This month I had an HIV scare due to a sexual experience last year. Thankfully my results were negative, but the scare is still with me. I have never been one to sleep around. Infact i have only had 3 partners in my life, one being a man that I know hope to spend the rest of my life with.

While I awaited for my results my boyfriend was the biggest sweetheart. Im not sure why, but instead of hating me for potentially giving him this disease he told me everything was going to be ok and no matter what happened he would be with me even if by some mircle he ended up negative he would still love me the same. But those few weeks really did change me. I started praying to God more which i really havent done in a very long time. Im back to the old me know that i have gotten my results, but I cant find myself to be sexually active anymore which he doesnt understand.

I just find the whole sex thing to be dirty. We do "other" things but even though i am far from a virgin I think I might want to wait until him and I get married before continuing our sex life again. He is completely ok with waiting a few years as long as he still gets SOME kind of action ;) I just feel like life is more valueable now and I dont see the problem in waiting to have sex.

But my question is, is this ok? Did anyone else experience these feelings after their scare? If so did you ever get back to normal? I feel like im still me, but a little different now... im not sure how i feel about my new outlook yet

I think it's a good choice, if it's what you're comfortable with, but you can always use protection. :P

well i'm still freaking out even though i've been neg twice.

but yes it has changed me as well, i also pray to god more now, find myself talking to him, find myself trying not to waste time and to enjoy life every minute i can, i get up early now every day just so i can experience the day more, i used to wake up at like 10 or 11 every day, so as of now i think the whole experience has improved my life, but i am going to go get tested again in june to make sure. still have some of the "symptoms" i guess but i dunno.

i am glad everything has turned out so well for you. take care.