CancerChick
12-07-2007, 11:37 AM
I'm off for #2 shortly. Three grueling days of chemo with the same schedule I had last time. I'm starting to really hate this. I've had a few "good days" and was able to decorate my house a little for Christmas. I'm trying so hard to get in the spirit but it's hard. I can't seem to get out of my head that I can't beat this. My memories of my mom are so strong right now and I'd do anything to have her here with me. :angel:
Linda I can feel the sadness in your voice on the other thread. I wish I could give you a hug too and take away some of your sadness. I'm sure your Don was just as handsome as a youth as he was as an adult. Just remember Linda he is at peace now and with God. There's no greater joy in that and I can't wait for the day I'm with God and my mom. :angel:
Singer please don't fret over gall bladder problems. After what you've been through this is a piece of cake. But I know you, you'll worry and worry and that's no good for gall bladder problems. :(
I have to get going. I'll probably be in the hospital until Monday this time. And I have to give myself shots for a week again. But good news is, I guess, is that my one "good" week will be Christmas week. I'm going to try to enjoy it as much as I can. I even bought my cat his presents the other day. :D
Take care everyone and remember the reason for the season. :angel:
Luv and hugs,
Kayla
Linda I can feel the sadness in your voice on the other thread. I wish I could give you a hug too and take away some of your sadness. I'm sure your Don was just as handsome as a youth as he was as an adult. Just remember Linda he is at peace now and with God. There's no greater joy in that and I can't wait for the day I'm with God and my mom. :angel:
Singer please don't fret over gall bladder problems. After what you've been through this is a piece of cake. But I know you, you'll worry and worry and that's no good for gall bladder problems. :(
I have to get going. I'll probably be in the hospital until Monday this time. And I have to give myself shots for a week again. But good news is, I guess, is that my one "good" week will be Christmas week. I'm going to try to enjoy it as much as I can. I even bought my cat his presents the other day. :D
Take care everyone and remember the reason for the season. :angel:
Luv and hugs,
Kayla
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singer78
12-07-2007, 02:52 PM
Kayla,
Almost 4 days in the hospital?
Oh Dear....
I can only imagine how you're feeling.
The good news is, it won't last forever & one day, soon, you'll hear some good news, like me. Like Linda said, it's good having someone there (nurses) to help you through this chemo. It sounds very rough....but, remember, you're counting down......
My heart aches for you, every time you mention missing your mother.
To have lost her at such a young age, has to be devastating. No one can take the place of your mother....and you're so courageous to handle all of this, like you are.
You're quite amazing, young lady. I can only imagine, when you're well, what the future holds for you. You'll be literally unstoppable!
I'm sorry I'm getting the reputation of being the "worrier" here.
I guess I have a tendency to write everything out I'm feeling---then sometimes regret it. That's me---"stick your foot in your mouth" Singer.
Linda, yes, you've painted a wonderful uplifting picture of Don to us all.
I can only equate your feeling to how I felt, after losing my beloved sister, and I was so numb. We lost her in August, and the following holidays were very, very difficult. Your attitude of gratitude, for having our loved one's in our lives as long as we did, is so commendable. You're amazing, too. You're all my beloved teachers. All of you.
Kayla, hopefully by the time you read this, you will be home & have one more "down."
I'm glad your week off, is Xmas week.
How sweet you bought gifts for your kitty. I'm sure he'll (or she?) appreciate them.
We certainly spoil our pets. Mine live a "charmed life," too.
Please let us know when you return & how you're feeling.
love you.
XO
Almost 4 days in the hospital?
Oh Dear....
I can only imagine how you're feeling.
The good news is, it won't last forever & one day, soon, you'll hear some good news, like me. Like Linda said, it's good having someone there (nurses) to help you through this chemo. It sounds very rough....but, remember, you're counting down......
My heart aches for you, every time you mention missing your mother.
To have lost her at such a young age, has to be devastating. No one can take the place of your mother....and you're so courageous to handle all of this, like you are.
You're quite amazing, young lady. I can only imagine, when you're well, what the future holds for you. You'll be literally unstoppable!
I'm sorry I'm getting the reputation of being the "worrier" here.
I guess I have a tendency to write everything out I'm feeling---then sometimes regret it. That's me---"stick your foot in your mouth" Singer.
Linda, yes, you've painted a wonderful uplifting picture of Don to us all.
I can only equate your feeling to how I felt, after losing my beloved sister, and I was so numb. We lost her in August, and the following holidays were very, very difficult. Your attitude of gratitude, for having our loved one's in our lives as long as we did, is so commendable. You're amazing, too. You're all my beloved teachers. All of you.
Kayla, hopefully by the time you read this, you will be home & have one more "down."
I'm glad your week off, is Xmas week.
How sweet you bought gifts for your kitty. I'm sure he'll (or she?) appreciate them.
We certainly spoil our pets. Mine live a "charmed life," too.
Please let us know when you return & how you're feeling.
love you.
XO
LINDA505
12-09-2007, 01:41 PM
Dear kayla, I found you here to late to post. I wish I knew where you lived and I would drive there to see you and hold your hand as your mom would if she were here. I can not stop thinking of how unfair life seems sometimes. To have a wonderful young women who loves her family so much and she loses them. Then we have others who have a family and they do not care or want them....life is strange like that. I still have to find a way to understand
what God's plan is. I hope that his plan for you is to find your good health again and to live a great life. I can not imagine that he doesn't want you to be whole and well again. You are so kind and caring and you feel others pain when you have your own burden to bear. You are selfless. I want only the best for you so I hope that when you are out of the hospital that you can find your strength and enjoy some of Christmas.
I am lucky to have a great family and I would love that you are a part of it even if it is on the internet.
Love,
LiNDA
HAPPY HOMECOMING...............KAYLA
what God's plan is. I hope that his plan for you is to find your good health again and to live a great life. I can not imagine that he doesn't want you to be whole and well again. You are so kind and caring and you feel others pain when you have your own burden to bear. You are selfless. I want only the best for you so I hope that when you are out of the hospital that you can find your strength and enjoy some of Christmas.
I am lucky to have a great family and I would love that you are a part of it even if it is on the internet.
Love,
LiNDA
HAPPY HOMECOMING...............KAYLA
CancerChick
12-10-2007, 11:22 PM
Home sweet home again. Actually I got home around 5:30 but fell asleep on the sofa with my kitty sleeping right next to me. I'm utterly exhausted and not feeling the bes with nausea so I'll be back in the morning to read some posts.
My kitty missed me and oh how I missed him. And I've missed all my friends here too. :angel:
My own bed awaits and my kitty awaits so nite nite from me to you :D
My kitty missed me and oh how I missed him. And I've missed all my friends here too. :angel:
My own bed awaits and my kitty awaits so nite nite from me to you :D
singer78
12-11-2007, 12:51 AM
So wonderful to hear from you!
"There's no place like home." Didn't Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz say that?
I know....it's so true.
I'm glad you're home with your kitty, too.
Hopefully you're having sweet dreams right now & can post a little, when you're feeling better.
Welcome home, sweetie.
Singer :)
"There's no place like home." Didn't Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz say that?
I know....it's so true.
I'm glad you're home with your kitty, too.
Hopefully you're having sweet dreams right now & can post a little, when you're feeling better.
