I am bipolar 2 and i have been in the great big low.
I take lamtial but it seems to have stoped working.
My mind seem out of control..My husbands wants to call mt doctor because i haven't seen him in months..I am worried what i might do.I just feel all alone.
I don't want to go the the hosiptal. what can I do to stop my thoughtd from becomming to much for me to bear.
sorry for the vent i just wanted someone to talk with
tiffany:(

Hi Tiffany I think you know what you have to do. Please call a crisis worker. See what they say. Just hearing a voice is good too. Take care of yourself. I'll being waiting to see how you do. :angel:

thanks just for responding..I might have my husband call my doctor because i have 4 kids and i really don't want them to see me like this..I guess i am get tired of being like this..i will let you know how it goes
tiffany

Tiffany: PLEASE CALL YOUR DOC. I have to have my Lamitcal regulated all the time. The winter months are the worst. When you up the lamitcal you will see such a differance. I also take Zoloft in the winter.
Please call the doc ASAP!!!!!

Jeane

I think i will when my husband gets home..i am worried that he might commited because it is so bad..
I am so glad that i am not alone in this.
I never have been away from my kids before.
tiffany

Hi Tiffany: Glad your gonna all. Like I said I am so much like you you have no idea. It is hard when your away from family. I am. I talk to Mom on the phone all the time. I remember last winter it got really bad. I went after my husband and starting punching him. He is a really great guy he understands this disease. I know immediately when I need to call my doc. I do not wait. I get in asap. The lamitcal works wonders for me. It just that i am on a high dose. So last summer I lowered it. I am now up to 300. Also take the Zoloft.
Keep coming here. I will look for your posts everyday.
Hang tuff girl.:D
Jeane

Tiffany: Forgot to ask how much Lamitcal are you on?
Jeane

i take 200 of lamtical..last night i tried to talk it out with my husband.
after that i did call to make a appt with the doctor the only things is i have to wait 2 weks before i see him.
tiffany

Tiffany Be proactive for yourself please. 2 weeks can be along time when your in a crisis. It doesn't hurt to talk to a professional. Then it's your decision whether or not you go to the hospital. You are a very important member of your family. Please take care of yourself. Please keep us informed, Sassy I'm sending hugs your way:angel:

Hi Tiff, How long have you been taking 200 of the lamitcal. Two weeks is too long. Call again.
Jeane

well i got put on a 72 hour hold i ended up taking too many pills and my husband called the police.
but the good news is that i am feeling better now they gave me a new med and move the time when i took my medicine.
i am not thinking about dying anymore but i have to take one day at a time.
i have to many people checking in on me now that i am home. i didn't reliize on how many people cared for me.
thank you all for helping me out when i needed it the most
tiffany

Tiffany, I have just started reading your posts I am sorry to hear about that. But it does sound good that you got a new med and that you have lots of support. That is so important.

What new med did they put you on?

i got put on seroquel 25 mg 4 times a day.
it is making me a bit zoned out but it seems to help with the racing thoughts.
the doctor hates that it came to taking it but i never like him anyway so i am trying to change doctors so i can feel more at ease with one.
sorry for the miss spelling of the words i am a pit fuzzy.
tiffany

I'm glad that you are doing better. Support is so important. A good doctor makes a big difference in our journey with bipolar. take care, Sassy

Tiffany, I'm taking seraquil too. I take 600 mg/day. It should knock out a horse, but I'm fine. I actually like the feeling and am guilty of tqaking more than I'm supposed to and then having to cut way back at the end of the month. BAD IDEA! The sleepiness and fuzz-brain do go away. I was suicidal shortly after I was diagnosed, OD'd and landed in 72 hrs under supervision. What triggered it, I can't say except that I was put on anti-depressants and that can be VERY dangerous for bi-polar people. Do your research and be selective abut what you take. Now I have gotten back on my feet and I thank the medical profession for seraquil. I've got a good job again (I was fired from several while I freaked out for a year and a half) and when I do everything I'm supposed to, life's pretty good. Here's the catch - sometimes I just get so tired of going to therapy, taking pills, not drinking, screwing around or generally doing all of the things I did for "fun" before that I get tempted to just say screw it and stop being so constantly viglant. And then you kow what happens - things just start going to hell around me. I'm getting out of a depression and a two week bender. I dented my car, fought with my husband, was parenoid about work, worried my family all over again...you name it. So I'm reminding myself as I remind you, Please don't let your guard down because it seems like things are getting better. If anything, we have more to protect and strive for when they are good. And it's so much harder to pick yourself up than it is just to maintain. I wish you the best of luck and love and good decisions. We can and will do this and can and will have beautiful lives. Bi-polar doesn't define us if we don't let it. I hope you're well.

Erin -

Just wanted to thank you for your post. I forget to pay attention and try to ignore what's wrong with me, or what can be wrong if I am not vigilant, and want to go off on my own without a therapist, drop my meds, because I am "fine". Whoops.

So your post spoke to me.

Seaturtle

Erin, you are so right about how much easier it is to maintain than it is to pick up the pieces! Oh boy do I know that feeling! It is so hard for me to maintain though!