Hi Mapia,

Hi! How are you feeling today? I hope all is well, and that you're enjoying your day! Just wanted to check in with you! And that the diet is still right on track ;)!

Love,
Kelley

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Sounds like you've got a great relationship with your N/T. That's awesome. I also read in another thread about you getting geared up to try that IUI of yours in the next month or so. You know I'll be right here supporting you girlie. Hope you are having a good evening my friend.

Kari thanks thanks thanks for your friendship after all you been through here you are supporting me.Man you are going to be an amazing mother my friend.Your kids are going to be so lucky.

It was heartbreaking and seeing him in BF's arms made me think.I cant wait to comfort my kids.He was so cute I gave him a big hug and he said oh godmom dont touch my arm it hurts they took blood from me.......lol.It was so adorable.Kari we will soon get to do all that even though I hate to even think that my child will have to hurt sometimes.

N/T is great we sat there for awhile yesturday and talked she asked me about america and so on.It was nice.Well I will probably do IUI in April and thanks for your kind thoughts.Love ya so much.

Mapia

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God I can't wait till we are laughing and warmed from the words and actions of our own little children. Overdue.... it's long over-due for all of us.

So IUI in April... that'll be good, right after your birthday. Even though you're not a big drinker at least you'll have the option of a cocktail on your b-day! ;) And if AF can somehow hurry up and visit me maybe I'll be told I can start things again sometime in April myself. It sure would be nice if we could get our BFP's together. :angel:

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Oh wow Kari I hope we can cycle together and get our BFP's together that would be awesome.I will keep praying for you my friend.Take it easy.

Love ya,

Mapia

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And yes, that would be so cool if we cycled together. :cool: That is definitely something I'll be rooting for. Hopefully we will know more about our next steps in the coming weeks. Well friend, I feel so beat up right now and am actually ready for bed and it's hardly even 9pm. Hope you are catching some good z's yourself right now!

Mapia,

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I'm so proud of you with your diet and the N/T! And since you won't let me eat McDonalds, you can't do it either! LOL! Seriously, though, you are doing great!!!!! If you do your IUI in April, your body will be completely in shape and ready!

I hope that you are doing well today. Have a great afternoon!

Love,
Kel

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Glad you got some good rest Mapia... we gotta have our bodies in good shape for our upcoming treatment cycles. Luckily I've got a good month or so, cause I do plan on whipping my butt into better shape like you've done! You're gonna have to keep pushing and inspiring me!

Hi Mapia

Sounds as though you are continuing to do an amazing job of sticking to your diet.... well done! I just know that you body is going to benefit from all this and you will be rewarded with your BFP.

Thinking of you and sending you love and hugs.

Ruby

Hi Ruby I was thinking about you today.Thanks for the support means so much to me.How are you sweetie?Hope you are well.I hope this will help me get my BFP as well.

Kari you can count on me to support you on getting into shape.You know I am here for you 100% my friend.Hope you are having a good day and got some rest.

Love ya,

Mapia

Mapia,

How are you today? As you said, all of your hard work WILL help you get that BFP. Just remember, the 6th cycle will be the lucky one ;)!!! And with all you've been doing to prepare yourself, your body is going to be in tip-top shape!!!!!!

I hope you're having a great afternoon/evening!!

Love,
Kel

Well Mapia, in my endeavors to get back in shape now that I'm off of treatment for a few weeks I hit the gym yesterday. My butt was so sore from the stupid progesterone shots... I just tried to power thru it and decided to run two miles. By the end of it, the injection sites were tingling, but I got through it. And it felt good to run 2 miles nonstop... I haven't done that in months or maybe even over a year! I seriously have no idea how I used to run marathons. My legs are so sore today from just two 11 minute miles!!! It's my goal to get up to five 10-minute miles before I start taking lupron again. I used to be able to do 5 miles in my sleep, backwards! :jester: Now, if only I could start eating better like you have done!!!!!!!!!! Last nite I indulged in waffle fries and at one of my fave restaurants and then came home and baked a few cookies and ate them right out of the oven. Kinda negates the awesome workout I had earlier, but I feel like it's okay for me to eat my comfort food considering the IF emotional rollercoaster I was on for the last week or so! ;) Well hun, I hope you have a fantastic weekend. I'm off to a spring training game and will let the warm sunshine (and beer and hot dog :D) keep me in a cheerful mood. Catch up with you soon sweetie!