Welcome home, sweetie.
Singer :)
LINDA505
12-11-2007, 11:21 AM
Welcome Home Kayla.......hope you slept well...post when you can.
love
Linda
love
Linda
singer78
12-13-2007, 03:55 PM
Kayla,
Just wondering how you're doing.
I'm assuming you're home and convelescing.
I wasn't around for a few days---doing my usual freaking-out...
But, I'm here & praying you're doing well.
Hopefully, we'll hear from you soon, that you're doing o.k., mentally & physically.
Remember---we care about you. :angel:
S.
Just wondering how you're doing.
I'm assuming you're home and convelescing.
I wasn't around for a few days---doing my usual freaking-out...
But, I'm here & praying you're doing well.
Hopefully, we'll hear from you soon, that you're doing o.k., mentally & physically.
Remember---we care about you. :angel:
S.
singer78
12-14-2007, 10:21 PM
Just checking again, Kayla.
Hope you're on the mend.
Post when you can.
I'd love to hear how you're doing. I'm sure I speak for quite a few of "us" here.
XO, S.
Hope you're on the mend.
Post when you can.
I'd love to hear how you're doing. I'm sure I speak for quite a few of "us" here.
XO, S.
CancerChick
12-16-2007, 02:42 PM
Back again, weak and tired. Wednesday my temp went up to 102 and I went to the ER like they told me to. My WBCs were only .2 or something and I was severely dehydrated again. I tried so hard to drink fluids but I guess it wasn't enough. :( I had those horrible shots every day and I have to give them to myself for 3 more days. Gosh I hate them. I hate to even walk because my hips hurt so bad I could scream.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now and I hope and pray that all this is doing some good. I have one Christmas wish and that is to see and feel my mom again. I never knew the holidays were going to be this bad. That's so sweet Linda and Singer saying you're my surrogate mother. :angel: My mother was my friend and I just have this emptiness inside for her. If she was here we'd be shopping and baking and singing carols. But there's just this emptiness and quiet.
Singer I'm so sorry you've been through so much with worry but it looks like you're on the upswing again. We didn't get the N'easter snow we were supposed to get. Just wind and rain.
Linda I can only imagine how things are for you but I hope that being with your dad will bring back good memories, memories to cherish and hold. :angel:
My kitty needs me again. Poor thing I keep leaving him. I told him today put your paws together and pray that I will only need to be in the hospital one more time, Rice #3.
Home sweet home and does it ever feel good. I can't wait to be in my own bed with kitty sleeping in the crook of my legs.
Kayla
I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now and I hope and pray that all this is doing some good. I have one Christmas wish and that is to see and feel my mom again. I never knew the holidays were going to be this bad. That's so sweet Linda and Singer saying you're my surrogate mother. :angel: My mother was my friend and I just have this emptiness inside for her. If she was here we'd be shopping and baking and singing carols. But there's just this emptiness and quiet.
Singer I'm so sorry you've been through so much with worry but it looks like you're on the upswing again. We didn't get the N'easter snow we were supposed to get. Just wind and rain.
Linda I can only imagine how things are for you but I hope that being with your dad will bring back good memories, memories to cherish and hold. :angel:
My kitty needs me again. Poor thing I keep leaving him. I told him today put your paws together and pray that I will only need to be in the hospital one more time, Rice #3.
Home sweet home and does it ever feel good. I can't wait to be in my own bed with kitty sleeping in the crook of my legs.
Kayla
singer78
12-16-2007, 03:34 PM
Kayla,
If I could give you some loving comfort with just "words" on this screen, I would.
I know you know we (on the forum) all long for good health for you, and when I read how much you miss your mom, it's hurts. We all lose loved one's. That's just "the plan." It's especially hard when you lose someone so young. I'm so sorry.
One thing that having this disease did for me, was to face my own mortality.
---something that I never even really thought about, until it smacked me in the face.
I've read it over & over on here and other places, that when disease strikes, it changes you forever. It certainly does. When you're well, (and it WILL happen) I suggest you look into some sort of support group that deals with grieving. I thought about it, when I lost my sister. It's been 8 years since I lost her, and when I spoke about her to the psychologist, I cried. It was as if it were yesterday. She was like a "mom" to me & I guess I didn't realize how much of an impact her death had on me & still does. Those special people in our lives, really never leave us...physically, yes...not mentally. They live on & on in our hearts. :angel:
Our mental state has so much to do with our healing.
I can only imagine how hard the "physical" part is for you---it sounds incredibly rough.
I was watching a special on PBS last night about the "brain" and the power of our thoughts. If it's on t.v. in your area, I suggest you watch it. When you're "happy," it changes your body chemistry, too. We're all like a big computer---this connected to that---that connected to this...
I just want to try to help you be positive at this difficult time & focus really hard on healing.
I'm still fighting my demons, too...especially now that I know I'm not completely "out of the woods." It will be a fight for awhile...but, I'm trying so hard to be positive & to put everything in perspective.
My psychologist tells me to turn everything "around." Like when I told her every morning, my port reminds me I'm "ill," ---She said, "Don't look at it that way. Think of it as a Life-Line." Which, really it was and is. All those chemicals and drugs in you, are really giving you "life," even though I know they certainly take their toll on you. I'm slowly learning to turn-around my negative thoughts--something I've needed to do all my life.
I love that you find comfort in the "little" things...like your beloved kitty....your own bed.
You'll get through this, Kayla.
I'm so proud of you, as I know Linda and many other's are.
Maybe, just maybe there's a special way of eventually finding out how to meet/reach you--I don't know... God works in mysterious ways.
I just wanted to give you a little "pep" talk.
We're having a Winter Wonderland right now & it's beautiful, although dangerous.
Stay strong, stay warm, stay positive, stay sweet & please stay in touch. :)
Talk soon...
Love you lots!
Singer
If I could give you some loving comfort with just "words" on this screen, I would.
I know you know we (on the forum) all long for good health for you, and when I read how much you miss your mom, it's hurts. We all lose loved one's. That's just "the plan." It's especially hard when you lose someone so young. I'm so sorry.
One thing that having this disease did for me, was to face my own mortality.
---something that I never even really thought about, until it smacked me in the face.
I've read it over & over on here and other places, that when disease strikes, it changes you forever. It certainly does. When you're well, (and it WILL happen) I suggest you look into some sort of support group that deals with grieving. I thought about it, when I lost my sister. It's been 8 years since I lost her, and when I spoke about her to the psychologist, I cried. It was as if it were yesterday. She was like a "mom" to me & I guess I didn't realize how much of an impact her death had on me & still does. Those special people in our lives, really never leave us...physically, yes...not mentally. They live on & on in our hearts. :angel:
Our mental state has so much to do with our healing.
I can only imagine how hard the "physical" part is for you---it sounds incredibly rough.
I was watching a special on PBS last night about the "brain" and the power of our thoughts. If it's on t.v. in your area, I suggest you watch it. When you're "happy," it changes your body chemistry, too. We're all like a big computer---this connected to that---that connected to this...
I just want to try to help you be positive at this difficult time & focus really hard on healing.
I'm still fighting my demons, too...especially now that I know I'm not completely "out of the woods." It will be a fight for awhile...but, I'm trying so hard to be positive & to put everything in perspective.
