Hello i am 35 yeaRS old and i have been taking HYDROS now for a little over a year and I have went threw WDs once before and I do not think I can go threw that pain again on my own. I can not go to REHAB because my husband as no idea about me taking these pills i take about 10 or more aday 10 mg and if i do not have HYDROS then i take METHADONE to keep me from having WDs but i am scared i will want to take more of them also. If i talk to my pain dr dose anyone knows if they will be able to help me without going into REHAB?? If anyone can help me please do so i have to go threw this all along because my husband does not support me in anything HE THINKS that people should be able to stop anything that they want to and when they want to he does not understand or care... THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME AND FOR ANY HELP...

Hello Teresa -- welcome, but sorry you're going through this. I too just came on-board to try to get some support while tapering off oxycodone. Can you do a slow taper, to try to minimize the WD symptoms? That's what I am trying to do....but I'm only on Day 2.

Teresa72,

Considering how your husband views addictions (my ex-wife was the same way) it might help you to find a support group. I attend AA weekly (2 meetings a week is available but I can only go to one because of my job). In my AA group there are several people who are addicts alone and addicts along with alcoholism. You will find people there who are not only caring understanding but also have gone through the same things that you are going through. It helped me to know that A) I wasn't alone in my struggle to stop drinking, and B) I could freely share my feelings, my ups and downs, my successes and my relapses without being judged or criticized but encouraged to keep at it.

It would probably help to have a doctor prescribe Ativan or Xanax during your withdrawl period. While addictive, they can seriously help the withdrawls and the anxiety that goes along and if you only take them for a month or so, and then taper off of them to minimize any withdrawls, maybe a little insomnia but Ambien, Seroquel, or Unisom can help there. I went from Ativan to Ambien to Seroquel (used also for the depression associated with my Bipolar II). Seroquel works great for me, I work graveyard and it zonks me out for 8 hours amidst noisy boys rough housing in the house, i dont hear them at all. You should read up on its side effects though. Not every one experiences them (I dont), but alot of people do. Good Luck!

Hello Teresa and welcome,

I did a rapid taper off Oxy and had a Hydro habit that lead up to the Oxy.

The speed of my taper left me hurting pretty bad but the slower you go the easier it is physically on you. I found the mental toll would have been greater if I extended my taper and I decided I could handle the physical discomfort easier than the mental.

Tapers are easier to do yourself. There is also something called SUB that helps with the W/D's but I don't know anything about that since I didn't use it. I have heard it helps with the W/D's but you need a doctor to get it.

Have you read the thread at the top of the board named "sample home detox"

It is some good reading and may help you in your journey.

I am on day 44 clean and I feel great. Just like normal again. When I started here on this board I was still using and in the middle of my most painful W/D's. If you have the time read some of my posts to see what I went thru and what some of the others went thru.

You can live without the pillz. You will get back to normal without them.

Remember: There is a road into H*LL and there is also a road out.

Just find your road out and you will be fine.

Hope I helped.

As Always,
Peace.
Baja

Hi Theresa. I, too, was on hydrocodone for about a year, taking up to 16 pills a day. I went through w/d's a few times because my prescription ran out, so I know how bad it can be, but this last time (and it will be the last time) I tapered off slowly, and it really made a huge difference. The physical part wasn't nearly as bad, and I was actually able to go to work. The mental part was a little harder for me, but that goes away with time. I have a feeling you will get pretty bad anxiety and maybe depression, but if you stick it out, this does go away. I haven't been clean very long, but I feel pretty normal now and I am so glad I didn't give in when I started feeling anxious and depressed. I hope you can give yourself a chance to come as far as I have, because if you do, you will honestly believe that you can get better. If you can get through the first week, you will begin to see a difference for the better. One word of advice...When you finally stop, make sure you don't have any pills lying around...You will be tempted and won't be very strong. You can do this, Theresa...I thought I was a hopeless case, and I'm living proof that it can be done. Please keep us posted.

WOW, I was there about 18 months ago. I didn;t let anybody know I was taking anything. When it all came down, I was suprissed that my wife was my biggest support. I stopped cold and had a very long couple days od W/D. I will say this...when I start thinking about taking it again, i remeber those couple days. i found after a little while, I stopped thinking about it so much. it was a difficult struggle for a bit. You will feel etter when you don't wonder when he find out...he will eventually. You can at least "own" it and tell him. You will atleast feel better about that.
Steve

Sorry that you have to meet us all under these circumstances. However, I have to agree with all the advice that you have been given. WD's are no fun, but just remember that with each passing day it will get easier.

As far as your pain doc goes, are you able to tell him that you are addicted to the pills? If not, maybe you could get a refill and do a taper to ease the WD symptoms?

Good luck and know that you can always vent to us here and we can help you through this.

Maggie

sorry you'er going through wds maybe this will help. i started taking tabs also because of an accident and to make a long story short i progressed all the way to a methadone clinic now your talking about wds you're so sick for 10 days then you feel like you're withdrawling off tabs for the next 3 weeks i thought i'd never be normal again, well i got back on the liqiud handcuffs again and yesterday was my first day of wds and i thought i was going to die. but there's a med called subutex & suboxone and only certain drs can prescibe it, I took my first one this morning and felt lots better, you may want to checkk on this in your town because you will not suffer at all. good luck

Hi, I thought I would put in my 2 cents for you as well. I had an oxy habit, taking about 20 a day and my husband knew nothing about me abusing them. I hid it so well. I always had my pills in my purse and with me and when I ran out I would tell him I am just not taking them for a few days or I would have some sort of "injury" and need to go to urgent care for more pills. I was so scared to tell him because he was so sheltered as a child I thought he would divorceme and take our child. Boy was I wrong. I have never had better and more support than from this man. We have a detox place here that will take you even if you cant pay. He called them for me and took me over after packing my bags. I knew at that time it was not healthy for my child to see me in that condition so I went to the detox center. Iwas so scared but my husband held my hand the whole way and would even come visit a few times a day just to hang out. We would play board games and such. For my W/d I took Clonodine and it worked wonders for me. The mental part was the worst, guilt for putting my family through this for 3 years, anxiety that was uncontrollable, and depression that dropped me to my knees. I hope my story and the others you read will help. I think you might be surprised at what your husband says if you tell him,I sure was. Best of luck, if all of us can do it then you can too. You will be in my thoughts, Lindsay

I can understand completely what you are going through. My first wife had the same attitude. Its a education issue, they are not willing to go reasearch it and feel there opinions are more important than the facts. My wife is a RN on a pediatric BMT unit and she did not understand the complete facts untill I sat her down and told her and showed her. I considered going to outpatient rehab without telling anyone but decided not to hide from anyone. I start my sub Friday. I was lucky found a outpatient rehab that is great, the guy that started this clinic was very sucessfull in business and kicked a huge pain pill addiction that bankrupted him despite of a 250,000 income. Good luck and wish you the best on whatever path you decide to go on to beat this. Ive had a lortab addiction for over 3 years 10 to 20 a day depending on stress level and finances.