I know you also must have alot on your mind right now, so I really want to tell you thanks so very much for your enthusiasm! I appreciate it more than words can say!

Here's hoping I can get some sleep tonite! I'm unbelievably excited right now! Can't wait to tell you guys all about it tomorrow!

Kari I just wanted to wish you luck again for today :D:D. I hope you get some sleep and wake up feeling fantastic. I can just imagine how excited you my be. Sleep well my friend and I am sure everything is going to go so well. :D:D. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers all day.

Charlene

Hi Kari want you to know we are all so excited for you as well.I hope you are getting some good rest.We will be waiting to hear the great news from you today.GOOD LUCK sweetie praying hard.

Love ya,

Mapia

Kari, I hope Im not too late to wish you the best of luck and I'll pray for your little ones to stick.
Here is some sticky baby dust*************

GOOD LUCK KARI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today's the big day!!!! The day you get pregnant! :) I am so excited for you and will be thinking of you all day. Can't wait to hear how it all goes.

Holly

Hi guys!!! DH and I just left the house and we are on our way!!!! I'm sure my post on the way home will be much more exciting!;) thx again for all your good luck wishes!!!

GOOD LUCK KARI!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D Thank God for iPhone, you can let us know right away....hint hint. ;) Just kidding! Let us knwo how it goes whenever you can! We love you and I am feelign SO GOOD about this cycle, dearest!!

***********babydust************

Oh Kari...I wish you the very best of luck with your transfer today!!!! I am praying that Santa will bring you your Christmas miracle...the biggest...fattest...POSITIVE ever:angel::):angel::) I have a very good feeling about this cycle, I think the new year will start off on a very good foot for you! I am praying for you and your little embabies. Please keep us posted!
love,
cmarie

Hi Kari

Wanted to let you know that i am thinking and praying for you today.

Hugs

AMy

Hi guys. Well I just walked in the house. Still a bit loopy from the Valium. It went okay.... The transfer itself was very smooth just like last time. All three embies survived the thaw but they didn't look great. They should have been 8 celled but we only had a 4, 5, and 6. Sounds like they were fragmented again too but at least last time we had some 8 and 9 celled. :confused: Well miracles happen all the time and I will keep the faith that my little fighters will be my miracles!!!!!! :angel: love u all and I will try to get back on later when this sleepiness wears off!

Kari, so glad you're back home and the transfer went well. I think those little embies will be the miracle you've been waiting for! Rest up, and thanks for letting us know how it went!!! - April

Hey Kari glad everything went well.Hey now I dont want any negitivity we have already said a baby is a miracle so just get some rest sweetie and dream of your baby miracle or miracles.I dident know they give you valium for FET why is that?I am praying for you sweetie.Sending you great big hugs.

Love ya,

Mapia:angel:

Hi Kari,

I'm glad to hear the transfer went smoothly. Even if the embies weren't perfect grade, they have proven they are strong by surviving the thaw. :) Don't your worry about a thing sweetie. Stay positive and get some rest so you will be ready to celebrate that bfp in 2 weeks. :D

BTW, how many did you put back? 2 or 3? When is beta scheduled for?

Holly

Nap time for Kari!! :D Now, there isn't any reason to have any doubts, you embabies did very well! I think they are definitely little fighters, they made it through the thaw! Maybe they aren't the ideal number, but they are very close and I still very posisitive abotu this cycle! You are in my prayers!!

*************babydust******************* ***

Hey Kari, Holly is right--they survived the thaw, that alone is huge. So stay positive sweetie. On my last cycle we only put back 1-8 cell and 2-6 and 2-5.........so at least one of those 5 or 6 cells implanted and I have miracles in my belly. SO you need to stay positive those babies need you now. I am sending lots of prayers....I can't wait to be celebrating with you so let us know when beta is. Rest up and enjoy your time as a princess :) :angel:AimeeM

Kari honey, it all sounds good to me! They are little fighters and I'm sure their cells will be multiplying nicely now they're all warm again. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Look after yourself sweetie. Your bfp is on the way! xxxx

Hi Kari

I have been thinking about you all morning and couldn't wait to log on to see how it went! I am so glad that all three of your embabies survived the thaw and are now safely back inside their mommy where they belong. I think Aimee's post is very re-assuring and you definitely have a great chance here.

