Hi everyone,
My husband and I have been ttc for 3 years now, and were not using birth control for 2 years before that. I had cancer when I was a toddler but I was always told that it would not interfere my ability to become pregnant. Two years ago I had a chemical pregnancy and last March I had an early pregnancy miscarriage. I was so happy when I saw the positive test, I was on top of the world, but the next day I began spotting and my dr had me take a blood test which showed that I was miscarrying and also that I was Rh- (my husband is Rh positive). I had to go in for a rhogam shot and just broke down. After that I finally made the appointment with a specialist. After all the tests it seems that I do not ovulate regularly and they saw some fluid and possible scar tissue in my tubes during an ultrasound. We did a laproscopic surgery to try and unblock my tubes, but they were so bad it wasn't possible and after that my RE suggested IVF. The scar tissue turns out to be from the surgeries I had due to my cancer. I'm very happy to be alive and cancer free, but I have always known I wanted to be a mother and I just feel empty and sad and to tell the truth, cheated. My husband is wonderful and supportive, but doesn't really feel all that comfortable talking about his emotions and such. At this point we are trying to get together the finances to pay for our first round of IVF and now I feel like my whole life is on hold. I have gone back to school and will be graduating shortly, but even though this provides me with something to do, all I ever think about is the baby I lost, or whether or not IVF will work, will we have the money, etc...I try to keep positive but I know I am getting depressed. Last month was especially hard because it was when I would have had my baby, and my sister in law, who got pregnant around the same time, gave birth to my niece. I came across this site and read how much you all support each other, and listen and really care for one another and I really wanted to be a part of a group that genuinely understands my situation.

Hi and welcome Im so sorry your TTC journey has led you here but so glad you found us. You will find the ladies here very supportive and always happy listen and offer advice when needed. Many of us understand your pain and frustration especially when it comes to loss and other peoples pregnancies. Just know you are not alone. I will be starting my 1st IVF with ICSI cycle in just over 6 weeks, I was supposed to start next week but was postponed because they couldnt fit me in for the education appt with the nurse before CD21, I nearly cried right there in the clinic. Anyway I really wish you all the best and hope you get your BFP very soon.

Cashahn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Cashahn--Thank you for your reply. It stinks you have to wait another 6 weeks, but hopefully it will be just the right timing for you and you will get your BFP. At this time we are hoping to have the money to begin the IVF process in May or June but that's not definitive. It depends, especially because my husband is in sales and we are counting on his commission in the coming months. Right now I guess the main goal is just to try and be positive and pray like mad. I will include you in those prayers too!

Celestealyce,

Welcome to the message board. I am very sorry that you have had to deal with so much. Although all of our stories are different, we all understand the emotions and frustrations that come with IF, and you will find that everyone here is so super supportive. I recently suffered an early miscarriage, and DH and I are trying to save up for IVF which we figure will take us until the latter half of the year. Please try to stay positive (easier said than done, I know) and hang in there. You will definately find a lot of support from all of the ladies on this board.

Love,
Kelley

Celestealyce- My partner is in sales aswell so I can definately relate to you there. Mid year is not too far away, but Im hoping like mad that you won't need IVF and get your BFP before then. Thank you for keeping me in your prayers as I will with you, we need all the help we can get. All the best.

Cashahn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi celestealyce and welcome to the boards. I am glad that you have found us so at least you know you are not alone. Like Kelley said all our situations are different but we can all relate in some way or another. I am sorry that you have had such a rought journey and I am also truely sorry for your losses. I can totally relate to how you felt last month because last week Monday our little one should have been born. But here I am detemined not to give up it will happen. Good luck with getting everything in order for you IVF, but I am hoping that you will not need it.

Take care
Charlene

Celestealyce,

Welcome to the board. I myself is considered new here. I think I found this board after my 2nd IUI. I am now doing the 5th one maybe next week.
This board had been a source of strenght and info for me for things I am not comfortable talking with my own family and friends. Im sorry to hear about your TTC jouney. When I got married, I thought everything will come in order. We got engaged, bought a house, we got married and then we thinking of babies that never came...Suddendly we are heading towards fertility clinics. It is so sad. I also noted that you on United Health Care insurance. We are on that insurance too but we have no fertility coverage. I wonder if you are on a specific plan. I am on ChoicePlus

Sarah

You know, I am not sure which plan it is. It is through my husbands employer so I will ask him about it and get back to you.

celestealyce, have you asked your DH? I am just wondering if we can change to a new plan as our insurance is also thru my DH although it is late in the year to change but it will be nice to know anyway....

hotmama - yes ours is also called ChoicePlus. Maybe they are different because of something the employers chose? I'm not sure how that all works.