In the past I have taken Tramadol and Lortab those were my two drugs of choice that I took for pain. About six months ago I quit taking Tramadol and at the time was out of Lortab. The withdrawl from the Tramadol was living hell and I will never ever ever look at another Tramadol again. I read in a post that it is good to write down your feelings as you withdraw so you can go back and look at how misrable it was. I did that and I look back eveyday and can't beleive what I put my body through now only doing it again with the Lortab withdrawl. I guess my questions is why can't I get those same feelings with the Lortab? I can't let it go like I did with the Tramadol. Is it because I know that once the Lortab is gone I will not have anything to fall back on?

hey!
i think you kinda answered it right there-once the lortab is gone both are gone and maybe its hard for you to face at moment? sounds like you are holding on to the lortab as a crutch and dropping the crutch means.....??? dealing with the loss of both meds (just a thought maybe) do you take the lortab everyday? but be proud and thankful you are not taking the tramadol anymore and that you reconized all the crap it put you thru so kudos for that and reconize your progress with one demon gone:)
i am on ALOTT of meds for pain manegment and realizing i have been psyically/mentally addicted since my first time taking them about 5 years ago and kinda miss that euphoria.i am on oxycontin sr (100 mg's every 6 hours-for pain) and much more but i can't recieve that pain relief or that feeling anymore so i began chewing some of my pills lately and it scares me sooo much.and all this began becuz of starting a pain relief plan in the begginng so that i could feel better and be more comfortable with everyday life and now it has caused more trouble than help.if i make sense here? sorry for blabbing!!!
but again i am happy for you that you got off the one out of two meds of choice and now you have to deal with the lortab-do you need it for pain? or why did you first start taking it?
hope to hear back from you-and hope 2day will be a okay day for you and for us all:)

Hi jasgirl!! thanks for your reply. Have you ever thought about trying to get off all medication? I know the thought of it scares the hell out of me right now but I know it is what I have to do. I guess what I think about is the pills can't go on forever there will be a day for some reason there will be no more. It could be becuase my doctor leaves, I screw up and take to many and he finds out whatever the case is it will stop sometime. I want to TRY to take control now rather then down the road and have it come to a complete stop and have to recover all at once at one time. I guess right know like I said in my other posts I am trying to take baby steps to resolve my problem. Reach and many others have told me how it is and right now I need that kick in the butt to do it. Yes I am scared to death of what life is like without them because those are my escape pills more than my pain pills right now. Like you said you are taking them and not getting any satifaction unless you chew them why do you keep taking them? I have suffered from pelvic pain for god it seems like forever but there has to be something better than those stupid pills. I have started the withdrawl process why don't you start with me and we could be withdrawl buddies?? Think about it!!

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wow I hear that one. I think Reach has said that we also have to learn to trust in the process of comming out of the grisp of addiction. Those are not exact words but hopefully she will be by to explain it in her so cool way. I understand and am/have been where you are with what will life be like without these medications? How will I function without blowing up at every little thing or can i even function at all? I know for me it's about fear. I'm afraid of everything. I liked to think that the opiates were my antidepressant and I tried to tell my doctor that I didn't think I needed to be off them ever!! Well that's can not happen. I medically do not have legitimate pain. But my brain tells me otherwise. I sleep on my neck funny and it is tight and sore in the morning, I think or act like it's broken. I know it's not it's just one of my UGGHH AGONY PAINS that I tend, i guess my brain is trying real hard to have some opiates delivered and sends fake pain messages to my body. I have to start to learn how to retrain my brain.
I guess for me I go on hope and trust. I read the posts on here, try to go AA/NA meetings, don't really like them right now, but I have a psychiatrist and a therapist. I like when someone can share how they have where we are now, and how it was, and what it is like now. 9 out of 10 times I hear that they never dreamed they could be so happy. That is good news. That is what i cling to for dear life, because even taking these pills, I ain't happy. So what do I got to lose, yeah withdrawal sucks. You know that. it is a slow and long process for me. But I at least know that there is a new life waiting for me, one that I am unfamiliar with and gradually will become aware of it little by little. I think if it hit me in the face right now, it would scare the bejeezzees out of me. Well I really gotta go lye down right now, kind of getting a winter bug. No big deal, cough drops and motrin help.