Have a nice rest and take it easy for a couple of days - I wish I could be there to look after you!

Babydust!

Ruby

Hey everyone. I jet woke a few minutes ago and feel pretty crappy... Just an awful hungover feeling from the Valium I guess. Had it after the last transfer too.

Holly we put back all three... My doctor didn't even ask us, apparently we really aren't at any risk of trips given the quality. But it will just take one to make my dreams come true!:angel:

Mapia i am trying so very hard to stay positive but truth be told I was really taken off guard that we didnt have at least one 8 celled. I didn't say a word when the doc told us, but a tear did fall down my cheek a moment later and when DH saw that he said "wow, so negative so quick, maybe we should just cancel". Not exactly the words of encouargement I needed at the moment. I've been so positive from day 1 this time.... I really wish DH could have said something to cheer me up not crush me when I was a little bit down. Every cycle he constantly asks me if everything will be okay and I have to reassure him. I am not a rock and sometimes I wish I could ask that question to him and be told that our baby miracle is coming and given a hug (that would never happen). I'm the one taking all the shots and I am the one taking all these hormones... Is it selfish of me to say I want to able to cry every once and a while and verbalize my fears and frustrations? I am exhausted by having to always be perfectively positive if I want to maintain the peace (no exaggeration). It's hard when there is a part of me that is terrified this might not be my last transfer. I am sure I will wake tomorrow and all this emotion will have passed. I just hope tomorrow gets here soon.... This headache stinks! Very sorry that i went on and on.... I think i feel better already having vented here. What would I do without u guys???

Hi Kari

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling hungover from the valium, hopefully it will pass quickly.

Our DH's can be so hurtful sometimes. Although they want babies too they don't have the same maternal urge and don't experience the multitude of feelings that we have. I think that we as women tend to think so deeply and although he is obviously well aware of what you are going through emotionally he probably just doesn't understand the full extent of it. I know from things you have said in the past that you have a wonderfully loving and caring DH and to me he sounds very much like the majority of men out there - I am sure my DH would have reacted the same way. I have found that my DH seems to have a certain "quota", it's like he can only handle a certain amount of emotion from me before he has had enough.

Hang in there honey, you know that DH loves you so very much and together you are about to complete this hard journey you have been taking and begin a happy new one.

Love to you.

Ruby

Kari, I'm sorry you felt so sad. I know men can be super frustrating at times, but I think one thing I've learned from my DH and they are equally frustrated about the situation, however they tend to handle things differently. I think that they are afraid to share any emotion with us because they would rather come off as the rock. Unfortunately, them trying to act strong doesn't always come across in the most supportive ways. But I know your DH cares and I know deep down he is so thankful to YOU for all you go through for this baby.

I hope that headache goes away soon! Tomorrow is a new day and just one more closer to that BFP in a couple weeks! Take care! Hugs...April

Hi Kari I ma glad that everything went well with the transfer. I am also sorry the valium makes you feel so bad. I hope that when you wkae up this morning you will feel better. I am sorry that DH was a bit insensitive towards you. I am sending you gentle ((((hugs)))).

I am sure your embies are going to be fine and you will be posting a BFP soon. Thinking of you.

Char

Kari sweetie just reading your post right now brought tears to my eyes.I am so sorry you are feeling the way you are but its also natural to have all these mixed emotions.I just think that sometimes DH's cant stand to see us crying it hurts them so they react in a way that makes them look insensitive but the truth is it kills them to see us crying.I remember the last time I was crying in bed and DH came in he picked me up and held me and kept saying please stop crying please stop crying and he wiped my face and I saw a tear come down his.I then understood that it kills him to see me crying.Every man is different in your case DH was giving you a bit of tough love cause trust me it hurt him to see that one tear come down your face.Try and explain to him that sometimes you need to cry and its only natural.I know he has been there every step of the way but try and explain to him that sometimes you just need to cry and that you need him to hug you and let you cry.In any case sweetie I feel that was the last tear you are going to shed over IF cause I know that BFP is coming.I wish I were there to hug you and I would let you cry and wipe your tears.Sometimes our DH's just cant understand us and its normal so bare with him just like we try and get them they are trying to get us as well.We are harder to understand with all these hormones.Bottom line is you 2 love eachother and soon you will have a baby to prove how much you love eachother.:)Take care and I hope you are feeling better today.I am sending you great big hugs and know how much we love you.

