since i was young i forced all my friends to order my food
when i think about it i was scared of what the person would think of me
or what i was eating
i used to be way worst over thinking absolutely everything
even in a situation where i know nothing about the people
i think that they are watching everything i do and i try not to do anything
embarassing or anything that would make them think down on me
i one time waited for a complete different bus because i did not get on the
right one even thought i saw it
i thought the people in the bus stop would think i'm stupid if i got on the right one because i clearly saw the other one
i can't ask questions to strangers i can't buy clothes by myself
i can't phone any strangers like my school or when calling a manager
all sorts of stuff like that i'm constantly analyzing peoples behavior and
predicting their thoughts
even right now i'm trying to figure out what a person reading this would think of me and choosing some words carefully
is this a mild case or severe because i've learned to live with it
making other people do everything for me