My psychologist tells me to turn everything "around." Like when I told her every morning, my port reminds me I'm "ill," ---She said, "Don't look at it that way. Think of it as a Life-Line." Which, really it was and is. All those chemicals and drugs in you, are really giving you "life," even though I know they certainly take their toll on you. I'm slowly learning to turn-around my negative thoughts--something I've needed to do all my life.
I love that you find comfort in the "little" things...like your beloved kitty....your own bed.
You'll get through this, Kayla.
I'm so proud of you, as I know Linda and many other's are.
Maybe, just maybe there's a special way of eventually finding out how to meet/reach you--I don't know... God works in mysterious ways.
I just wanted to give you a little "pep" talk.
We're having a Winter Wonderland right now & it's beautiful, although dangerous.
Stay strong, stay warm, stay positive, stay sweet & please stay in touch. :)
Talk soon...
Love you lots!
Singer
CancerChick
12-16-2007, 08:45 PM
Thanks for the pep talk Singer. I'm so sorry I said what I said. But sometimes I wear my heart on my sleeve and right now it's broken. I've heard many times on here that I have to keep a positive attitude and the chemo nurses tell me to. So I'm trying, I really am. It's just this elephant is sitting in the corner blaring his trumpet and won't leave. I know I need help about losing my mom, my rock. And the holidays are just so empty without her.
I'm tired Singer, physically and emotionally. It's hard to describe how I feel but it's a weariness I never had before.
I'd better get off here before I lose this post. We're having high winds and I've lost power twice already and my heat has gone off and it's not warm yet so I need to snuggle with my kitty. :)
Kayla
I'm tired Singer, physically and emotionally. It's hard to describe how I feel but it's a weariness I never had before.
I'd better get off here before I lose this post. We're having high winds and I've lost power twice already and my heat has gone off and it's not warm yet so I need to snuggle with my kitty. :)
Kayla
singer78
12-16-2007, 10:40 PM
Kayla,
Believe me...I can relate to some of what you're saying. I was getting a pretty severe bout of depression near the end of my treatment.
Fortunately for me, I didn't have as many setbacks as you've had, but I know the depths of despair you're talking about. That's one reason I sought out a psychiatrist. She was too clinical for me, but the psychologist is helping a lot more. Of course, I needed some med's to get me started, but I was sinking deep there for awhile. I totally believe the chemo changes your brain chemistry to a degree, too. It's some strong stuff.
I can only imagine how difficult the holidays are for you. Just keep focusing on what Christmas is really all about---not the hoopla that surrounds it. It's become so superficial, hasn't it? I can't believe they start selling Xmas stuff right after Halloween now.
So, do you still have Xmas week off?
If so, surround yourself with warm "fuzzies."
Like, hot chocolate mix, some happy movies, good books--maybe buy some catnip for your kitty and watch him freak. I give my kitty's some as a special treat every now & then. They're so fun to watch. They bop each other on the head, until they tire-- it's cute.
How many more chemo's to go?
You're counting down, right?
Just want you to know, I'm here for you, whenever you want to "wear your heart on your sleeve." That's perfectly fine. You have every right to vent.
Later, love, S.
Believe me...I can relate to some of what you're saying. I was getting a pretty severe bout of depression near the end of my treatment.
Fortunately for me, I didn't have as many setbacks as you've had, but I know the depths of despair you're talking about. That's one reason I sought out a psychiatrist. She was too clinical for me, but the psychologist is helping a lot more. Of course, I needed some med's to get me started, but I was sinking deep there for awhile. I totally believe the chemo changes your brain chemistry to a degree, too. It's some strong stuff.
I can only imagine how difficult the holidays are for you. Just keep focusing on what Christmas is really all about---not the hoopla that surrounds it. It's become so superficial, hasn't it? I can't believe they start selling Xmas stuff right after Halloween now.
So, do you still have Xmas week off?
If so, surround yourself with warm "fuzzies."
Like, hot chocolate mix, some happy movies, good books--maybe buy some catnip for your kitty and watch him freak. I give my kitty's some as a special treat every now & then. They're so fun to watch. They bop each other on the head, until they tire-- it's cute.
How many more chemo's to go?
You're counting down, right?
Just want you to know, I'm here for you, whenever you want to "wear your heart on your sleeve." That's perfectly fine. You have every right to vent.
Later, love, S.
LINDA505
12-17-2007, 04:40 PM
Dear Kayla,
My heart aches for you....so many things that can make your heart hurt in dealing with illness and your loss. I never thought I would survive the loss of my mother....she was my best friend. We did everything together and I always felt her love for me. I wanted to die when she passed but I talked with her about death when she got cancer and she said what she wanted for me was to be happy and not to stress about everything. I need to live for her and to honor her memory. When Don passed it was devastating, especially knowing how he loved life and what he was willing to do in order to keep living. He always worried about me and how I always worried about my family and wanted for me to just enjoy life and free myself from the things I have no control over. I am trying to do that to honor him as well. I keep myself busy and try not to dwell on the end but on all those great memories that we have shared as a family. I do not know why God takes some people early but he must have a need for them in Heaven. I can not say anything that will change what is. All we can do is pray that God has a plan for you to get well and to enjoy your life in good health. Your mother would want for you to find peace and strength in fighting this disease. I pray that you feel
better and get your strength back. Stay strong and know we care so much about you.
Love
Linda
My heart aches for you....so many things that can make your heart hurt in dealing with illness and your loss. I never thought I would survive the loss of my mother....she was my best friend. We did everything together and I always felt her love for me. I wanted to die when she passed but I talked with her about death when she got cancer and she said what she wanted for me was to be happy and not to stress about everything. I need to live for her and to honor her memory. When Don passed it was devastating, especially knowing how he loved life and what he was willing to do in order to keep living. He always worried about me and how I always worried about my family and wanted for me to just enjoy life and free myself from the things I have no control over. I am trying to do that to honor him as well. I keep myself busy and try not to dwell on the end but on all those great memories that we have shared as a family. I do not know why God takes some people early but he must have a need for them in Heaven. I can not say anything that will change what is. All we can do is pray that God has a plan for you to get well and to enjoy your life in good health. Your mother would want for you to find peace and strength in fighting this disease. I pray that you feel
better and get your strength back. Stay strong and know we care so much about you.
Love
Linda
singer78
12-18-2007, 12:55 AM
I know it's hard for you, too, Linda.
I feel bad for you, both going through the holidays missing your loved one's.
I was just checking to see how you're doing, Kayla.
I actually ate a steak tonight at a Steak House. My first steak in months & months. It was wonderful. I'm trying to build up my iron. I should probably incorporate "liver" in my diet, huh?
Anyway--just checking to see if anyone's talking :)
Hope all is well.
love, S.
I feel bad for you, both going through the holidays missing your loved one's.
I was just checking to see how you're doing, Kayla.
I actually ate a steak tonight at a Steak House. My first steak in months & months. It was wonderful. I'm trying to build up my iron. I should probably incorporate "liver" in my diet, huh?
Anyway--just checking to see if anyone's talking :)
Hope all is well.
love, S.
LINDA505
12-18-2007, 11:17 AM
Yummy...I have been wanting a good steak myself. Yes liver is very good.