Love ya,

Mapia:angel:

Hi Kari,

I am so happy to hear that your transfer went well. I hope that you are feeling well now that the procedure is done. I am really looking forward to hearing that you've gotten your BFP in a few weeks!!!

I'm sorry that DH was a bit insensitive. I agree with Mapia - I really think that our DHs cannot stand to see us hurting, but that they are also very different than us and deal with things differently. When I was going through a rough time last month I was so sad and upset and DH finally ended up yelling at me to tell me I'd better snap out of it. Truth was, although I was upset I had never let out a really big cry and when I finally let him know that, he understood a little better. This is all such an emotional process and we all deal with things in our own way. I hope that you are doing better today, and I really feel that your BFP is just around the corner! Hang in there!

Love, Kelley

Hi Kari sweetie. I'm so sorry that your DH made that insensitive comment yesterday. It definitely wasn't what you needed to hear at the moment. I agree w/ all the other girls that sometimes our DHs/BFs just don't have a clue how to react to our emotions. But they definitely still love us. I hope you are feeling much better today. You are another day closer to that beautiful bfp.

Holly

Oh Kari, I hope you are feeling better now. You know, dont worry about the quality, I have heard so many cases where lesser quality ones stick and perfect dont. Its all more of a gamble with this thing. You know what, the fragmented embryos usually dont survive the thaw, but your boys sure did, that shows that they are strong. And they will grow, stay positive.
Baby dust***********
Mady

Oh Kari, my dear. I am so sorry that DH said that comment. I know exactly how it feels--your DH and my DH, they are very similar. it hurts them to see us cry, and they show it by giving us tough love. I think Dh was trying to be supportive by telling you be positive and that everything will be okay, but it didn't come out liek that. My DH is the same way--- you're not a rock, dearest, you're a woman, and we have an ocean of emotions, feeling and sensitivity. Men can't comprehend that, or at least not to the extent that we can. He loves you so much kari, I know it hurts him to see you cry. He wants a baby just as much as you do, and maybe he snapped a bit because he was shocked that there wasn't a 8 celled either, like you were. But you know what? I still have a really good feelign about this cycle. They survived the thaw and made it close to the ideal 8. They're still very strong, they're fighters.
I wish I could give you a hug right now, because I know exactly how you feel with DH saying insensitive things liek that. But it will be all right, I swear it will. And if you can't thin positively fo ryourself right now, don't worry, because all of us here are helping you with that. :angel:
Get some rest now, and try your best to get your mind off of this. Watch a soap opera, thei problems always make ours SO much smaller ;)

***********babydust************

oh girls thank u so much for trying to cheer me up. Things def got worse last nite as I continued to feel sick and DH continued to get upset with me. I felt scared and guilty that I was crying cause I didn't think my embryos would like that. And to make me "feel" better, I would tell myself that they prob weren't gonna stick anyway cause afterall if a 6 and 8 cell didn't stick last time how could a 6 and 5 cell stick this time. And of course having thought that I just cried more. This morning DH came out and gave me a kiss and told me it would be okay... Just like I had been begging him to do yesterday. So the morning was a bit better except I woke with those icky stomach pains like I had a few weeks ago when I went to the emergency room. I called my NP and she said it was ok to take the medicine I was prescribed and I already feel better from it. I also told her I was worried about my embies and she said we can't change it and you never know what can happen. She said she has seen lots of C grade embies result in pregnancy.

Mady, that made me feel better when u said that fragmented embies usually don't survive thaws and it shows strength since mine did. I hope they can keep fighting.

Mapia can u have your DH talk to mine and tell him that a girl just needs a hug and tender love when she is sad? :) Sounds like most ladies here have DH's like mine that dont respond well to tears. (Princess, i had a feeling u would understand.)

