leoball80
04-12-2008, 08:54 PM
I have struggled with nearly every single ED possible From anorexia to non purging bulimic to compulsive eater. After YEARS of this cycle I have managed on my own though self help resources, to eat healthy for 21 weeks.
The bad news, I am still so possessive and emotional over "my food". My parents go to the grocery food store once a week and pick out some of the stuff that I put on the list like yogurts, healthy choice dinners health foods etc..Towards the end of the week when my foods start running out I get very irritable, and I get very upset. I feel when my health foods run out my days drag on longer and I am more tempted to over eat on junkfood. I HATE not having all the food I picked out here since I plan my entire day of what I will eat. How do I stop being SO attatched to this food? I am happy I haven't been over eating, but I still notice a huge change in my mood when my foods are running low. I take my anger out on others and even CRIED about it before. I don't want to keep on living for food but so far even though my food intake is under control, food is still something I look forward to and love too much. Please help! Is there any way I can stop basing my moods and if I will have a good/bad day on FOOD??:(
The bad news, I am still so possessive and emotional over "my food". My parents go to the grocery food store once a week and pick out some of the stuff that I put on the list like yogurts, healthy choice dinners health foods etc..Towards the end of the week when my foods start running out I get very irritable, and I get very upset. I feel when my health foods run out my days drag on longer and I am more tempted to over eat on junkfood. I HATE not having all the food I picked out here since I plan my entire day of what I will eat. How do I stop being SO attatched to this food? I am happy I haven't been over eating, but I still notice a huge change in my mood when my foods are running low. I take my anger out on others and even CRIED about it before. I don't want to keep on living for food but so far even though my food intake is under control, food is still something I look forward to and love too much. Please help! Is there any way I can stop basing my moods and if I will have a good/bad day on FOOD??:(