Green leafy vegetables excellent. Today is Don's birthday. He would have been 49. I thought 48 but Dad said 49. Dad is flying in here today. We are
all excited. Anyway I hope that Don is watching over Dad on his flight today.
The airport is alittle over a hundred miles away but it is not as bad as going to Dulles in D.C, that is where we usually have to go. Over a 3 hour drive
in a massive amount of traffic cause it is on the outskirts of D.C. Anyho, that
is what the plan is today.
I woke up early this am with heartburn. It is so painful. I ate alot of licorice last night and popcorn. Gee think it was from that???? I am my own worst
enemy.
Next Monday is Christmas Eve already. I am done with the shopping but my
hubby always wait to the last minute with the final stuff.
kAYLA, Please stay strong and fight this with all your might. This is the hardest battle of you life and you can win.
Singer, you were saying something last week about my Madison being small.
He is 8 months old and the size of an average dog. He is so big. He feet are
huge and the vet laughed at his size back in June. She said he is going to be a big boy and she was right. He still has about 6 more months of growth and I can only imagine how big he is going to get. He has so much fur that the undercoat get tangled 2 minutes after I brush him. I have to give him baths
which he loves as he does not like to clean himself that well. He a big baby but we love him so much.
Kayla, I am glad that you have your kitty with you. They give so much comfort, don't they? I was lost when my Pogo died last year. I never thought I could love another kitty as much but I do.
Anyway, I will close for now. It is 22 here and sunny. I love that crisp air
and sun. I want SNOW but it is not in the cards for Christmas here.
Love to you both
Linda
Green leafy vegetables excellent. Today is Don's birthday. He would have been 49. I thought 48 but Dad said 49. Dad is flying in here today. We are
all excited. Anyway I hope that Don is watching over Dad on his flight today.
The airport is alittle over a hundred miles away but it is not as bad as going to Dulles in D.C, that is where we usually have to go. Over a 3 hour drive
in a massive amount of traffic cause it is on the outskirts of D.C. Anyho, that
is what the plan is today.
I woke up early this am with heartburn. It is so painful. I ate alot of licorice last night and popcorn. Gee think it was from that???? I am my own worst
enemy.
Next Monday is Christmas Eve already. I am done with the shopping but my
hubby always wait to the last minute with the final stuff.
kAYLA, Please stay strong and fight this with all your might. This is the hardest battle of you life and you can win.
Singer, you were saying something last week about my Madison being small.
He is 8 months old and the size of an average dog. He is so big. He feet are
huge and the vet laughed at his size back in June. She said he is going to be a big boy and she was right. He still has about 6 more months of growth and I can only imagine how big he is going to get. He has so much fur that the undercoat get tangled 2 minutes after I brush him. I have to give him baths
which he loves as he does not like to clean himself that well. He a big baby but we love him so much.
Kayla, I am glad that you have your kitty with you. They give so much comfort, don't they? I was lost when my Pogo died last year. I never thought I could love another kitty as much but I do.
Anyway, I will close for now. It is 22 here and sunny. I love that crisp air
and sun. I want SNOW but it is not in the cards for Christmas here.
Love to you both
Linda
singer78
12-18-2007, 03:22 PM
Hi you 2.
Linda, you're amazing.
I love how you've managed to stay so focused on the good things in life.
My best friend's--(all thorough high school's) birthday is today, like Don's.
If you follow astrology at all...they're Sagittarian's--very "people-oriented" people.
Unfortunately, she and I had a falling-out over singing.
I used to sing with her, and when the band only wanted me & not her---
well...read between the lines. We were young. We still speak, but don't get to see each other often, and when we do, we fall right back into giddy young girls.
Kayla, haven't heard from you...
Don't get quiet, if you can help it.
We all need one another.
Anyone else that feels like "hopping in," too...I know we have some other "girlfriends" here that like to chat. It's therapy for me.
My sister is coming today from California. It's a double-edged sword, because she's staying with my elderly parents, who have a rough time as it is. She's high-strung, but very lovable, and upsets their routine, to a degree. That's o.k.---I'm sure it will be fine.
I think I'm the reason she's even coming---which is very sweet. I'm so full of gratitude, I could just explode. You'll get there, Kayla---fight, fight, fight.
One day, we'll log on here, and you'll have the most exciting news of your life.
Focus on that--- What rejoicing there will be !!!!
I have a dentist appt. in a bit. They wouldn't work on my cavity, until I was done with radiation. I'm still worried about the GI Specialist, but the fact they haven't even called yet, is telling me I'm pretty low-priority....that's a whew. I know it's not over, though..but, it's nice to have a reprieve.
Gotta run.
I don't like dentists, but we all need our teeth, don't we??? I hope it's not an "owie."
love, S.
Linda, you're amazing.
I love how you've managed to stay so focused on the good things in life.
My best friend's--(all thorough high school's) birthday is today, like Don's.
If you follow astrology at all...they're Sagittarian's--very "people-oriented" people.
Unfortunately, she and I had a falling-out over singing.
I used to sing with her, and when the band only wanted me & not her---
well...read between the lines. We were young. We still speak, but don't get to see each other often, and when we do, we fall right back into giddy young girls.
Kayla, haven't heard from you...
Don't get quiet, if you can help it.
We all need one another.
Anyone else that feels like "hopping in," too...I know we have some other "girlfriends" here that like to chat. It's therapy for me.
My sister is coming today from California. It's a double-edged sword, because she's staying with my elderly parents, who have a rough time as it is. She's high-strung, but very lovable, and upsets their routine, to a degree. That's o.k.---I'm sure it will be fine.
I think I'm the reason she's even coming---which is very sweet. I'm so full of gratitude, I could just explode. You'll get there, Kayla---fight, fight, fight.
One day, we'll log on here, and you'll have the most exciting news of your life.
Focus on that--- What rejoicing there will be !!!!
I have a dentist appt. in a bit. They wouldn't work on my cavity, until I was done with radiation. I'm still worried about the GI Specialist, but the fact they haven't even called yet, is telling me I'm pretty low-priority....that's a whew. I know it's not over, though..but, it's nice to have a reprieve.
Gotta run.
I don't like dentists, but we all need our teeth, don't we??? I hope it's not an "owie."
love, S.
LINDA505
12-18-2007, 03:59 PM
Thanks Singer, for the praise. I try to look at the best in life. I am not always succesful. Yes, Don was a people person. He had many friends from every walk of life. He still had his same friends from childhood. He was even friends with old girlfriends and became friends with their husbands too. That shows what an amazing person he was. His wife is like that too. He had a very exciting life in his short years. He was a free spirit and liked to live on the edge in his younger years. He was even a body guard for a gambler and he use to travel all over with him to protect him and his money. Today is his B-day in Heaven and I hope they are having a big party for him. His first birthday in Heaven. He loved life, food, his family and even strangers were
welcomed in his home. That was my brother. My hero, my angel.
Hope that the dentist is nice to you. I have issues with them as well. Some
bad experiences has left me scared to go to them. Although I do, it is with much trepidation.
I checked the computer for Dad's flight and it is on time so hopefully he will be on time on an easy flight.
kayla, Hoping to hear from you soon.
Love
Linda
welcomed in his home. That was my brother. My hero, my angel.
