I am 32 and DH is 33. We have a 14 year old son named Cody and an 11year old daughter named Jordan. I gave birth to Cody at 17 and had Jordan when I was 20. Being only 20 and with 2 kids already, we thought we were done with having babies. I was urged by family members to have my tubes tied. When our daughter was about 4, we decided that we would go through a tubal reversal surgery.

After several years of trying, we decided to take a break. I actually got pregnant during this time, but sadly it ended in a miscarriage at 10 weeks. I gave up hope and decided to give up on trying to have anymore childern.

Something came over me this past Dec. and I felt it was time to move forward and try IVF. Our first cycle went well, but still I got a BFN. We are currently waiting to find out if our Fet will bring us our BFP on Monday, April 14th.

I am feeling so emotional as I'm writting this. I'm wondering if this journey will have a happy ending. Everyone around me is already pregnant and I would love to know what that feels like again.

I am happy to have the childern I have. I only wish I could experience it again. I am a great mom. It's what I do best. Afterall, I am the one people call for advice for what to do with their babies. Kind of ironic. Wish me luck.