My father died at age 61 on 11/29/07. He died from a very agressive type of brain cancer. Today, one year ago, was the first time he entered a hospital because he felt strange. Today, one year ago, was the first time I ever imagined my father being sick. The memories and fear of the phone call I recieved one year ago today are as vivid as ever. It just hurts my heart so bad. I miss him more than I could've ever imagined. It's just a pain and emptiness that i've never felt before and couldn't even begin to explain. I'm just terribly upset and I don't know how to express the pain or deal with it. That's really all i have to say right now. I just needed a place to vent all the emotions i'm feeling right now.

Melissa

Melissa,

My Dad passed away 2 years ago at the age of 51 from a brain tumour. From healthy and running daily to gone forever was 1.5 years.

Today would have been his birthday.

My sister and I talk frequently about the loss. While our day to day lives look 100% normal...it is just as painful as the day we received his diagnosis.

My boyfriends father died 7 years ago...he agrees that the loss of a parent never leaves you...but we will (but not yet) find other ways to deal with it.

It's hard to explain, isn't it. Most of the time you feel fine...though the memories of their illness and the effects of losing them are never far away.

We think of our Dad's the first each morning and last thing each night, and we have to hope they taught us lifes most important lessons while they were with us here on earth.

While I'm not overly religious...in fact I don't go to church at all...I chose to believe that my Dad served his purpose on earth and was rewarded with a trip to heaven where he will suffer no more pain or saddness...only happiness for eternity.

Know that you're not alone, Melissa. Everyone who has lost a parent feels your pain.

Cindy

I know how you feel im so sorry. 2 years ago a man died he was like my father then a month later my father inlaw died. now this past summer my little boy died.
Death is so hard and I still can't sleep well either.
HUGS