Hope that the dentist is nice to you. I have issues with them as well. Some
bad experiences has left me scared to go to them. Although I do, it is with much trepidation.
I checked the computer for Dad's flight and it is on time so hopefully he will be on time on an easy flight.
kayla, Hoping to hear from you soon.
Love
Linda
CancerChick
12-18-2007, 10:11 PM
Hi ladies. I'm sorry for being quiet. I don't know what's wrong. Well, I'm telling a fib but it's the holidays and I'm trying so hard not to bring others down too. I went and looked things up on the net again. :(
Happy Birthday Don. I know your sister Linda misses you so much but she knows deep down that you're not in pain anymore. You have all the angels and choir singing around you and rejoice in their praise. :angel:
Singer a steak huh? I almost said I could go for one but not yet, but one day again I hope. Now it's just shakes and drinks. I hope your dentist appointment wasn't too painful. I went before I started chemo and had one filling and my teeth cleaned.
Nothing to do tonight which makes things worse. The cable is out all over the area and I can't even stare at the TV. I'm too tired anyway, extremely tired.
It sounds like everyone is gearing up for the holidays. I hope you all can make special memories to cherish all your lives.
I love you all, you're all very special to me. I feel honored that I have my own angels watching over me. :angel:
Kayla
Happy Birthday Don. I know your sister Linda misses you so much but she knows deep down that you're not in pain anymore. You have all the angels and choir singing around you and rejoice in their praise. :angel:
Singer a steak huh? I almost said I could go for one but not yet, but one day again I hope. Now it's just shakes and drinks. I hope your dentist appointment wasn't too painful. I went before I started chemo and had one filling and my teeth cleaned.
Nothing to do tonight which makes things worse. The cable is out all over the area and I can't even stare at the TV. I'm too tired anyway, extremely tired.
It sounds like everyone is gearing up for the holidays. I hope you all can make special memories to cherish all your lives.
I love you all, you're all very special to me. I feel honored that I have my own angels watching over me. :angel:
Kayla
singer78
12-18-2007, 10:36 PM
Kayla,
Since your cable's out, do you have a radio?
I'm making sure I keep one in just about every room, anymore.
I listen to "talk radio" a lot...especially some religious programs. I like their positivity.
Anyway, it's a good thing to keep around in some empty rooms...it's almost like company.
It also makes my chores go faster.
You're like me....I say "never" again will I search things on the internet....to no avail.
I am getting better. The last time I looked up "gallstones" and freaked-out, so I'm trying to stay off it. My gallstone is probably, by all rights, not going to shrink on it's own.
Ignorance, in my case, is bliss.
Did you see where I need to see a GI Specialist, concerning my low iron?
I'm thinking "colonoscopy" down the road. I hear the procedure itself is not bad, it's the getting ready for it that is.
Don't worry about bringing anyone down. You need to vent & LET IT ALL OUT!
You have every right. This is unfair. You deserve to be well. Do whatever it takes, to make you feel better.
Yes, I had a steak. First one in months & months. I'm trying to build up my iron levels.
They said the chemo & radiaition could be the culprits lowering my iron...but, they don't know. I don't want to even think about it, until later... Most likely in January, I'll have to address it, and have tests.
Well....hug your kitty.....drink something nice & hot.
I just bought some eggnog---man, that stuff is good. Hey...that would be good for you right now. It's full of calories, which you need. Also, green tea is good for you...loaded up with honey. I wish I were with you---I'd make you a pot. :)
It's always nice to hear that you're coping as best as you can.
Hang tight.
"Baby steps...."----remember?
Love, S.
p.s. Dentist appt. went o.k.---I was numb for hours....couldn't even hardly talk. My hubby couldn't even understand me....lol.
Since your cable's out, do you have a radio?
I'm making sure I keep one in just about every room, anymore.
I listen to "talk radio" a lot...especially some religious programs. I like their positivity.
Anyway, it's a good thing to keep around in some empty rooms...it's almost like company.
It also makes my chores go faster.
You're like me....I say "never" again will I search things on the internet....to no avail.
I am getting better. The last time I looked up "gallstones" and freaked-out, so I'm trying to stay off it. My gallstone is probably, by all rights, not going to shrink on it's own.
Ignorance, in my case, is bliss.
Did you see where I need to see a GI Specialist, concerning my low iron?
I'm thinking "colonoscopy" down the road. I hear the procedure itself is not bad, it's the getting ready for it that is.
Don't worry about bringing anyone down. You need to vent & LET IT ALL OUT!
You have every right. This is unfair. You deserve to be well. Do whatever it takes, to make you feel better.
Yes, I had a steak. First one in months & months. I'm trying to build up my iron levels.
They said the chemo & radiaition could be the culprits lowering my iron...but, they don't know. I don't want to even think about it, until later... Most likely in January, I'll have to address it, and have tests.
Well....hug your kitty.....drink something nice & hot.
I just bought some eggnog---man, that stuff is good. Hey...that would be good for you right now. It's full of calories, which you need. Also, green tea is good for you...loaded up with honey. I wish I were with you---I'd make you a pot. :)
It's always nice to hear that you're coping as best as you can.
Hang tight.
"Baby steps...."----remember?
Love, S.
p.s. Dentist appt. went o.k.---I was numb for hours....couldn't even hardly talk. My hubby couldn't even understand me....lol.
singer78
12-20-2007, 11:51 PM
Just checkin' on ya'.
Haven't heard from you and are hoping you're o.k.
Linda, you, too.
Hope your dad's visit is going smoothly.
I was trying not to get caught-up in the Xmas-thing, but I'm finding myself doing more than I expected.
It's time to stop. I don't want to overdo it, and not enjoy the holidays.
I'm still having a hard time sleeping ever since I started Celexa & my doc's won't give me anything other than what I've been taking, since I'm having iron deficiency problems.
sigh.
Other than that---I'm feeling a little better everyday. I wish I didn't have to take any anti-anxiety med's---I really wish I could've conquered this all on my own will power...but, I can tell they've helped me. I haven't obsessed in awhile---at least not like I used to.
Kayla--I hope you're not feeling too down.
Remember to nurture yourself. :)
XOXO
Haven't heard from you and are hoping you're o.k.
Linda, you, too.
Hope your dad's visit is going smoothly.
I was trying not to get caught-up in the Xmas-thing, but I'm finding myself doing more than I expected.
It's time to stop. I don't want to overdo it, and not enjoy the holidays.
I'm still having a hard time sleeping ever since I started Celexa & my doc's won't give me anything other than what I've been taking, since I'm having iron deficiency problems.
sigh.
Other than that---I'm feeling a little better everyday. I wish I didn't have to take any anti-anxiety med's---I really wish I could've conquered this all on my own will power...but, I can tell they've helped me. I haven't obsessed in awhile---at least not like I used to.
Kayla--I hope you're not feeling too down.
Remember to nurture yourself. :)
XOXO
CancerChick
12-21-2007, 08:47 AM
Hi Singer. Glad to hear that you're getting in the holiday spirit. I'm trying so hard to but there's nothing to be in the spirit for. There's just this emptiness inside me right now. I long, I hope but I can't get it out of my mind that I won't beat this.