Hey Kelley I am good thanks for asking.Well this will be IUI #9 not 6.I just hope this is it for me it has to be.But I am not going to get my hopes up to much.How are you feeling?

Hey Kari wow running 2 miles thats great I could never do that.Good for you and dont worry about having some comfort food you more then deserve it.Make sure DH rubs those legs for you tonight.........:D.I am sure you will be able to get to your goal soon.I hope you have a wonderful time at the game enjoy yourself.

Ok ladies I am having some trouble deceiding weather to do IUI April or May.I will tell you why I will be baptising BF's baby May 4th.My issue is that if I do IUI in April I will be in my 2ww probably then and during the baptisim I pretty much have to hold the baby for at least 45 minutes.She is already 16 pounds so by then she will be at least 20 if not more.So I am thinking it might not be wise to do IUI in April now or should I just go ahead with it and not think about it.Oh I dont know I am so confused.Would love some insight from my girls.Thanks.

Love,

Mapia

Mapia,

I am sorry, I really did think this was your 6th cycle. However, as lots of people have proved, there is no rhyme or reason to why a bunch of cycles don't work and then one does. So, I am believing that this IUI is going to be the one. Especially with all of your hard work getting into shape.

I know when to do the IUI is a tough decision, and it'd be hard for me to answer that one for you. I am not always the most patient person, so I'd be jumping to do it initially. But, I can understand your concern. If you are at all concerned about holding the baby for a prolonged period of time, then waiting would not be a bad option either. I'm sorry I'm not a lot of help. But, I'm sure you and DH will decide to do what's best for you.

I am excited for you to start another cycle. Sending lots of sticky baby dust for you to store up for when you're ready.

I hope you have a great weekend!

Love,
Kel

Hey Kel dont worry about mixing up my cycles there is so much on our minds and we cant keep up with everything.Honestly who knows why those cycles dident work well 1 was a chemical but my RE said that the sperm counts of the donor in the US were pretty low so that might be a reason why.Anyway I just believe its in gods hands and he will give me a baby when he feels is right.As for all the confusion about when to have IUI I just dont know how bad it is in holding the baby for so long while in 2ww.She is such a big girl I cant believe she is already 16 pounds she really doesnt look it I guess cause she is tall.Anyway I am like you dont have much more patience so I might just do it as planned.I mean if its meant to happen I feel it will happen no matter what.I just keep thinking of mothers who dont know they are pregnant and hold their other child or who do heavy lifting while not knowing and still end up having a fine pregnancy.Oh well we will see.Thanks for your help I appreciate it.

Love,

Mapia

I really do agree with you. There are so many people who do whatever they want, and everything works out. And then unfortunately times where they play by the book 100% and they don't. I know it is still a hard decision, and I know whatever you decide to do it will be the right thing for you.

I hope that you are having a great weekend!

Love,
Kel

Hmmm, well Mapia I think I should wait till I get my next IVF calendar before helping you decide when to do your IUI ;) I'm just kidding, even tho I'd really love to cycle with you I'm not that selfish :) As you know, I also don't have patience and want to try asap each time after a BFN. But looking at it from your perspective, I know how important your godchildren are to you and I'm sure you want to attend and enjoy that baptism to the fullest. Being in a 2WW could be distracting. I don't think that the physical aspect of holding little goddaughter would be that bad for you, but I do think the worry aspect of it could be bothersome. I know you will make the right choice tho. And it's gonna be a BFP either way sweetie!!!!! Let us know what you decide!