Well I am going to keep laying on this couch like I was told to do... If there is a chance these embies could continue to grow and stick I gotta try and help them out, right? :)

Kari,

I hope that you are feeling better and that you've been able to stay off your feet and relax! Have you been watching movies or reading to keep yourself occupied? I'm glad that DH was a bit more attentive this morning - I really think that most men just can't even comprehend how we think/feel. Even after explaining to my DH he got better for a while, and now when I start getting blue I can tell he's biting his lip sometimes.
Hang in there and try to relax as much as you can! Your embies are holding on tight!!!

We're all thinking of you!

Kelley

Kari, I am so glad that DH came around and was more sweet to you this morning. I think he just needed some time to think about what you needed. But I'm glad there is less tension now.

Enjoy your time relaxing, watch lots of movies!! And you tell those little ones to hold on tight, because they will be so loved and adored. And you get your rest! Let Dh spoil you for awhile. :)

**********babydust*************

Hi Kari so glad your DH gave you a sweet kiss this morning.He loves you so much and he does hurt but he is a man and they dont know how to react at times its normal sweetie.My DH really is an exception he is so sensitive.This morning I was asleep and he kissed my face before he went to work it was so sweet.He says he kisses me every morning I just dont feel him cause I am sound asleep.:D As for those embies I think its usually the ones we think wont make it that do.Please dont get ahead of yourself sweetie try and stay calm so they can cuddle up inside you.Like you said they survived the thaw so they are tough little embies.
I am sorry you werent feeling so well but glad you could take the medicine and it helped.Please get some rest and try to relax know we are here for you.Sending you great big hugs.

Love ya,

Mapia

Hey Kelley, yes I have been staying off my feet completely except to brush my teeth or use the restroom :) I must give DH credit on this one... He is like the ultimate enforcer of the bedrest rule!:D I have watched a couple of lighthearted movies and a whole lot of tv!

Princess I totally thoght of you when I moved from the bedroom to the couch in the greatroom this morning. Our kitchen, which is adjacent to the greatroom, is a DISASTER! I appreciate that DH has made me my meals but seriously not ONE dish made it into the sink much less the dishwasher! :D Isn't it your DH that also makes a mess when let loose in the kitchen???

Mapia I love that your DH gives u a kiss each morning while u are still asleep! How sweet!!! A gem that one really he is! I am taking your advice and staying calm today. Thankfully I feel totally better so I don't have to stress about being sick. I think DH and I both just switched our tone and decided to give 100 percent of our hope and faith to those little embies in my tummy. I hope u are right and these darlings can somehow can pull it off. :angel:

Kari that is so sweet of your DH I am glad he put his foot down and made you stay on bedrest......Now if I saw dishes I would get up and do them I am a little bit of a freak when it comes to things like that...............lol.DH really gets annoyed with me at times cause I always want things in their place.I know that will change when I have a little one always making a mess....lol.DH is a sweetheart he is such a big baby loves hugs and kisses its so cute.But likewise I kiss him at night since he goes to bed early I go in and kiss his face to.We all have great DH's every man is different at showing his emotions.My DH just can not hide his at times he has cried in front of me which I think is great I dont see anything wrong when you are hurting to cry.Now its only happened once or twice and more like tears not crying.He can be so sensitive sometimes and takes things to heart.He is so innocent and honest that he thinks everyone is like him.So when someone lies or hurts him he takes it to heart.He knows the world can be mean but when someone close to him hurts him like his parents he really takes it to heart.Anyway sweetie I am so glad you are getting your spirits up.We are here to pick you up and remind you that a baby is a miracle even a perfect embie needs a miracle to make it.We all agree those embies inside you are tough so just stay calm for them.Stay tough my girl and keep that sweet face happy.Enjoy your evening and hope you are feeling better real soon.Big warm hugs your way sweetie.

Love ya,

Mapia

Mapia, my favorite nite owl! I know it must be late there... No wonder u are slleeping in the morning when DH heads off to work!;) Yes I am like u... It is taking all my restraint not to get up and do the dishes!:D Hey how did it go with your godson and the bloodwork today? I am still making my way thru the threads today... I am a bit slower on the I-phone! I hope it went okay... Poor little guy!

Hi Kari! Just checking in before I start getting ready for bed... I'm glad that you've been resting - I hope that you have a lot of things around to keep you occupied! I'm glad DH is a good 'bedrest enforcer'! Those embies are tough and are working hard!! Forgive me, as I don't know a lot about the IVF procedure - how long do you have to be off of your feet after the transfer? How often are you followed over the next couple weeks?