Good news I guess, I just gave myself my last WBC shot and nothing except blood work on Monday until next Friday when I do it all again. And that's just before New Year's Eve. I asked my onc if I had to have it then and he said he doesn't want to delay it. So it looks like I'm spending New Year's Eve in the hospital. But I think it's for the best so I'm not alone.
You're doing fabulous Singer and I hope you can enjoy this Christmas without too much worry. Linda I hope you're enjoying your visit with your dad.
Kayla
Good news I guess, I just gave myself my last WBC shot and nothing except blood work on Monday until next Friday when I do it all again. And that's just before New Year's Eve. I asked my onc if I had to have it then and he said he doesn't want to delay it. So it looks like I'm spending New Year's Eve in the hospital. But I think it's for the best so I'm not alone.
You're doing fabulous Singer and I hope you can enjoy this Christmas without too much worry. Linda I hope you're enjoying your visit with your dad.
Kayla
Bofonic
12-21-2007, 12:26 PM
Kayla,you're going to beat this. Don't ever ever ever let it into your mind that you're not going to make it.
Everyone here cares about you so much, let their words fill you with strength.
Its so easy to fall into a state of self-pity, I was there too for a long time, but although it might not seem like it now, in 10 years time when you're all better you'll look at this as an event that changed your life.
There would be nights when I'd be inpatient at the hospital and I'd wake up at 3 AM to nothing but the sound of my IV machine and the ventilation system and I'd wonder if that was it? Then I'd tell myself I couldn't give up, if not for myself then for my parents, my friends, and everyone who had sent me the wonderful cards sitting by my bed.
You are important, to yourself, to your friends, to your family. Don't ever give up the fight because you owe it to yourself and to them. You are going to make it Kay.
Everyone here cares about you so much, let their words fill you with strength.
Its so easy to fall into a state of self-pity, I was there too for a long time, but although it might not seem like it now, in 10 years time when you're all better you'll look at this as an event that changed your life.
There would be nights when I'd be inpatient at the hospital and I'd wake up at 3 AM to nothing but the sound of my IV machine and the ventilation system and I'd wonder if that was it? Then I'd tell myself I couldn't give up, if not for myself then for my parents, my friends, and everyone who had sent me the wonderful cards sitting by my bed.
You are important, to yourself, to your friends, to your family. Don't ever give up the fight because you owe it to yourself and to them. You are going to make it Kay.
singer78
12-21-2007, 02:54 PM
Hey Bofonic (& Kayla)
This is great---I'm glad you're giving Kayla some positivity from a 'young' point of view...plus, Heaven knows, you, yourself, have been there & back.
I've taken Kayla on as my "surrogate" daughter.
She lost her mother last year, and her she's still grieving (rightly so...) as well as battling for her own life.
To put it in a synopsis, her family is not helping much at all. She's estranged from her dad, and her friends (am I getting this right, Kayla?--I hope you don't mind) have turned on her, somewhat, after the cancer diagnosis.
Some of us on here, have taken her "under our wing" and check often, to help out.
"Linda" in particular...and she also has just had a terrible blow in her family, too---she just lost her wonderful brother.
This forum is so lovely, in that we 'do' care. They've all helped me so much, I can't begin to tell you how much I love these people....yet they remain somewhat faceless, due to the rules on here. I feel, at times, like I'm much closer to them, than my own family members---we've all leaned on one another so much---it's a beautiful thing.
You, Bofonic, are a great addition to our "family."
Anyway--
Kayla, you WILL beat this. I know it's the holidays--it's extremely rough without your mom...But, listen to Bofonic. He speaks from the heart. It will make you a stronger person. These are the rough times....
You still have a special person "out there" just waiting for you, you know.
Possibly children....grandchildren.....lots of love....lots of laughter.....
It won't always be like this forever. Try to focus on the end & how elated you'll be!
Yes, I'm doing pretty good, myself. Just have some upper GI issues...it can wait.
I'm trying to remain as positive, as I can--since you know I have a tendency to obsess over cancer.
Please try harder, Kayla.
Let the goodness of our love for you come into your heart and help heal.
I think it's good that you'll be with people on New Year's Eve, even if it is in the hospital. My niece is a nurse and is working New Year's Eve, because she told me, "They need me...." They want to be there for you.
Stay in touch.
Don't give up looking for that rainbow---it's there peaking behind the clouds!
:angel:
Love, S.
This is great---I'm glad you're giving Kayla some positivity from a 'young' point of view...plus, Heaven knows, you, yourself, have been there & back.
I've taken Kayla on as my "surrogate" daughter.
She lost her mother last year, and her she's still grieving (rightly so...) as well as battling for her own life.
To put it in a synopsis, her family is not helping much at all. She's estranged from her dad, and her friends (am I getting this right, Kayla?--I hope you don't mind) have turned on her, somewhat, after the cancer diagnosis.
Some of us on here, have taken her "under our wing" and check often, to help out.
"Linda" in particular...and she also has just had a terrible blow in her family, too---she just lost her wonderful brother.
This forum is so lovely, in that we 'do' care. They've all helped me so much, I can't begin to tell you how much I love these people....yet they remain somewhat faceless, due to the rules on here. I feel, at times, like I'm much closer to them, than my own family members---we've all leaned on one another so much---it's a beautiful thing.
You, Bofonic, are a great addition to our "family."
Anyway--
Kayla, you WILL beat this. I know it's the holidays--it's extremely rough without your mom...But, listen to Bofonic. He speaks from the heart. It will make you a stronger person. These are the rough times....
You still have a special person "out there" just waiting for you, you know.
Possibly children....grandchildren.....lots of love....lots of laughter.....
It won't always be like this forever. Try to focus on the end & how elated you'll be!
Yes, I'm doing pretty good, myself. Just have some upper GI issues...it can wait.
I'm trying to remain as positive, as I can--since you know I have a tendency to obsess over cancer.
Please try harder, Kayla.
Let the goodness of our love for you come into your heart and help heal.
I think it's good that you'll be with people on New Year's Eve, even if it is in the hospital. My niece is a nurse and is working New Year's Eve, because she told me, "They need me...." They want to be there for you.
Stay in touch.
Don't give up looking for that rainbow---it's there peaking behind the clouds!
:angel:
Love, S.
CancerChick
12-22-2007, 07:13 PM
I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Such compassion from friends without faces.
Thank you Bofonic for your words of wisdom. I just think it would be easier if I had friends and family. I don't mind you telling my story at all Singer. It's true that I have absolutely no one. You guys here and my chemo nurses have been my angels in disguise. I'm trying so hard not to have self pity but truthfully I'm afraid that I might not make it. I was looking things up on the net and scared the heck out of myself. I want to ask my onc but I'm afraid of the answer so I sit and worry and worry. :(
I'm trying so hard Singer. I keep saying to myself that I will do this but then my mind wanders off and I'm thinking strange things. I need to shut it off and out. That's what's good about being in the hospital because #1 I'm not alone and #2 I don't have time to think. They're always doing something or asking questions. I'm looking for that rainbow Singer but first we need the rain.
I had a pretty good day just overwhelmingly tired. I have no energy at all but the shots are over for the time being. :D I guess everyone is busy getting ready for the big day. I won't even make it to mass. My doc is advising me not to go because of germs.