Hey Kelley and Kari thanks for your advice.I am just a little concerned thats all.Just dont know how bad it will be holding a 20 pound baby for almost 45 mins during my 2ww.Kari as for being in my 2ww I think the baptisim will actually help me get my mind off it since we will have some running around to do getting ready for it.Maybe talking to my RE and raising this concern to him he can guide me.Kari check your cycle and let me know maybe it will give me some help as to when to cycle..........lol.I know you are not selfish my friend you are so kind and always giving support to us all you are amazing.Kelley that goes for you as well thanks for your kindness those twins are very lucky to have a mom like you.:)In any case I still have some time to think about what I will do.Thanks again girls your friendship means the world to me.

Love ya,

Mapia

Hi Mapia

I can see your dilemma......... I think chatting with your RE will definitely help you to make a decision you feel comfortable with.

Hope your having a good weekend my friend!

Ruby

Hi Mapia,

I agree, it would be a good idea to talk to your RE & see what he thinks. I think it would be okay to do the IUI & still hold Godbaby for the baptism, but better to talk it over w/ your RE & make sure. I hope you're having a great weekend. Thinking of you...

Holly

Hi Holly and Ruby thanks ladies for your insight I think the best thing to do is talk to RE about it.I do agree RE will help me make a decision I will be comfortable with.Thank you ladies for your thoughts and support means a lot to me.

Enjoy your evening.

Love,

Mapia

Hey Mapia, hope you had a good weekend. I think you and the others really have the right idea talking to your RE about it. He's the one who will know what is best for you and your upcoming BFP ;) Good luck at your N/T appointment... I don't recall if you are back to Monday's or if you'll be going in on Tuesday, but either way wanted to wish you luck. I take it AF and all her rude symptoms are gone now? Well I'm thinking of you. Hope you have a good night.

Hey Kari yes I am going to give RE a call these days maybe the nurse can answer my question otherwise RE will call me and let me know.Yes AF is gone I am about to O now.I havent been feeling really good lately I just cant seem to get out of this funk.Seems like there are more bad days then good days.I mean even on the good days we are still not 100% happy so its just really getting to me.Just yesturday I talked to BF and she said well we just got back from taking the kids to the zoo.When we hung up I started crying DH was like what happened did something happen?I said no I just want to be left alone.He really thought I lost it this weekend.I just kept thinking why cant I be taking my kids to the zoo the weather is so nice out etc etc.Ok I am sorry I wont go on and on about my craziness.I just dont know how to shake this feeling I mean its really putting a strain on me and DH for that matter.No matter how patient he is at some point he might burst as well.Anyway sweetie thanks for listening.I have N/T on tuesdays still.So I will keep you posted.Take care of yourself.

Love ya,

Mapia

Mapia

I am sorry you are having such a hard time though at the same time i completely understand. It used to happen to me too...i used to cry cry and cry. I also used to ask DH to leave me alone. I think men sometimes can t understand certain things.
I wish i could give you a big hug or do something to make you feel better.
Sending you big hugs...

AMy

Mapia, I always do the same thing. "why can't I be taking my kid here" and stuff like that so you are not alone. A couple of months ago, My very obnoxius next door neighbor whose every other word is a curse word, was yelling very loudly at her 10 year old. He is kind of a bad kid but she was yelling at him because it was his birthday and he had the nerve to ask for a birthday cake! Even DH said it before I could. "Do you know how many people wished they had a child to buy a birthday cake for!" We are all going to be such wonderful parents.
Jennifer

Mapia,

I am so sorry that you had a rough weekend. Please don't ever think anything you post is 'craziness'. We all completely understand your feelings, and unfortunately they are normal. I wish more than anything that this was something none of us ever had to deal with. I think sitting down with your RE is a great idea.

I hope that you are feeling a bit better today. I am sending you lots of big hugs, and am thinking of you.

Love,
Kelley

Well ladies just when I thought things couldent get even worse today is BF bday so I called her at work to wish her happy bday and she tells me her DH took the baby to the doctor cause she was pretty sick very congested etc.The doctor told him to take her to the hospital.They kept the baby there BF left work the baby has bronchitis (sp).Poor poor sweet thing I went to see her my heart broke BF asked me to hold her a bit cause she was so tired I just rocked her and rocked her until she fell asleep.OMG I used everything in my power not to cry in front of BF cause she was a wrech.My heart broke into a million pieces.I told myself to keep it together for BF's sake.Just seems like one thing after another.I dont know this is just a bad streak for me.Thanks for all your support ladies it means the world to me to have such wonderful friends like you all.Love you all.

