Okay ladies, we think this is good news.... it went from 22.5 on Thurs to 63.4 today. So that almost tripled!!!!!! And the tests were only taken 46 hours apart... not even 2 days!!!! So they are going to see me on Thursday for an early ultrasound to try and determine if we can see anything in the uterus. I was surprised they didn't want to see me again on Monday for another blood test, but I promise I will be taking HPT's each and every day from now until Thursday!!!! :D OMG, I think this could be it girls!!!! Thank you so much for the prayers. I have not been to church in YEARS (even tho I am spiritual in my own way and time), but I think I may go to church tomorrow to pray. I am in shock. Thank you all of you for your support. Please keep praying.

And anyone who is in the 2WW or getting ready for another try.... please, believe the advice you hear that HPT's are not always reliable.... and right now I am living proof that implantation can take significantly longer for some people. I really hope this goes to term and I will have defied all of the odds. If I am that lucky, I promise I will be here supporting each and every one of you until we all have our sticky BFP's!

:bouncing::bouncing::bouncing::bouncing:

Oh my Kari!!! How wonderful!!! Those numbers are sooooo great and I am thrilled for you. You truely have defied alllllll odds:) Since they almost tripled and it wasn't even 2 full days..... hmmmmmmmm...... wonder what that might mean!!! :) I love that this is happening for you! I hope the days fly for you and Tursday is here before you know it!
I will be praying for you and your family!!!!!!

Enjoy this sweetie...... you have waited long enough...... it's your turn!!!!!:D

Hi Kari,

,I just logged on to see if you had any news and I am so excited for you. Yay!!!:D:):D This little bean is a fighter and is so strong, I really think there is going to be nothing but good news for you in the next nine months! I am so happy for you and DH!

I saw what your wrote earlier (REVISED) and I just wanted to say thanks. Yes, I feel like I finally got my BFP yesterday too. It's a different kind but just as exciting. Looks like we are both having our dreams come true finally!

Thinking and praying for you and your little bean.:angel:

Lori

That is such wonderful news Kari!!!:D What a week you've had and it's turning out better each day. I wonder if the low beta result was a misprint or the wrong sample. Either way your numbers sound great! Can't wait to hear what the US says on Thrusday. Keep us posted.

OMG Kari--that is so awesome.:bouncing::bouncing::bouncing: I think those are great numbers and they are doing exactly what they are supposed to do for a healthy pregnancy. I just know your little one is hanging on for the long haul. Oh I am so excited for you. Enjoy this time girlie--all your baby dreams are starting to come true and I couldn't be happier for you. Your post just made my day. I can't wait to hear about Thursday --keep that positivity going and take care of yourself mommy.:angel:AimeeM

I'm very happy for you and DH. What a great story to tell your little one!
Jennifer

Oh my goodness Kari! That is so awesome!!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy to hear that your numbers went up so quickly!!!!!! I really can't wait to hear about your ultrasound appointment!!! I am going to be thinking of you NONSTOP!!!!!!!

Hang in there!

Love,
Kelley

CONGRATULATIONS
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My dear friend I am soooooooo excited for you. Your beanie is a real fighter. My DH is just as exited. We got back from dinner at my parents and said to DH I must log in now to see your resuts and I am sooooo happy that I did. Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months ahead. Good luck for your u/s on Thursday I am sure that everything is going to be fine. I cannot wait for the date. How is your DH taking the news???

Enjoy the rest of you day.

Love ya
Char

OMG OMG OMG Kari that is awesome my friend.I rushed to my laptop as soon as DH and I got home tonight.This really is amazing news and I couldent be happier for you.Going to church sounds like a good idea DH and I went last Sunday.This really is a miracle and I think this is it for you my friend.That little one seems like a real fighter.Well sweetie take care and have a great weekend but seems like you already are having a great one.Cant wait to hear about your u/s on Thursday.Well my friend sending you big warm congrat hugs.

Love ya,

Mapia

Mapia, yes, it sure is a good weekend! :) But I really am still having a hard time believing that this is happening. It's surreal.

Char, I have dreamed of the day I'd get the BIG colorful congrats!!! Thank you so much. And DH is so excited... he's like a giddy child at Christmas, it's awesome.

Kelley, Aimee, and Jennifer, thank you for sharing in this excitement. I really hope I will bring more good news on Thursday... I'm sure you can imagine how nervous I will be. I'm already scared!

Hey Pinkie! You know I think the first reading was correct... it just took a while for me to start producing the HCG. But no doubt it's kicking now, and I hope it continues to increase in the same fashion. I hope your 2WW concludes with a BFP as well friend!