I've been going through pictures of Christmas past and trying to draw strength from my parents, especially my mom.
Kayla
Thank you Bofonic for your words of wisdom. I just think it would be easier if I had friends and family. I don't mind you telling my story at all Singer. It's true that I have absolutely no one. You guys here and my chemo nurses have been my angels in disguise. I'm trying so hard not to have self pity but truthfully I'm afraid that I might not make it. I was looking things up on the net and scared the heck out of myself. I want to ask my onc but I'm afraid of the answer so I sit and worry and worry. :(
I'm trying so hard Singer. I keep saying to myself that I will do this but then my mind wanders off and I'm thinking strange things. I need to shut it off and out. That's what's good about being in the hospital because #1 I'm not alone and #2 I don't have time to think. They're always doing something or asking questions. I'm looking for that rainbow Singer but first we need the rain.
I had a pretty good day just overwhelmingly tired. I have no energy at all but the shots are over for the time being. :D I guess everyone is busy getting ready for the big day. I won't even make it to mass. My doc is advising me not to go because of germs.
I've been going through pictures of Christmas past and trying to draw strength from my parents, especially my mom.
Kayla
singer78
12-23-2007, 02:50 AM
CC, CC, CC....
Please don't go searching on the internet.
I know there's good sites--but, you also know there's also tons of bogus ones.
Every time I do it, I ALWAYS regret it.
The second I start fretting, I shut it down. You know me---after researching, I have every disease under the sun...& then some!
Please don't scare yourself.....and write those questions down for your oncologist.
He's the one that knows what you're going through and will advise you.
I think that "Xmas Party" is so sweet that JanMarie started.
What a clever, cute idea. And, it's so much fun to picture it.
Just want you to know I'm thinking of you, sweetie.
Love, S.
Please don't go searching on the internet.
I know there's good sites--but, you also know there's also tons of bogus ones.
Every time I do it, I ALWAYS regret it.
The second I start fretting, I shut it down. You know me---after researching, I have every disease under the sun...& then some!
Please don't scare yourself.....and write those questions down for your oncologist.
He's the one that knows what you're going through and will advise you.
I think that "Xmas Party" is so sweet that JanMarie started.
What a clever, cute idea. And, it's so much fun to picture it.
Just want you to know I'm thinking of you, sweetie.
Love, S.
Bofonic
12-24-2007, 02:08 AM
Singer's right..the more you think about it and the more you create these "What If its this?" in your head the more your going to draw these conclusions.
We'll be your Christmas family. I'll even take a stab at making cookies if you want! (God knows my baking skills are tres horrible) Haha I could make a turkey..but I think it might get a bit well...soggy? In the mail? haha..but Alas I digress.
There's a light waiting at the end of the tunnel for you. Just keep the light in sight and don't stray from the path and you will find it. We're all here for you and you're in our thoughts.
We'll be your Christmas family. I'll even take a stab at making cookies if you want! (God knows my baking skills are tres horrible) Haha I could make a turkey..but I think it might get a bit well...soggy? In the mail? haha..but Alas I digress.
There's a light waiting at the end of the tunnel for you. Just keep the light in sight and don't stray from the path and you will find it. We're all here for you and you're in our thoughts.
singer78
12-27-2007, 01:01 AM
...Checkin' on you, Kayla. :)
If memory serves me, you go to the hospital on New Year's Eve, correct?
So...enjoy your next days and relax.....
Remember, you're not alone. We're all here---still recuperating from our Xmas party.
Wasn't that fun???? I want to do it again---you know me...."party animal."
Post when you can.
Love, S.
If memory serves me, you go to the hospital on New Year's Eve, correct?
So...enjoy your next days and relax.....
Remember, you're not alone. We're all here---still recuperating from our Xmas party.
Wasn't that fun???? I want to do it again---you know me...."party animal."
Post when you can.
Love, S.
CancerChick
12-27-2007, 08:18 PM
I'm still here Singer. I had a rough couple days feeling so drained and slept far too much. But I know part of it is depression. I think I just wanted to sleep and wake up when it's all over. But will it ever be over? I'm trying so hard to think positive and I keep telling myself I can do this. ;)
I can't thank you all enough for sharing Christmas with us here. JanMarie your party was absolutely wonderful and I came home with my kitty too. :D Bofonic your words and poem touched me immensely. Do you know I printed it out and read it over and over. :angel: And Singer you were the hit of the party. A little bird told me you had a melodic voice and was that ever true :)
No Singer my chemo is not New Year's Eve it's tomorrow. I had blood work today and it's a go. But I probably will be in the hospital until New Year's day. I think it's good that I don't have to spend New Year's Eve alone. Unless you were going to have a party here then I'd cancel. :D
I wish I could but I know I can't cancel. I have to beat this demon head on and who knows maybe this one will be my last. I'm a little confused about what's next but will ask tomorrow when I get there.
I'll be back in the morning to wish all my friends here a Happy New Year, I promise :jester:
Kayla
I can't thank you all enough for sharing Christmas with us here. JanMarie your party was absolutely wonderful and I came home with my kitty too. :D Bofonic your words and poem touched me immensely. Do you know I printed it out and read it over and over. :angel: And Singer you were the hit of the party. A little bird told me you had a melodic voice and was that ever true :)
No Singer my chemo is not New Year's Eve it's tomorrow. I had blood work today and it's a go. But I probably will be in the hospital until New Year's day. I think it's good that I don't have to spend New Year's Eve alone. Unless you were going to have a party here then I'd cancel. :D
I wish I could but I know I can't cancel. I have to beat this demon head on and who knows maybe this one will be my last. I'm a little confused about what's next but will ask tomorrow when I get there.
I'll be back in the morning to wish all my friends here a Happy New Year, I promise :jester:
Kayla
singer78
12-28-2007, 02:42 AM
Kayla,
Hopefully, this will be your last one.
I can only imagine what you're going through.
I will always remember infusions and that "feeling" that goes alone with it.
One thing that comforts me (being your friend) is to know that you're with a medical team taking care of you nonstop & that you're not alone.
Did you make friends with any nurses?
How's the hospital food?
During radiation, I always made it a point to eat breakfast or lunch in a little cafe they had....it was good!
Anyway-- try to have a Happy New Year and know that 2008 has some bigger, better things in store for you.
God Speed.....
Love, S.
Hopefully, this will be your last one.
I can only imagine what you're going through.
I will always remember infusions and that "feeling" that goes alone with it.
One thing that comforts me (being your friend) is to know that you're with a medical team taking care of you nonstop & that you're not alone.
Did you make friends with any nurses?
How's the hospital food?
During radiation, I always made it a point to eat breakfast or lunch in a little cafe they had....it was good!
Anyway-- try to have a Happy New Year and know that 2008 has some bigger, better things in store for you.
God Speed.....
Love, S.
Bofonic
12-28-2007, 03:23 AM
We'll be waiting for you when you get back:) I'm glad the poem was helpful look to everyone for inspiration you're never alone you have us :)
You can do this and I can't wait until the day when you are all better and you're telling us how wonderful you feel and that you can't believe its over. Its coming don't ya worry!