Love,

Mapia

Aww, its just like with animals (sorry to compare animals and people) but they are so helpless and can't tell you what is wrong. Hopefully the hospital can do everything they can to make her better fast.
Jennifer

My sweet Mapia, I am so sorry you have been having such a rough time lately. That is terrible news about the baby - you were so strong to keep it together for BF. I hope everything will be ok and she'll be better straight away. Babies come down with things so quickly but they also shake things off quickly. I'm sorry you've been getting upset, we can all relate to that. I remember being in the aquarium on my own, and there were so many young children around me - I just started sobbing. It always seemed to happen to me in public places, and I could never control it. It is so natural though, maybe it's best to go with it. Your time is coming - you will have your little ones to take to the zoo and the beach, and you'll have so much fun. The wait will definitely be worth it. You were born to be a fantastic mum, and you will be very soon. Thinking of you sweetie, I really hope you're feeling better soon.
Loads of love,
Lizzie

Thanks Jennifer I am sure the doctors are doing their best to help her recover real soon.

Hi Lizzie thanks for your kind words I know my day is coming just seems so far away you all know what I mean.I know the baby will shake it off quick she is just so adorable to top things off poor thing is teething as well so she is in double discomfort.She still managed to give her dad and mom and me a few smiles poor sweet dear.I held her so tight it felt so good being able to rock her to sleep.My friend your time is almost here to be a great mom.Take care of yourself.

Love,

Mapia

Mapia,

Oh my goodness, poor sweet little godbaby! I am so sorry that she is ill :(. You are a very strong person and such a great friend, you and BF are lucky to have each other. I truly hope that she is feeling better very soon and that she will be home from the hospital very soon too. This has been a rough time for you, and I know there's not much that I can say. You really are going to be an amazing mom, it isn't fair that you've had to wait, but your time is coming. Sometimes these down periods seem to weigh so heavy on you, but more positive days are coming.

Sending you lots of hugs,
Kelley

Mapia, you won't be too far behind me, I know it. I'm so glad the baby is smiling - that's a great sign. You've had so much good practice with babies you'll be a natural! I know it seems like an eternity waiting for your time to come. Hang in there my friend - look after yourself and treat yourself if you can.
Lizzie

Hey Kelley BF and I are lucky to have eachother we get so many comments about how awesome it is that we are so close.I am sure the baby will be out by Weds even a small chance tomorrow depending how she does tonight.Poor BF is staying there and sleeping in a chair.If I could I would stay with her but I am not allowed......:(I did although have a nice time with godson I took him to Mcdonalds and let him play there in the jungle gym he even ate his whole happy meal he hasent been eating lately so I was so happy when he said he was hungry.I just wanted to get his mind off things his face lit up when he say we were at Mcdonalds.It was priceless.:DThanks for the comment Kelley I think we will all be wonderful mothers.Take care sweetie.

Lizzie I hope that I will be right behind you as well.I have had a lot of practice with kids so I know a lot which will help when I will be a mother.But I am sure we will all be naturals.Take care sweetie.

Love,

Mapia

Hi Mapia,

You really have had a tough week, I am sorry! I really hope that godbaby is doing much better today!! That's good that you were able to spend some time with godson (and it sounds like he's eating much better now). Hang in there, I know a lot is going on for you right now.

Good luck at the N/T today!! I take it all is still going well?

Love,
Kel

Hi Mapia

I am so sorry to hear about your little godbaby being so unwell. It is very scary when little ones get sick like that. I hope she is soon on the road to recovery and back to her normal happy self.

Good luck at the N/T today. I am so proud of your efforts and whenever I feel like giving up on my diet I think of you and how well you have done........ you are an inspiration!