Lori and Mrsctw1 - Thank you both for the support and kind words. I want you both to know that I'm thinking of your situations and praying for all the best. Whenever I have future threads going on feel free just to drop a line or 2 with a brief update. It would mean a lot to me :angel:

Kari, congratulations!!! That is awesome news! :bouncing::blob_fire:bouncing::blob_fire :bouncing: You know, I thought exactly the same thing - I'm going to church tomorrow to say my thanks. I'll be praying for you too. I know what you mean, this is so surreal. After all the waiting and having endless hopes dashed it's hard to take it all in! But it's real, you are pregnant and will be holding your baby/s in 8 months time!!

Thanks Lizzie... I still feel the odds are stacked against me with such a slow/low start, but I obviously have a lot more reason to be hopeful today than I did on Tuesday when they told me my HCG was 4.7! So all the prayers I can get are much appreciated! And I plan on keeping you and all of my girls in my thoughts and prayers over the next few days. We are so over-due for our little bundles of joy. 2008 will be a good year for all of us!

It certainly will be a fantastic year, and I know many more bfps are on the way. Kari, I know you're being cautious - after all you've been through it's natural - but you have every reason to be optimistic. Your little one is snuggled in now, growing happily, sending those numbers up and up, and is not intending to go anywhere for a good while yet! I won't stop praying for you, you are in my thoughts constantly. Bring on Thursday, and some more good news! Big hug,
Lizzie

Hey Kari I totally understand you are still being cautious and its only natural after all you have been through.But just keep the positive thoughts my friend like we have said in the past a baby is a miracle so no matter how it happens weather its IVF or natural its a miracle so hold onto to that my dear friend.Just keep praying and keep your faith and your little miracle will grow stronger and stronger and let god take care of the rest.Well my friend you have yourself a nice evening with DH.Hugs to you.

Love,

Mapia

Thanks Mapia and Lizzie. I do know it is in Gods hands now, and I am going to try to let him take care of me and my little one without doubting as much as I feel like I could.

I did just have some more spotting. A bit more than this morning, but again it was a pinkish brown color in a discharge. I'm so nervous. But the nurse this morning said not to worry unless it was red and fairly significant, so I still am hoping it's okay and related to implantation. Man, it is going to be so hard not to worry about something every day, isn't it?

Congratulations Kari Im so happy for you, Im so glad your numbers are continuing to multiply and look forward to hearing the results of the U/S. I pray everything goes well and hope this is the start of a wonderful journey to motherhood. Wishing you all the best.

Cashahn xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kari I am sorry you have some spotting but as the nurse said as long as it does not turn red then everything is going to be fine. If only things could go smootly so that we did not have to worry. Just try rela and enjoy your week till Thursday, I am positive you will be posting some extra special news for us on thursday, I cannot wait. I am glad you liked the coulourful congrats, because you deserve it:D.

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers constanly. Sending you BIG (((hugs))).

Love
Char

Kari I am so happy for you right now! This seems like all is going to be OK after all and I don't know how i am going to wait until Thursday to hear about the results of your us. I am thrilled that your numbers are rising. As always, it is sunday and i am going to church so you will be right up there on my prayer list for good wishes. this is just such great news!

Kari,

I know it's very hard not to worry, but I really hope that you're staying positive, and that you and DH are keeping busy this weekend. We are all thinking lots and lots of positive thoughts and praying for you!

How are you feeling today?

Love,
Kel

Kari,
Just checkin to see how you're feeling! It's kinda funny how I(we) feel like we are waiting with you..... I just cant wait to see that happy post with your news from your u/s!!!!
Just to update you, I talked with them and let them know how we felt and tald them we would not mention anything more until they were ready. I am just afraid of her changing her mind and feeling uncomfortable around us. So, I guess I am just here waiting too!!! Nothing else new, other than DH wanting a new truck...... test drove 3 already.:mad:

HUgs!!

Hi Kari,

I am new to the boards, but I have been following your posts since Thurs. I am very excitied for you (even though I don't know you!) :D I have been trying to get pg for a year and a half and am gearing up for my first IVF cycle.

So, just wanted to wish you luck. I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. I really hope things go well for you....it sounds like you deserve it and I know you have plenty of people rooting for you and your little one!!!

Good luck,
April :)

Hi April, welcome to the board! I hope your first IVF brings you sticky, quick success!

Mrsctw, It's good all players know where you stand. It's a different kind of wait you are experiencing, but no doubt we want the same outcome... A healthy child we can hold in our arms and call our own:angel: I hope both of our dreams come true!

Kelly, I feel good this morning. Took another HPT and the line was at least as dark as yesterday. I am def having some cramping, but it is very very mild. No spotting today so I'm thrilled about that. Kelly I know you must be experiencing similar feelings and fears right now... I'm praying for you too friend.
CBB, Char, Cashahn, thank you all so much for your support and prayers. I did go to church today and I kept all of my girls in my thoughts. It's our time ladies... 2008 will see dreams come true.