Be brave Kay....and see if you can get someone to sneak you some good food. i remember being in-patient at the hospital and they'd keep a ton of pizza pockets in the freezer for the kids. I've never eaten so many nor loved McCain so much...haha it was either mushy things that look like peas..or...PIZZA POCKETS. You can bet which one won :)
You're going to make it Kay you're going to beat this.
You can do this and I can't wait until the day when you are all better and you're telling us how wonderful you feel and that you can't believe its over. Its coming don't ya worry!
Be brave Kay....and see if you can get someone to sneak you some good food. i remember being in-patient at the hospital and they'd keep a ton of pizza pockets in the freezer for the kids. I've never eaten so many nor loved McCain so much...haha it was either mushy things that look like peas..or...PIZZA POCKETS. You can bet which one won :)
You're going to make it Kay you're going to beat this.
CancerChick
12-28-2007, 11:45 AM
Thanks Singer and Bofonic. I too hope this is my last one but that's in God's hands and out of my control. He knows what's right and I'm certain He has a plan for me.
Hopsital food Singer is hospital food. I don't eat much when I'm there but I do drink coffee. Three days of chemo and my stomach flips and flops. Thank goodness they give me stuff through IV. Bufonic a pizza sounds good. Maybe when I get home. :D Thank you both for encouraging me and convincing me I can do this.
I hope everyone here has a wonderful New Year. You're all very special to me, you have no idea. I don't think I would have even carried on like I have if it wasn't for you. And I even got to go to a Christmas party. :D
So all my friends at HB have a bit of bubbly for me. And know that I'm thinking of you all and wishing you all the best for a healthy, happy new year.
Love and hugs,
Kayla
Hopsital food Singer is hospital food. I don't eat much when I'm there but I do drink coffee. Three days of chemo and my stomach flips and flops. Thank goodness they give me stuff through IV. Bufonic a pizza sounds good. Maybe when I get home. :D Thank you both for encouraging me and convincing me I can do this.
I hope everyone here has a wonderful New Year. You're all very special to me, you have no idea. I don't think I would have even carried on like I have if it wasn't for you. And I even got to go to a Christmas party. :D
So all my friends at HB have a bit of bubbly for me. And know that I'm thinking of you all and wishing you all the best for a healthy, happy new year.
Love and hugs,
Kayla
LINDA505
12-29-2007, 01:53 PM
dEAR kAYLA,
Sorry I have not been on here too much. I do want to wish you well. I will pray that this round does the trick. Stay strong. I will pray that this new
year will find you on your way to good health.
Have that pizza when you get out of the hospital. Take care dear.
Love
Linda
Sorry I have not been on here too much. I do want to wish you well. I will pray that this round does the trick. Stay strong. I will pray that this new
year will find you on your way to good health.
Have that pizza when you get out of the hospital. Take care dear.
Love
Linda
singer78
12-30-2007, 05:39 AM
HI Linda,
I was wondering how you've been---Dad must be taking a bit of your time....that's a good thing!
We're waiting for Kayla to come home on Tuesday, I believe.
Say BIG prayers :angel: that this will do the trick.
Kayla---your cyber buddies are all pulling for you more than you know.
Big Hugs {{{{{{{{{{ :) }}}}}}}}}}}
I was wondering how you've been---Dad must be taking a bit of your time....that's a good thing!
We're waiting for Kayla to come home on Tuesday, I believe.
Say BIG prayers :angel: that this will do the trick.
Kayla---your cyber buddies are all pulling for you more than you know.
Big Hugs {{{{{{{{{{ :) }}}}}}}}}}}
singer78
12-30-2007, 02:44 PM
I might not be on here for awhile---
Don't worry about me...I've just got a "full plate" for the next few days.
I wish you all a Beloved New Year full of good health, happy thoughts, and may all your wishes come true!
Hang in there, Kayla---
You're always in my thoughts and prayers.
God be with you & guide you.
I'll be back......:)
Love, S.
Don't worry about me...I've just got a "full plate" for the next few days.
I wish you all a Beloved New Year full of good health, happy thoughts, and may all your wishes come true!
Hang in there, Kayla---
You're always in my thoughts and prayers.
God be with you & guide you.
I'll be back......:)
Love, S.
LINDA505
12-30-2007, 09:29 PM
I just wanted to wish everyone here a Happy New Year....I know that for many of you your lives are uncertain, waiting to hear from your docs, and for all of you especially I pray that the news is good. For all of you though I pray that life is good to you and that your good health will continue. God Bless you all.
Kayla, I will keep you in my prayers and hope that this treatment has worked for you. I know this is hard and I can not imagine your pain, fear and lonliness and for that I can only hope that God has you in his loving arms and will give you the news you so deserve.
Singer, I hope that you are going on a singing gig and are enjoying your newfound health. Hope that you are on your way to singing your heart out.
Sorry I have not been on here very much but with Dad here I find myself always busy. He will be here for alittle over a week. He seems to be enjoying himself. Today is my Mom's birthday.....she would have been 84.
Tomorrow is Don's wedding anniversary. He would have been married 21 yrs.
I find on these times where we would be celebrating we have our memories only to get us through.
Hope you all enjoy the New Year and that 2008 finds you all in good health.
Love
Linda
Kayla, I will keep you in my prayers and hope that this treatment has worked for you. I know this is hard and I can not imagine your pain, fear and lonliness and for that I can only hope that God has you in his loving arms and will give you the news you so deserve.
Singer, I hope that you are going on a singing gig and are enjoying your newfound health. Hope that you are on your way to singing your heart out.
Sorry I have not been on here very much but with Dad here I find myself always busy. He will be here for alittle over a week. He seems to be enjoying himself. Today is my Mom's birthday.....she would have been 84.
Tomorrow is Don's wedding anniversary. He would have been married 21 yrs.
I find on these times where we would be celebrating we have our memories only to get us through.
Hope you all enjoy the New Year and that 2008 finds you all in good health.
Love
Linda
Bofonic
12-31-2007, 03:11 AM
Happy New Year Kay and to all of you.
Kay be strong :) You're going to totally make it through this treatment. Its like you said.. at least you'll be with people..and you'll have all of us in your thoughts just like you will be in ours.
Don't you doubt I'll be checking back on the first day of the New Year to hear from you..and everyone else here for that matter.
Linda I admire your courage and compassion even though you've suffered losses of your own. Your presence here is both a gift and a blessing I hope the New Year brings happier times and memories for you.
Singer...don't party too hard :) Now that I know you're a music person I can't help but shake the idea you're a big party heart animal like the rest of us. We're night people...its in our blood...late night shows and overindulgence? You bet...Haha take it easy ;)
Wishing everyone a happy new year.
-J
Kay be strong :) You're going to totally make it through this treatment. Its like you said.. at least you'll be with people..and you'll have all of us in your thoughts just like you will be in ours.
Don't you doubt I'll be checking back on the first day of the New Year to hear from you..and everyone else here for that matter.
Linda I admire your courage and compassion even though you've suffered losses of your own. Your presence here is both a gift and a blessing I hope the New Year brings happier times and memories for you.
Singer...don't party too hard :) Now that I know you're a music person I can't help but shake the idea you're a big party heart animal like the rest of us. We're night people...its in our blood...late night shows and overindulgence? You bet...Haha take it easy ;)
Wishing everyone a happy new year.
-J