Ruby

Oh Mapia, I am so sorry godbaby is ill. I have been following your thread and I just had to post about godson and how you wrote about his face lighting up about McDonalds. I think you are such a good person to act on his being hungry instead of waiting, a great mother (someday soon) for taking him somewhere you know he will have fun at the same time as get a meal and an amazing friend for taking him in the first place. :angel: You are going to be an amazing mother, and these rough days will pass. You will soon get your BFP, I knwo you will. :angel:

xoxox

Hi Ruby and Kelley well appointment went ok with N/T I am still obtaining water so this week we have to do a detox.She told me sometimes our bodies get stuck with the water but we can trick it with the detox and get it going and let the pounds off.Its just that this weeks menu will change a bit and also less eating so I might be a little hungry.Oh well its only for a week and plus I want this so bad so I will survive.

Godbaby is still in the hospital she wont het out until thursday or friday poor thing.Plus BF is so exhausted as well she has been sleeping in a chair at the hospital poor thing.I wish I could do more like relieve her for one night but she wont leave plus I wouldent leave my child either.At least this way she is getting the proper medical attention and she will be feeling better.I couldent see her today cause my appointment with N/T was at the time visiting hours were so I dident make it.After my appointment I met up with an old friend for coffee it was nice since the weather has been beautiful.Anyway I cant wait to go see godbaby tomorrow I got her a teething toy to chew on you know the ones with the bubbles that you put in the fridge.Anyway I hope it will help with her teething.Well ladies thanks for your friendship.Have a wonderful afternoon.

Princess your words were so beautiful.Thank you for your kind words they mean so much to me.We will all be amazing mothers.His face lit up when he saw the jungle gym but my face lit up when he asked me to eat.Oh and he asked BF to call me today so I can take him again so he can play in the jungle gym I was so touched.

Love,

Mapia

Mapia, just wanted you to know I was thinking of you. I'm so sorry to hear about godbaby being so sick. Your bf must be beside herself w/ with worry. You're a very good friend taking godson for her during this trying time. I'll be praying for you all. Make sure you take care of YOU as well.

Love & hugs,

Holly

Mapia, I swear I posted to you earlier or maybe it was last nite, but I don't see it. So weird... maybe I dreamt I posted to you, which is totally possible considering my own state of mind the last few days! ;) Anyway, I just want to let you know your love and kind spirit is truly one of a kind. Your DH, BF, and godchildren are so blessed to have you in their lives. There really is no doubt you are going to make one fanstastic mommy. I know this final IUI will be the one for you. It's so over-due. Your zoo trip with your own children is way over-due. Thinking of you and hoping you are doing okay. Love, Kari

Mapia,

I'm happy to hear all is going well with the N/T. I would never have thought about retaining water and detoxing. She really seems to be very thorough. I am still so proud of you for your willpower and how you've stuck to this!

Poor little godbaby! And BF - I can't imagine how tough it is to watch your child in the hospital. I am glad she is doing okay, but I really do hope that she's feeling better each day and that she'll be home this week. Kari already said it, but your friends and family really are so lucky and blessed to have you in their lives. You are an amazing person and friend.

I hope that you are feeling okay, and that you're taking care of yourself.

Love,
Kelley

Hi Holly,Kari,and Kelley thank you all for your kind words you all brought tears to my eyes.I feel blessed as well to have such a wonderful DH and BF in my life and also to have my godbabies.Well I am going to go see her in a few hours I am going to run out now and buy her a teddy bear to take to her.Again thank you all for your kind words.I love you all so much and feel so blessed I have you all in my life as well.Take care.

Love,

Mapia

Good morning (good afternoon to you!),

How are you feeling today? I hope that you are doing well. I also hope that godbaby is doing much much better. I was thinking of her this morning.

Hope you are having a good afternoon.

Love,
Kel

Hi Mapia, I just wanted to check in and see how you are doing. I hope godbaby is doing better!!Try and get some you time this evening, I don't want you to burn out, dearest. :angel:

Hi Kelley and Princess thanks so much for your thoughts.I went and spent a few hours with the baby today.I fed her took her for a walk around the halls and then rocked her to sleep.Poor thing her arms and legs are bruised up from the IV's and blood draws.She is doing better they took the IV out.But she is just getting so frustrated from being poked at all day long.OMG BF told me today that the poor baby fainted 2 times.While they were trying to get blood so she was screaming and yelling and since she is so congested she fainted in BF's arms I said OMG did you lose it.She said well at that moment no I ran her to the sink and threw some water in her face.The doctor said its normal it happens.Oh my my poor sweet baby she is going through so much and BF said they might keep her until Monday my god.Let me tell you girls bronchitis in a baby is very serious apparently.Well I am ok just kills me to see the poor baby like that.Well ladies thanks again for your concerns.I kissed the baby for all of you.:DI even got her laughing a little bit she is so gorgeous with her big blue eyes.Well take care ladies.

