Its been maybe a few months or so since my dad died suddenly due to a motorcycle accident...i had been previously estranged from my family and hadnt seen them in years...and now for the first time in years I am back in touch with them....it is very hard...I am having a hard time sleeping lately....I get nightmares about the accident..even with the medication....he died before i was ever able to talk to him again...seeing my mom again has been painful...having a hard time making sense of things these days....randomly found this message board...thought id give it a shot..cant hurt..right?

Be encouraged. It does get better beleive it or not. I lost my dad some years ago! He had been ill, but was coming home from the hospital the next day. He passed away that night. It was very hard for me. Try and take it one day at a time. Every year gets better. Death is just another part of life, but also not the end of life. Their is life after this one for those that beleive, so your father just moved on. Jesus said that "I am the ressurrection and the life, and he that beleives in me, and though he were dead, he shall live again."

As you say it's only been a few months and you still feel like everything is unreal. I know how this feels cos I lost my dad suddenly just over 2 years ago on valentines day. He was ill but died suddenly from L.V.F. Although I was with him the day before he died, I had no idea that it would be the last time I ever saw him and cos of this i felt guilty for months afterwards- also having probs sleeping and functioning with life in general. The main things to remember are that you're not alone in all this and although you didn't get to speak to your dad, I feel that he knows what you would want to say to him.
As you say it can't hurt to talk on here about how you're feeling or not, a lot of people find that talking about stuff really helps and at least on here you can pretty much guarantee that someone else knows just what you're going through and how you're feeling right now.
You don't say if you have any support from friends or a partner, but if you do and they offer, at least think about accepting it. Other than that, things will start to seem clearer with time and you're always welcome to chat on here.
Take care (hugs)
Poppy