I hope that you and DH are having a great night and that your weekend is peaceful!

Love, Kelley :)

Hey Kari well I am glad you arent getting up to do any dishes.Well thanks for asking godsons b/w is all normal so just a bad case of jealousy.Today his grandma picked him up from daycare and he went to her house took a nap and when he woke she got him to eat a little.After she said ok do you want me to take you to mommy and he said no.BF was so upset and hurt but she went there around 9 this evening and convinced him finally to come home with her.Its getting worse I mean he always wants to be home with his mommy.Tomorrow is his bday so I am hoping he will enjoy his party.He is starting to worry me.Yesturday I was there BF gave me the baby so she can try and feed him he kept looking at me so sad.I said come to godmom so I can hug you and kiss you dont you know you are godmoms big boy.He dident come :(.Its so sad cause they do give him attention but boy he is really sad.I am hoping BF will go to the childs psycologist.Well it is late here my cousin is home for the weekend from college so she was here and we talked for many hours.I am about to turn in cause tomorrow will be a busy day I will go help BF get ready for the party.Well sweetie take care and stay strong.

Love ya,

Mapia:)

Hey Kelley, you know each RE is a bit different with bed rest recommendations. I was told strict bedrest for three days, but I have heard some just say day of transfer. I figure better safe then sorry so I am staying put! Glad you popped in before heading off to bed... Kinda funny... Three girls formerly from MD sharing a late nite chat! Hope you sleep well tonite... Take good care of those growing follies!

Oh Mapia what mixed feelings you all must be having. Such joy that the bloodwork shows nothing more serious but wow this sure sounds like a very bad case of jealousy. I sure do hope they take godson to a child psycologist if it doesn't get better. Seeing her child like this for too long could really take a toll on your BF.... And u for that matter.... I know jow much u love tjose children yourself. Well sleep well my friend. I hope tomorrow is a wonderful day for godson!!!

I would definately go with what your RE said... better to be safe. Rest as much as you can!! :)

Mapia - Are you still up?? You really are a night owl!!!

Okay, seriously, I'm really going to log off this time and go to bed soon so I don't get sick! :D Talk to you tomorrow!

Kelley

Hi Kari!

How are you?

I know i am late posting but I still wanted to check in with you. I am so happy 3 embryos survived the thaw. That is testament to their strength. and remember, they don't have to be 8 cell to implant. all it takes is one to find its way and snuggle down. and then it will continue to grow and divide and will be 8 cell overnight. this will happen for you. not everyone has "perfect" embryos, and sometimes the perfect ones don't make it and the unusual ones do. so please don't give up hope.

now let me tell you a story about my DH and his one insensitive moment and how he'll never be insensitive about IF again because he learned his lesson. back in the beginning, way way back years ago when we were first trying and hadn't gotten to IUI or IVF, AF showed the day we were leaving for Jamaica for my 30th birthday trip. I came out of the bathroom hysterical, because of course here i was turning 30 and had been using opk's and thought that they would fix everything. i was so naive. so DH was sitting on the bed and i went over to him and put my head on his shoulder and was crying. and when i finally lifted my head some snot had come out of my nose and got on his shirt. he yelled at me for getting snot on his shirt. i could not believe my ears. so then my temper came out, and i just totally freaked out on him. like a screaming banshee. i threatened him saying if he didn't want this baby as much as me then there would be no more sex, that we might as well split up if his heart wasn't in it, etc. of course i didn't mean any of it but i wanted to hurt his feelings like he did to me. well after that episode he never ever did anything so ridiculous regarding IF. i think i scared the crap out of him. and many times after that when my IUI's and IVF failed i cried on his shoulder, snot and all, and he never said a word. now i am not saying you should behave badly like me, but i just wanted you to know that even people as gentle and sweet as my DH can sometimes say the worst things to us. But if you hit your DH with a frying pan over the head i wouldn't have blamed you:D

My thoughts are with you. Please take care and rest so those embies can make their home.

