Im autistic.
Iv always told everyone no i grew out of it. But hell no. I definitly have not.
I want to find out if im insane or not.
Just generally to prove im not alone and maybe get the courage to say emm you know what?? I never grew out of it. It is as bad as ever how the hell didnt you notice.
I have to know how to feel more human. I have to know if maybe it is obvious everyone already knows and thats why iv had no relationship contact for well over a year now.
just if you feel the same please reply.
Not if you arent in a similar situation and just feel like you know fine well how i feel just because you read this.


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I want real conversations

The general public is very ignorant about autism and no amount of explaining is going to make them understand. People have said really stupid things to me about my son and about myself. You are not crazy. People make you crazy with the dumb things they say to you. I am waiting to get dx with AS, but I am getting the dx so I can make sense of my life. What makes me mad is that I am so much smarter than most people my age, but at work I never get to share my ideas. I am always being told to shut up and I have to sit by myself whenever we do a team project. I would love to work by myself, but I know that will never happen. I am always losing my job because my managers say I have no social skills and I can't work in a team. The things that happen are not even my fault. Other people bother me and do stupid things that get on my nerves. If they would leave me alone, I would never get in trouble. I have always been told that I have a negative attitude and that my problems are in my head. Everything I do is wrong, according to others. I don't wear the right clothes, I interrupt other people and talk about boring things that no one else cares about. They wish I would just go away. I have told people about my family history of autism and that I think that's what is wrong with me. Then I'm told that I'm stupid and making excuses for myself. It never ends.