Oh boy, I think I spoke too soon. Just had some more spotting. This is the third time overall and first today. Each time it has gotten a little more dark in color (but still brown) and a little greater in volume. I am definitely now scared. I'm trying to stay positive, but I think this is a very bad sign. I will likely go in tomorrow and ask for another beta b/c if this is going to end, I want to know sooner rather than later. I'm praying that was the last of the spotting, but with the mild cramping that I'm feeling I just don't know girls. I feel bad cause I've worried DH but if he only knew exactly how scared I really am... oh no...... :(

Aww, Kari, that must be scary. I can't say don't worry because I have never been in that situation but I am praying everything will be okay. Does your RE have a 24 hour emergency number to call and maybe get some reassurance? Please keep us posted.

Kari

I understand your concern...though it must be implantation spotting. Also it s normal to have cramping i remember having that for around 2 weeks.
I am sorry that you always have to worry about something but i guess with IF it s difficult to sit back and relax.
If it puts your mind at rest you should call your dr and get another beta. I don t see why you should wait till thurs.

Try not to worry to much and take it easy. Praying for you and your little beanie/s.........i am sure you ve got a strong little one/s in there.

Hugs

Amy

Thx Jennifer, thx Amy. Amy I'm glad you mentioned you had cramping cause even though it's still mild, I'm convinced now that it wasn't just nerves I've been feeling in my tummy the last couple days. This is also my third straight day with a mild headache accompanied by slight nauseau. This I also had first attributed to nerves, but now I'm not so sure. I also felt dizzy about 4-5 times yesterday so much that I had to stop and rest with a hand on a table. I'm telling myself this must be happening cause the HCG is skyrocketing and how could I not get dizzy or have headaches with such rapid changes in my hormones! Oh please God don't let this be wishful thinkng!

Kari, I had dizziness, and mild cramping--like twinges very early. and I actually have mild cramping/twinges still at 23 weeks....I had a little spotting around 8 weeks but unless its bright red and accompanied with period cramps I think you are doing just fine. I don't know if you are on Vag suppositories but those can also irritate your girly parts and cause a bit of spotting. Stay positive your little one needs you.:angel: Only 4 more days until your U/S hang in there mommy.:angel:AimeeM

Kari I am so sorry that you are still experiencing spotting I am sure it is nothing to worry about, but i can understand that you are scared. I will be praying for you and beanie. Try and relax a bit and put your feet up.

Thinking of you

Love
Char

Thx Char and Aimee, Sadly I think it's over. My hopes are dashed. More spotting, but now it's actually heavier... dripping into the bowl when I pee. :( This can not be from implantation and the cramps are getting heavier. I just want to know if this is going to be considered a period or a miscarriage. Wow... that was fast. It was nice to dream and be hopeful for a couple of days. I kinda liked that little fantasy world. But I guess if it were going to miscarry/end inevitably, better sooner than later. I think I'm going to be able to get over this okay... let's be honest... it really wasn't good from the beginning.

Kari~

I just don't even have the words that could help. I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. Know you are in my thoughts.

HUGS!!

Laurie

Oh, Kari, I don't know what to say. This has been more than an emotional rollercoaster for you and I am so sorry. I really do think it would be best to call for another beta on Monday to see what is going on. I wish there was something I could say, but I know there's no way to stop worrying. You and DH are in my thoughts.

Lots of hugs,
Kelley

Oh Kari, I hate that you are going through this! I do understand how wonderful it feels even for just a few days to feel that it's the one! Either way I just wish you would know so you know what to feel!
Take it easy and keep us posted...... I guess I dont know what to pray for.... I think I will focus on prayers to give you strenght to accept what comes your way!!!

Comforting hugs to you!!!!!

OMG Kari I just cant believe you are going through this right now.Please please try not to worry.Just because you have slight bleeding does not mean you are miscarrying.I cant imagine how scared you are and you have every right to sweetie.I am going to be praying so hard for you.Did you take another HPT?Maybe a positive HPT would put your mind at ease a little.Just keep strong my friend and keep praying.I just dont know what else to say sweetie.I really hope and pray this is nothing.Sending you great big comforting hugs sweetie and just know we love you so much.