Hi CBB! You know I am starting to get more comfortable with my embryos each day... For once the online research I did made me feel better... Doctors have seen four celled embryos implant and make beautiful babies so why can't mine?! And even if I dont get preggers this time I have resolved to stay positive and not feel sorry for myself. I am blessed in too many other ways and baby is sure to happen soon!

Thank you for sharing your story too... I am glad you handled your DH's comment the way you did! And I am even happier DH learned from it and never forgot! My DH is quite a bit different... I have never been able to go off on him... Even if he is in the wrong he will just come back way harder and louder when in the moment. Even though he usually will come around and apologize (thank goodness time is usually all it takes for him to see the light!) I just cant take the yelling and confrontation so I bite my tongue as often as possible. To say I am the submissive one on the realationship is an understatement!:) Thankfully he spends most of his time entertaining me with his goofy sense of humor and I do love how he makes me laugh!

Well one more day here on the couch. Can't wait to get up tomoorow and be productive! Until then I sit here and anxiuosly look for cramping or any other sign of implantation! (of course there is none!) Hope you are having a great weekend!!!

Hi Kari just got back from godson bday party and wanted to check on my girl.It was a nice day we took him shopping this morning and he was such an angel but he was pretty quiet which is not like him.I think he liked the time he had alone with us and not with his baby sister...........lol.The party was nice he enjoyed himself so much with the other kids played wrestled and was his normal self.Even ate a little bit which is great.The baby was so adorable to BF had her dressed up in a dress and stockings and a bow in her hair OMG she was so cute.Took some nice pictures.The funny thing was people were holding her she was getting fussy so finally they handed her to me and in a matter of minutes I had rocked her to sleep on my chest.Everyone was like my god she wanted her godmom I mean right away she slept.Of course cause I see her almost every day and she knows my scent.Anyway all in all it was great.I am just glad godson had a great time.So I see you are doing better and glad DH entertained you.Did he do any goofy dances to make you laugh...........lol.Thats my girl keep positive sweetie.Maybe tomorrow you and DH can go out to a movie or dinner get out of the house a bit.Have a great night sweetie.

Mapia

I am so glad little godson enjoyed his b-day party! I bet having a bunch of people there helped keep him distracted from his jealousy... and who knows, maybe just having the celebration focusing on him will help him snap out of this icky phase! Little goddaughter sounds so precious. I just love that relationship you've developed with her. Not that we need any more proof that you are going to be a fabulous mother one day, but the way she responds to you is a very strong indicator of the beautiful bond you will easily form with your own child. My indicator, on the other hand, is my big pooch. :D He follows me wherever I go and I can see in his eyes that he loves me as much as I love him (well almost! I constantly tell him he can't love me as much as I love him ;)). He is laying on the couch next to me as I type! Always keeping me company... what a great dog. Have you talked to your mom lately? Is she taking good care of your doggie back home?

DH has been really good to me today... went out earlier to the apothecary to refill my estradiol and progesterone prescriptions. Stopped and got me a hot vanilla from Coffee Bean on the way home. It's my favorite treat! And with soy milk, it tastes SO good! No dancing from him today, but I he did attempt a couple high kicks as he skipped over to the IPod speaker not long ago :D... he set me up with a little music and some candles while I play on the computer and read magazines! :)

Hi Kari,

I am glad that you are feeling well and that you'll be able to get up soon!! You and DH should go out and do something special! I will be thinking about you these next couple weeks!

Kelley

Oh Kari how sweet your doggie sounds.Dogs are so awesome they love us no matter what.I feel so bad cause I feel like I just left my doggie but mom takes good care of her.She got another on of her ear infections my mom told me so she took her to the vet.SHe was telling how the vet couldent believe she is 17 yrs old and is in such good condition and then the vet told my mom she must be so loved to be in such good health.She really is loved and my mom will go nuts when she passes cause she is moms company :(.We will all go nuts when she passes I mean 17 yrs with the family is a lifetime.Oh well I hate thinking about it.

I forgot to tell you one thing when we got back from shopping godson walked over to his sister who was laying in her little chair and stroked her head and leaned over and kissed her on the head.I wanted to cry BF missed the whole thing I told her and she almost cried to.OMG it was so precious I wish I had a picture of that.Kari thanks for your kind words I really love my godkids and I know when we all have our babies we will be the best mothers.