Love ya,

Mapia

Mapia,

Please tell your BF we are all so worried over that darling baby, I would be scared out of my mind if my infant was being kept in the hospital this long. I can see how hard this illness must be on an infant, it sounds so scary and frustrating that you can't speed up the recovery for her. Please know I am sending my best to you, your friend, and her family. Maybe when she gets released from the hospital, you can offer an afternoon of babysitting so your BF can get some good rest. You try to get some rest as well and take care of yourself as best possible.

Christin

You know Mapia, in a sad way hearing about what little goddaughter is going thru puts a new perspective on all the If treatment shots we take. Yes they hurt, but we fully understand why we are doing them and even the dreaded progesterone shots, well I guess they really aren't that bad. But the poor children and babies who are so scared and don't understand, well it just breaks my heart. I couldn't imagine being in your shoes or your BF's for that matter! I hope GD keeps getting better. And how are you doing friend? Are you doing okay? I know we both had a rough couple of days. I hope you are alright. Thinkng of you. Love, Kari

Mapia

I am catching up on the threads ....i am so sorry about GD. My heart goes out to your BF and the little one. I know it s very tough i was in pieces when Jeremy spent 10 days at the NICU. His cries for each needle prick used to break my heart. I cried about 5 times a day i guess my hormones were over the place.
I am praying hard that GD will be out of hospital asap and that she wil be 100% ok very very soon.

How are you doing? BF is lucky to have someone like you during this difficult time. I know that on top of this all you had a tough week. Please take care of yourself.

Sending you big hugs and prayers.

Amy

Hi Chrisitin I will pass your message onto BF.It is scarey just seeing the baby in the hospital scarey.I will defently tell BF I will babysit I even offered to stay with the baby last night all night so BF can go home and get some sleep.She wouldent hear of it plus she said do you think I will sleep knowing my baby is here.I guess she is right but I offered.Thanks for your well wishes.

Kari it is so scarey to see a hopeless baby being poked at all day.There is one medication she has to take through a mask and poor thing hates it she fights and fights to get that thing off her face.I held her while I was there and I did manage to relax her long enough to be able to get the mask on and also through inhailing her medication.Just breaks my heart.At times I have tears in my eyes and try not to let BF see me.Exactly like you said at least we know why we are being poked but those innocent souls dont have a clue.

Hi Amy thanks for your well wishes I know you understand after going through it yourself.BF is the same way when she hears the baby crying while they are taking blood she cries so much.I am fine thanks for asking.I was having a bad week but after this happening I snapped out of it and had to be there for BF and baby.Thank you for stopping in.How are you and Jeremy?Give him kisses from me.Take care sweetie.

Love,

Mapia

It breaks my heart reading through your post. Once again i am so sorry.
It is so like you to put all your troubles aside to help your friend. You are amazing.

Jeremy s doing fine. Thanks for asking. He is putting on weight and getting taller. He is now at the stage of a full term baby.
Was slightly upset last week as i had to quit breast feeding. Since i have to satrt taking meds for my blood issues which are not safe for bf. I really felt like a failure....i am now over it and just want to enjoy being a mommy.

Really hope that things get better for you Bf and GD.
Sending you big hugs and kisses for the littli one.

Amy

Mapia I am sorry that GD is still in hospital. I can just imagine how hard it must be for you and especially for BF. I hope GD gets better soon so she can go home and be in her own environment. My sisters little one who is now 5 months is also suffering from bronchittis at the moment, he is luckily not in hospital bt he is going to physio everyday and the pediatritian (sp?) 3 times a week.

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you.

Love
Char

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