Love ya,

Mapia

Kari dearest - I am so so sorry for what you have to go thru... I did not have access to computer since Thurs (was out with clients etc.) and have been thinking about you all the weekend wondering how things went... logged on and read your first message on this thread and felt sooooooo happy... then read your other updates and I really feel your pain... I am so sorry that things have to be this way... :angel: praying for you and DH... :angel:

Wll it's definitely over. It was a painful afternoon full of heavy bleeding and painful cramps. Felt like a very painful period. Still bleeding and cramping but not as much as earlier. I actually feel like I'm having a period more than miscarrying. If it weren't for my periods being so light and painfree normally
I know I'd mistake this for AF. But I'm actually doing okay... The primary reason is I really don't think this is ectopic... That was the thing I feared even more than miscarriage. But all the uterine cramping convinces me it couldn't be ectopic. I'm also relieved this wasn't drawn out. All the bad stuff came on very hard and fast today so there wasn't a ton of time to really wonder, which is one of the hardest things in all this. talked to my RE twice today and will go in first thing to confirm HCG is going down. Thanks for all the support... I almost feel guilty I took everyone on this crazy roller coaster with me. I really love you all and appreciate your prayers.

No Kari, Don't feel guilty. You would be on the same roller coaster with any one of us. That is why we are all here. I have been thinking of you all evening and just keep wondering why something like this can happen. I'll never figure that one out. Know that we all care about you and you can come on here and post anything and we will support you.
Jennifer

Dear dear Kari - pls take care of yourself and take some good rest dear... praying that your cramping and painful bleeding goes away soon... :angel:

Kari, I have tears rolling down my face, I can't believe this is happening to you. This is so sad. You sound so strong, you are really an amazing person. What a ride you've been on- so many extreme highs and lows- i don't know how anyone can go through that and remain so strong. Just sending you my love, and praying that you'll be comforted, and find time to process all the goings-on of the last few weeks. Will log on tonight when I get home. Look after yourself sweetie. I just wish we could be there with you.
Lizzie xx

Oh Kari I am so so sorry.I dont know what to say I know there is nothing to say right now.Please please dont ever say you are sorry for anything to us.Like Jennifer said you would be on that same roller coaster with us and supporting us.There are no words I can say right now I know :(Just know you have been in my thoughts and prayers.BIG comforting hugs sweetie.

Love ya,

Mapia

Oh, Kari. I am so sorry. I am shocked, I really thought this would be the one for you. Please take care of yourself and DH as I can imagine it's going to be a tough few days. Thinking of you and sending big (((hugs))).

Lori

Oh Kari my dear friend I am so sorry for your loss. No matter what rollercoaster you have to ride I will ride it with you and there is no need for apologies. I do not know what else to say except that I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

I hope you feel better today. Thinking of you.

Love you
Char.

Oh Kari... please don't feel guilty, dearest. Please don't. I like knowing what is going on, so I can celebrate with you in good times and support you in hard time. And I know that other girls feel the same way. It's why we're here, because it's a support group, but we love you so much. And you're there for the people you love, no matter what.
Kari... I am so shocked!! You're sure this couldnt be breathrough bleeding (bleeding that happens when there are hormones raging in your body) at all? When I had it, it was exactly like a period, I coudn't tell the difference. And since your HCG is rising so rapidly, it would make sense if it were a breakthrough bleed. I don't want to raise hopes, but oh my gosh Kari I SO want this for you.
I am so sorry you have to be going on this horrible roller coaster ride... I can't believe how up and down it is. I wish that I could swing by and drop off a casserole and give you lots and lots of hugs. Maybe someday, but for now, lots and lots of warm, comforing ((((((HUGS))))))). I"m still praying for you, dearest. And hard.

Kari, sweetie I am so sorry you have to go through this mess. I pray that you keep staying strong and we hear a another miracle today, like a sky high HCG....I agree with Princess it can happen...You and your little embie will be in my thoughts all day. Take care of yourself:angel:AimeeM

Kari,

As everyone else has already said, please don't ever say that you feel guilty for taking us on a rollercoaster ride -- you've been on each and every one of ours, and that's what we are all here for!! I am so so sorry that you have had to go through this. I wish there was something I could do. I really want this to work out for you, more than anything. You are in my thoughts and my prayers.

Lots of gentle hugs,
Kelley

Hi Kari.

I am sorry to hear how crazy things are going for you. it is so hard to get positive news, then have something weird happen, then have to wait to hear news from a doctor or nurse. it is enough to drive you absolutely bonkers. How are you doing? I am hoping this bleeding stops and it was just a fluke and that everything continues on as normal. I want this so bad for you. and i am always in denial when i hear things aren't going as planned. so in my world i am still hoping and praying that you will have better news for us on your next post. Please hang in there.

Hi guys, hopefully most of you have seen my new thread that indicated the HCG went way up again, but I just want to make sure you all know that I had read your encouraging/supporting words last night and this morning. Again, thanks so much to all of you. I couldn't do it without you all. Seriously I think I'd be in a straight jacket right now if it weren't for this board. I know the odds are still stacked against me, but I feel I'm benefitting from you guys keeping the hope alive. Thank you again.

I will ask that the thread be closed due to length but had to say my thanks one more time.