That was so sweet of DH I am sure he is feeling a little guilty about what happened during FET.Like I have said we all have some great DH's that take good care of us.Take good care.

Mapia

Oh Mapia, I wish your BF could have seen godson kiss his baby sister like that!!!! I am so glad it was you who saw it and was able to tell her all about it! As for your pooch, 17yrs is so impressive. My boy turned ten last month... Good for a big dog! You know what's ironic? I took him to the vet on Tues cause of bad ear infections! He is responding wells to the meds. I know little babies are suseptible to ear infections so I guess this is just a small taste of what could be to come when we are raising our children.

Kelley I think I just may have DH take me to dinner tomorrow. He is going to a concert to see his favorite band and it would be fun if we could go out for food then I could drop him off!

So I was just reading a magazine and even tho I don't believe horoscopes I gotta read em for fun. :) Well mine said good things, but then in bold it said I needed to keep a cool head, go w/ the flow, and there would be reason for me to roar with pleasure by the 18th. Well beta is on the 18th, so you can only imagine how cool it was reading that!!!! :DI know those horoscope things are silly but this one definitely made me feel pretty good!

Kari, I'm so glad DH is being a sweety! You're deserving it as I'm sure a few days on the couch can be maddening. And I'm so glad you're feeling better about the embies. I'm sure they're just coming up with their plan of action, where and when to implant!!! And although I agree horoscopes can be silly...but that one sure sounds right on!!! I'm betting that magazine horoscope writer knows something you don't!

Have a good rest of the weekend! - April

Hey Kari looks like we both have 2 pretty old doggies.It is ironic about the ear infection.She would never get them up until she got old its allergies the vet had told me.I mean she gets ear infections due to her allergies.Well I was one of those kids with bad ear infections got tubes in my ears and even have to have surgery:(.I have to say its funny how we look for all kinds of signs to hold onto.I guess reading horescopes gives us all a little hope at times.I really pray you will have incredible news on the 18th.Hope you are sleeping tight.Have a wonderful Sunday.

Mapia

Hey Kari!

I just have to say, dogs are the best :). My dog is a bit younger (she's 3), and DH and I always say how we wish she could stay young forever. We love her more than anything. She's so cute!

As for your horrorscope, I don't read them that often either, but that is just too cool that it said you'd have something to roar about by the Jan 18th!!! Now you have me way too excited!! I can hardly wait!!!

I hope you get to go out to dinner tonight! You deserve some time out - you've done so good staying off your feet! Enjoy your day!

:) Kelley

Hi Kari!

Wanted to check in w/ you and see how your weekend went. Sounds like you did great w/ the bedrest and you will be getting back on your feet today, right? I'm glad your DH took such good care of you this weekend. You definitely deserve it. I'm a huge dog lover too. Don't know what I would do w/o my furbaby. BF and I are even talking about getting a new puppy soon. :)

Well, only 8 more days until BETA. You're practically halfway there. And by the sounds of your horoscope, that bfp is surely coming. I don't really read them either, but I really liked the sound of yours, so I am choosing to believe it! ;)

Have a great day, my friend!!

Holly

Hi Kari! I just wanted to say hi! :D

I think that's great abotu your horoscope! I'm kind of flippy when it comes to horoscopes---when it's bad, I say that whatever, it's nothing. But if it's good, I print it out and post it up! :D But my point is, when I do believe it, it usually happens. So I'm going to go ahead and believe that you'll be delighted on the 18th!! :D I can't believe it's only 8 more days!! :D

I don't have a dog, but I have a cat--- and I love my little ittle wittle itty bitty Wocky!! (His name's Rocky, but I baby talk him) When we go away, we don't have anyone for him to stay with--- the vet he'd be fine on his own as long as someone can drop by and feed him-----but we were worried he'd get lonely. So we literally spent 1500.00$ on a place that will take him, and take care fo him. Not just feeding him, but cuddling him, playing with him and everything. They even wrote down the littl enames we call him so he feels more at home! LOL-- what woudl we do withotu our furbabies???

Only 8 more days!! Its gettign closer! :D I'm sure those little ones are busy snuggling iin and holding on tight tight tight!! :D

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